Miss Not So Sunshine
Slow Horses (nick duffy x f!reader)
Getting word of Ingrid giving the 'clear the board' order to Nick, being his fiance and knowing how Slough house has again and again evaded the dogs, you go to intervene and end up saving his life
(TW: death, blood, violence, guns, mentions of pregnancy, mentions of death or dying)
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The moment you had walked into the park you could tell some serious shit was going down, seeing your coworkers mumbling amongst themselves and glancing towards Taverners office where Ingrid was standing looking over the ground floor with her usual intimidating gaze. You turn your attention towards the small group of people and hear your desk neighbour Jess say something along the lines of "I can't believe the first desk would put out a clear the board order on our own" her words at the time went completely over your head it was a busy day and you haven't even had time to sit down and breathe. It isn't until Mark, one of your peers who you dreaded speaking to smirked at Jesse's comment and your appearance and piped in "well ____ that is a good question, how could you be with a man who is ordered to kill people? Not to mention he's a literal psycho" the others quietly giggle at him while you, quite annoyed and also tired muster up the response "mark, first of all you asked if you could carry a gun like 6 times when you first joined...you work at a desk all day, kinda concerning if you ask me, and secondly, Nick is just doing his job but when he's around people he actually cares about and likes he is a gentleman, and thirdly Jess what the hell is this clear the board shit, on our own where?" You say hoping to change the topic and avoid the judgemental looks of your coworkers, something that has been happening since your relationship with THE Nick Duffy was found out. You can tell he wants to respond to the first part but Jess beats him to it, she gestures you towards her desk to see Taverners office better "Ingrid ordered a clear the board for one of our file storage facilities, from what I've heard apparently people from Slough house are in there, something about grey books" she pauses to sigh before sitting down in her chair "pretty fucked up right ordering agents to kill other agents all because of some piece of paper" she was right, it was ridiculous. You thought about calling Nick, asking if he was okay and what they were going to do, something in your gut just told you that something bad was going to happen and you should warn him but the chances of him answering during a time like this were low, so walk calmly back out of the park and dial a number you know you'll get an answer from... unfortunately...that is
Ring
Ring
Ring
"You are calling the one and only, the beast and the beauty-" "Roddy Ho, I need you to help me with something" you can hear the sound of his chair leaning back through the phone "oh yeah, and to what do I owe the pleasure of helping such a beautiful creature like you" you immediately regret calling his number especially after just having lunch, you could feel it coming back up just be listening to his poor pick ups, you look around the side security gate to make sure no one is listening to you and lean against the security box "listen Roddy, I know about Standish being missing and about the people going to get these grey books, I need you to tell me where it is" the line goes silent for a while, you can hear faint taps of his keyboard. "Why do you wanna know? Wouldn't be a good spot for our first date now would it?" You sigh loudly and fiddle with your car keys "Roddy look, Ingrid ordered a clear the board for that facility, whoever from Slough house has gone there is not going to make it out unless they have enough bullets to get all the dogs" you swallow your last words....dogs...all the dogs...Nick please let Nick not get shot...."river and louisa went to meet up with the people that kidnapped Standish, I can send you the address but don't let me be caught up in any of this, whatever blood bath shit your into like your fiance that's not my style" you feel a huge sense of relief followed by a sense of urgency and nervousness, yes you carried a service weapon as you weren't always at a desk but you've never had to use it luckily and hopefully won't have to.
When you arrive at the storage facility it's dark and raining, you see the Black SUVs that the dogs drive and your breath hitches...they're all empty. Which means they are all inside including Nick, suddenly the nausea you had felt this morning was coming back and much stronger. Walking past all the cars you can hear yelling up ahead, squinting you see dogs armoured heavily rushing towards where they are directed. The gun in your holster feels much heavier than usual, you've never had to use it before and hoped you never would. "OI YOU FOUR GO NOW" the familiar yelling of your fiances snaps you out of your anxious thoughts, looking in the distance you see Nick talking on the radio, you can tell he's visibly stressed as he sends more dogs down. 'Which means river and louisa are fighting back' you thought while taking cautious steps around the cars to get a better look. Within the split second of you moving behind and around cars Nick has begun walking to the warehouse, automatic in hand. The uneasiness suddenly overtakes any kind of emotions you were feeling before, hunching over you empty whatever was left in your stomach from lunch. There're two ways you can go about this...wait and hope Nick does what he does best or go after him and risk being shot....shot...your hand instinctively goes to your stomach where a very small bump is forming, this is the stupidest decision you could ever make especially now but...you can't imagine going through this pregnancy alone. The warehouse is silent, no more shots fired, now's the time to go in after him. You crouch and run after him, gun loaded and ready if needed. You make it to the outside of a room where two voices can be heard, both not happy...Nick's voice is what you hear before suddenly all you can hear is the sound of grunting and fighting.
