Controversy Is My Second Middle Name

Sometimes, I have conversations in my head.

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🎨 by Slinky

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The Model Minority

Obey

Comply

Model minority is a lie

Be the model minority

In this western society

Pull your weight

Serve their capitalist state

Remember to comply

If you want to qualify

Obey

Comply

The model minority is just another fucking lie

Ingrate

Why don't you assimilate

Not your model minority

In your colonial fantasy

You expect me to be

Part of your society

Play by your rules

Servitude

A good immigrant

A law abiding servant

Obey

Comply

The Model minority is yet another fucking lie

I'm trying to live my life

I don't wanna be your Asian wife

I'm not some exotic sex object

I deserve some respect

What did you expect?

You colonised my country

And you have displaced me

And now

you want me to be the model minority

Is this liberty

From oppressive society?

Did you save me from me?

Save me from my anger

Oh white saviour

It doesn't matter to me

What the majority

are expecting from me

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TRY THIS!!!!

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What Linda Lovelace never told you. @deannamosca

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Teddy pulled a Scomo #scottandtedexcellentadventure #scottandtedbogusjourney #scottandtedfacethemusic

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My Molotov

As you run in circles, you burn a hole in the ground

You were always there but never around

I'll light up your fantasy and burn your reality

You wore your ignorance like a crown

I will burn all bridges to stay warm

I burnt this bridge that led to your arms

I'm not beautiful

I'm much more than that

My flame will burn this doormat

You won't see me until it's too late

Until all that's left is hate

I'm too old to regret

Too young to forget

I am a feminist fuck

You were just a fuck

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The Band Played On

Get onstage

play to a crowd

Play it loud

play it proud

Behind closed doors

Tear your partner apart

Back on Centre Stage

Act the fuckin part

And The band played on

The show has to go on

The silence

The violence

The fake alliance

Black and blue

She pried herself apart

She stood brave and loud

Her voice filled the crowd

As her other half

Gets pats on the back

He's a good guy

a great musician

She's a liar and a hack

And The band played on

The show has to go on

The alpha

Dilemma

Female hysteria

The drama unfolds

An ugly story was told

Centre stage

Filled with rage

The audience, loud with silence

Here for the music

Not here for the politics

Who cares if it's wrong

Just play a fucking song

And The band played on

The show has to go on

I'm a feminist fuck

You are just a fuck

A fuckhead with a mic

Take a fucking hike

The band played hypocrisy

The crowd danced to apathy

The band drank the flattery

The crowd stroked their vanity

You put DV on a pedestal

Your silence is unethical

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The last show Chickspit played at was in January 2020 at The Rosemount in Perth. How good is the first show gonna be once the COVID19 restrictions are over? Using the down time to write more lyrics and songs. Make no mistake we'll be back with more angst. Sorry mum, it wasn't a phase.

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The Colour of My Voice

How can they hear me

when your privilege is too loud

How can they not hear me

When I'm equally proud

My voice is never white enough to be heard

The colour of my voice as dark as my words

Thank you for saying all the things I've said before.

Thank you for being the Christine to my phantom

Thank you for being too white to be ignored

Thank you for adopting my anthem

The colour of my voice

Comes with a price

The colour of my voice

Was demanded to play nice

The colour of my voice

Needs to be white washed

Only then they'll see my screams

And the coloured lives at cost

For it's only you they will listen to

It's only you they believe to be true

You're the voice of reason

While I'm hysterical one

You are the shining beacon

While I'm invisible one

I'm the unreasonable one

I shout I scream I swear

My tone too brown for you to wear

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Needful Things

What you need is not what you want unless what you want is what you need. So you need to go for what you want to satisfy your need. To satisfy your greed. What is it that you want? What is it that you need? Keep feeding all your needs While I sit here and bleed Satisfy your needs that never end keep wanting. Keep needing Keep feeding Til you're fat Stop wanting Stop needing Stop feeding And that is that

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Songs of Hate

Her mind and heart sang songs of hate The fake life that they create His sweet words she ate Spit them out Songs of hate Songs of hate Songs of hate She can't take it anymore Pieces of mirror on the floor He broke her soul She slammed the door He's not welcome anymore Lock the door Lock the door Lock the door No more replies to his emotional blackmail Return to sender She doesn't live here She sealed his fate She now sings Songs of hate Songs of hate

