HopelessRomantic

nineteen years of existence | Bibliophile | Melancholic | My account is 50% fangirling and 50% personal | JaDine Fans | Swifties | HSM Lover |

[ellainegarcia13]

I miss posting here. Maybe its time to go back.

[ellainegarcia13]

Nung time na bago pa lang ang Island of Fire, ay ayoko siyang basahin. Based sa mga comments at reactions, hindi ko nagustuhan yung ugali ni Zariyah. Actually natapos ko na ang CLS 1,2,4,5,6 bago ko binasa yung cls 3. And maybe the reasons why I don't like Zariyah at first is because of these;

Her soul loves freedom so much.

She loves glitterings things. She loves extravagant things.

She is independent woman.

Sobrang nakarelate ako sa kanya, and I think kaya ayoko siyang basahin kase ganun din ako. I mean, ayokong tinatali ako sa isang bagay na hindi naman dapat. Gusto kong lumipad nang mag-isa. Na walang tulong galing sa iba. Ayokong may nagdedesisyon na mga dapat kong gawin sa buhay. Yeah, I love freedom and I am independent but at some point, naisip ko na din na sana may taong makakita nang totoong ako. Yung mamahalin ko at mamahalin din ako.

[ellainegarcia13]

This person allows me to be real while I was in Iloilo. Surely, I don't know him in real life but we have known each other for almost 3 or 4 years now. I mean, yeah, that's the first time we met in personal but nothing changed. The way he talks to me and approach me in chat is still the same. Just like how we used to be. He is always be my best friend. My listener and I am the one who always have dramas in life, but he's a talker too, okay? Hahahaha. I mean, jusko. Nung nagkita kami akala ko sa chat lang madaldal, mas madaldal pala sa personal. Yeah. He's like that. Ang daming kwento, but I'm always listen to his stories. And I'm always thankful that I know him. I'm sure he's thankful too because he has me in his life. (Ang yabang ko sa part na ito. HAHAHAHAHA.)

Lagi ko din naman sinasabi sa kanya na thankful ako na nag-exist siya sa buhay ko. Haynako. Ang yabang mo na naman, lumalaki lalo ego mo. Haha.

I just wanna post this pics because I can't upload it in my other social media accounts because my parents doesn't know that I know someone in Iloilo. Sorry rebel girl at my finest. Ganun talaga ko eh.

Wala lang. Napadrama lang. Gusto ko lang talaga ito iupload. Tagal na din eh.

[ellainegarcia13]

So, that means that, hindi na tuloy yung samgyupsal kase hindi naman siya nagrereply. It's okay kung ayaw niyang manglibre sabihin niya lang, hindi yun muka akong tangang naghihintay ng reply niya kung tuloy ba kami bukas o hindi? Pagod na kong intindihin siya, so I guess. This is it. Kung ayaw niya hindi wag. Ayoko na.

[books-n-quotes]

“A great book should leave you with many experiences, and slightly exhausted at the end. You live several lives while reading.”

— William Styron, Conversations with William Styron (via books-n-quotes)

[books-n-quotes]

“I guess it’s true what they say: if you wait long enough everything changes.”

— Junot Diaz, This Is How You Lose Her (via books-n-quotes)

[ellainegarcia13]

I hoping, please.

[ellainegarcia13]

I really hate it when they talk about me especially sa kursong natapos ko. I know what my problem is and I'm afraid to fail again. I'm sorry kung hindi ako matanggap. I'm sorry if I'm not enough. I'm sorry if I failed you guys especially my parents. I'm sorry kung unti unting gumuguho ang mga pangarap ninyo sakin. Hindi ko naman sinasadya. I'm guess, I'm not enough. God knows how much I want to have a permanent job but maybe that's not for me. I'm so sorry if I failed all of you.

[ellainegarcia13]

My birthday wish is to travel the Taal Heritage of Batangas. Someone please give me money so I can go there. Pretty please. 😂😂

[ellainegarcia13]

Kow. Malabo pa din mangyari ito. Hahahaha. Money, where na you? I need you. Pero sana may magregalo na lang sakin ng TSIB book, pretty please. May ata irerelease yun, gandang pangregalo sa sarili noh? Wala kaseng magbibigay sayo nun. Hahahahaha.

[ellainegarcia13]

It's been a while and I'm back. Siguro nga, babalik at babalik ako dito dahil hindi ko kaya maglabas ng saloobin sa twitter because people know me in person will ask what's my problem. So yeah, dito na lang ako kay tumblr, atleast walang nakakakilala sakin personally. 😂

[ellainegarcia13]

[ellainegarcia13]

Totoo pala talaga na dapat huwag magmadali. Kase once na may masabi kang mali, ang hirap nang ibalik o bawiin. Sabi nga lagi, in God's perfect time, you will meet someone that will trusts and love you unconditionally. Someone that will accept you for who you are. You dont have to beg for his/her time, because he/she will always make time for you.

[books-n-quotes]

“Real life doesn’t have many happy endings. Why shouldn’t books make up the difference?”

— Scott Westerfeld, Afterworlds

[ellainegarcia13]

Indeed.

[ellainegarcia13]

Sabi ko dati, nakakamiss pala ang may nagpapaalala sayo ng "kumain ka na. Goodmorning. Kamusta?, etc." Jusko. Pinaramdam lang pala sakin yun sa loob ng apat na araw. Bakit? May mali ba kong nagawa o nasabi? Sorry kung gaano. Ang hirap pala talagang magreach out sa isang tao na pinapahalagahan mo.

[books-n-quotes]

“Sometimes I feel as though there are two me’s, one coating directly on top of the other: the superficial me, who nods when he’s supposed to nod and says what he’s supposed to say, and some other, deeper part, the part that worries and dreams… Most of the time they move along in sync and I hardly notice the split, but sometimes it feels as though I’m two whole different people and I could rip apart at any second.”

— Lauren Oliver, Delirium

[books-n-quotes]

“We would be together and have our books and at night be warm in bed together with the windows open and the stars bright.”

— Ernest Hemingway, A Moveable Feast

[ellainegarcia13]

A moment like this. ❤

[marcelosantosiii]

Baka kailangan mo lang ng time with your true friends, yung tropa mong nandiyan noong may problema ka, or that one friend na hindi ka sinukuan.

Talk to them, connect with them again. Sabi sa research na nabasa ko, ang pinaka-main factor na nagpapasaya sa mga tao ay hindi ang pera o material things, achievements, fame - kundi ang healthy and happy relationships. Isa na doon ang relationship mo with your barkada.

So go! Chat mo sila. Kape kape kayo. Tambay sa inyo. Usap about life, about love. 

Catch up!

[ellainegarcia13]

Sana pede namin tong gawin. Sobrang busy na nila. 😭😭

[books-n-quotes]

“That’s how you know you love someone, I guess, when you can’t experience anything without wishing the other person were there to see it, too.”

— Kaui Hart Hemmings, The Descendants