The breath that's been held in for who knows how long is let out as you raise the gun and carefully walk in to the room, Nick's on the floor, Marcus on top of him. You knew Marcus briefly, he was going to be a dog but declined. "Hands in the air Marcus" you say, trying to stay as calm as possible. He looks shocked almost as shocked as Nick is as they both look at you, "woah alright" Marcus shuffles off Nick and keeps his hands up, you turn to Nick "what the actual fuck are you thinking Nick, this isn't a fucking fight club" anger starts to take over as your hands tremble on the gun. Out of the corner of your eye you see a familiar face, Louisa, shes holding a concrete brick, you turn the gun towards her "drop the brick Guy, we aren't doing this shit today" Louisa drops the heavy brick, echoing the noise throughout an awkward and heightened situation. "Love, why the fuck are you here?" You look to Nick to see him standing, blood on his face and knuckles, once again anger washes over you. Turning to Marcus to see a similar look, bloody face bloody knuckles "are you two boys serious right now?!??" You yell holstering your gun. "Marcus you have a wife and kids, god forbid you think about them and make smart decisions!" Louisa and Marcus share a glance at eachother at your statement, not that you care, you shift your focus to Nick...your fiancee Nick dumb enough to get into a fist fight with someone he doesn't like "Nick Duffy I swear to fucking god, I get you are the head of the dogs and I knew that when I said Yes to your proposal but to die over a fight with someone who doesn't like you is so idiotic, I would NEVER forgive you if I had to raise this damn baby all by myself" all the weight on your shoulders suddenly lifts, you run a hand through your hair as Marcus is silently checking in on Louisa. "Wait baby?" Nick sounds baffled, something you don't get from him often. Shit. What a way to find out your going to be a dad. "Believe me this isn't the way I wanted to tell you, but when I heard people at the park saying a clear the board...god I couldn't imagine losing you Nick, you are just fucking reckless sometimes. Same with you Marcus, I mean your wife is at home right now with your babies, she'd be heartbroken" you feel your cheeks getting wet. Fucking hormones. Nick stands like he doesn't know what to do for once, "Shirley's outside with River if you want-" "Yeah" Louisa and Marcus both make their way out of the cold dark room. Now it's you and Nick, his shoulders drop "You shouldn't have come here, you could've gotten hurt" he says just above a whisper, his hands going from fists to open, your hand once again goes to your stomach "Nicky, I wasn't going to lose you over some piece of paper" he relaxes his body more and steps towards you cautiously "Love, you weren't going to lose me" that soft tone instantly eases your nerves. "But I could have and that's what scares me" he steps closer and pulls you in gently, Nick's embrace is everything you need. "Come on let's get you out of here" he whispers guiding you by your lower back out of the body filled building. Nick guides you towards his SUV, passing the three from slough house, you glance at them and see river holding a file, that fucking stupid file almost resulted in your fiance, the father of your unborn child, to die in the field. You switch your gaze to Marcus, he stares back and nods, a nod of thankfulness, you smile and nod back before turning your attention back to Nick, who's on the phone to a very angry Ingrid before her line gets cut. He sighs and tucks his phone back into his pocket and takes his keys out "come on love, will need to stop at the park first and then we can go home, sound like a plan?" You grin "yeah...yeah it does sound like a plan"
Fin
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Bro I'm so angry right now I wrote such a long and cute ending and Tumblr deleted it... I hope you enjoyed the shorter version tho...I'm so sad I put like an hour into the ending 😭 I'll make it up by making another fic soon...maybe