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Change

There're worse things in life than a potty mouth Let's start with your head Your fat narrow head Break these chains From my veins Trap me in your freedom train Live another day Wasting away Wasting away Unsettle your debts Spend what you owe Live fast and die slow Your life is like a tragic love song Withered in pain It was all in vain The change in my pocket Lasts me a week The change in my pocket Were earned in a week No money to learn No lessons to burn My world has changed Yet you stayed the same

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AFRESH

Well then fine. Be that way. Leave.

No, I’m not angry. Just disappointed… The band I’ve come to rely on for my emotional and creative output had broken up. It was funny how it felt a lot like a relationship break-up. I was also experiencing the stages of grief. Now, my long lost love of writing has become my emotional output. Therefore, this crappy production of my thoughts into attempted strings of sentences.

Maybe it was the fact that I had just found out I may need surgery on my knee and would not be skating for a long time (roller derby/skating was another major part of my life) plus the bomb drop from my guitarist that she wasn’t feeling motivated anymore and was quitting the band that made my mind go, “shit. Shit. SHIT.” And then kinda just imploded. The only times I exploded was in the sanctuary and privacy of my car. Nobody wanna see that shit. Yea… third world problems. Others have been through worse. Quit your whining. But when some things have become so ingrained in your life and it was all suddenly ripped apart all at once, it’s pretty human to have feelings of loss. So please excuse me while I drown my feelings in writing.

Bands break up and/or change line-ups all the time… It’s no biggy really. We’ve had awesome times, hardly any dramas some bands go through. No pressure, just good slacker times, playing music that’s not very popular but presentable enough. Perhaps that was where we went wrong. We hardly had any goals. We just wanted to play. It was baffling because only weeks before the break-up, we had a wicked jam and wrote a new song that I was damn proud of. It was another major disappointment we couldn’t release it. This was the year we were gonna put out an album, write new songs, get our shit together and have something to show for. The other other major disappointment… we broke up before we had anything to show for. We sure as hell stayed true to our ‘No Pressure’ motto. So much so that the motivation was lost. But hey… we made t-shirts!

¾ of the band was still intact, though. Me (singer), bassist and drummer. We’ve decided to find a new guitarist and start afresh. Our old guitarist had another band and started afresh too. “Afresh”. Weird word. “Affffreshhhh.” We acquired a new guitarist, had our first jam and I was pretty stoked with the outcomes. We’ve decided to dig deeper into our riot grrrl roots with this new band. Let's sing songs about vaginas! Somehow I don’t think the only male in our band (drummer) would mind that. Perhaps being more goal oriented might help with motivation? Our first pancake failed… Sort of. The second one has gotta be better… Sort of.

Settle down, feelings. It’s only a band… a band that wasn’t yours to lose. My heart was in it though. Perhaps that was why it hurt so much. Don’t get me wrong, I do not blame the guitarist. There was no ill feelings towards her. I do wish her all the best and success with her new band. Another grrrl band is always exciting. We need more grrrl bands down here in South Western Australia. We need more grrrls at skate parks. We just need more grrrls involved in things that are commonly male-dominated. I know for sure that most males encourage this step. So far, I have met with nothing but support from my male counterparts when I skate at skate parks and performed on stage. So grrrls… what are you waiting for? Get out there and do the awesome.

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Chicks in Bowls South Western Australia

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Yours Truly, Feminist

You're welcome Little girl For Your right to wear that short skirt and face full of make up For the right to speak your mind And your education No separation Yours truly, feminist It's my pleasure, Little girl Your choice to not wear a short skirt And no make up Your choice of a leader abort or to keep Leave the fuckin kitchen And have an ambition Sincerely, feminist You ungrateful piece of shit How dare you tell me to quit When misogyny, inequality Domestic violence, Patriarchy Slut shaming and rape still exist in society Your forgotten feminist Misunderstood feminist First wave feminist Unapologetic feminist Yours truly, feminist