(Not so) Little Rumbling About The Heartbreak…..
Being in the band is like being in the family. It is fun of working together, joy of creating amazing things in the group…but it is also endless, tough work. So many different personalities and attitudes to tame and balance together…everyone has their own vision, aspirations, dream, and ways of getting to it all. There are egos,…no matter the fact that there should not be. Everyone has it, and taming these wild inner expectations and sense of entitlement is not easy. We all have unique perspective after all, we have one life, one time to be…. The bands that made it together are just a drop in the sea of talent out there. What looks like "just a band" is an earned accomplishment, through blood, sweat and tears. That's why many don't pass the test and fail, leaving the hole in the hearts of those trying. I'm sharing these thoughts, because not only I witness music projects fade away each day around me - I, myself am the living proof of that struggle. Making and performing music is so deeply rooted in me, there is no "me" without it. Trying to find the same level of passion and commitment in others, so that we could create and perform music together, lead me to the dead end more than once. However, the recent breakup of my music project left me so devastated, I still find it difficult to even share it with the world. But, it happened, and it crushed my soul. I usually suffer alone, can't share the negative energy that sadness carries within. I write songs and share my feeling through them. And, so I did- I wrote Funeral For Love and released it on Valentines Day, to unite with those heartbroken, and not be alone in that dark time. I'm getting more ready each day to talk about it now. I feel less negative, and more futuristic positive vibes about it all. I open up to you, my supporters and friends, and my beautiful fans. I want to let you know that my music journey continues, and it will evolve in different than so far directions. I am planning to stick to what I love most and cannot live without. Please, bare with me through upcoming months. I have a lot of music work to do, and as it is all super exciting, it is also terrifying, and making me feel fragile. One thing I want to leave you with ( if you managed to go through this whole lengthy letter hehe ) is that we can't simply give up, just because our dream and vision of life differs from visions of others. Be a dreamer, and be a doer. Do not stop just because it is hard. Keep on going, and do it with love, because life is a journey and each day is adventure of its own when you're doing what you love the most. There is destination for all of us. It is the matter of means how we get there. So, let's do it. Ready, set…..GO!!!!!!!
P.S. Here is Funeral for Love link for those, who are heartbroken like myself and would like to join: https://youtu.be/pz3IgyhNZ7c















