marceline ۶۟ৎ

i am crowded by your absence

[elliesfreckle]

21 ⊹ marceline / mar ⊹ she/her ⊹ english isnt my native language, sorry in advance for any mistakes.

fics hashtag : #𓂃 𓈒𓏸 𝐦𝐚𝐫𝐜𝐲'𝐬 𝐬𝐭𝐮𝐟𝐟

all i write, create and do — is for and about women. mdni.

[elliesfreckle]

release me from this fandom

[elliesfreckle]

Your sense of humor is so good btw

i see what you're doing and it's working come here

[elliesfreckle]

mar you're so cool ilyyy 🥰

noticed this one only now omgg sorry YOU'RE SO COOL TOO 💝💝 i find those facts about you absolutely adorable tell me moreeree

[elliesfreckle]

damn i forgot the tags and my internet lagged omg

[seasonsofchaos]

This is stupid but i wanna start a tag thing and see how far it goes

everyone share a fun fact about yourself for however many letters there are in your url

I can start:

I first learned how to use a sword when I was 10

I once did a shot of soy sauce as a dare

My first time getting drunk to the point where I threw up was directly after a school exam, we got drunk in the woods by our school

I can't smoke due to my asthma, I tried once and almost passed out

I'm very allergic to bubblegum, idk what in it but it makes my throat swell like crazy

When my mom was pregnant with me, my dad played rock for at least an hour each day cause he was determined to make me like rock and roll (it worked)

I have grape juice in my fridge at all times, and it's been this way since I was a kid

My favourite Monster Energy is Strawberry Dreams, but I'm tempted to try the passionfruit one so that might change

I'm American but I type with British English sometimes cause the teacher who taught me spelling in kindergarten was British

One time in high school, I got a papercut during bio and a bunch of us begged my teacher to let us look at the blood under the microscope like the little freaks we were and for some reason she did??? anyways it looked cool you could see the blood vessels and she kinda incorporated it into the lesson

I've been roof-hopping before

I got my first boxing wraps when I was 8 visiting cousins in Mexico, they decided it was time. Now I keep putting off buying new ones and I just use bandages

My theme/the whole siren thing is based on the fact that I sing :)

I used to joke about running away to join the circus then I made a friend who was actually in the circus and I chickened out

no pressure taglist!

@notlinearr @zzelysian @letmebeurbaby @liifeunwritten @satellitespinner @gutturalslut @valeisaslut @wahterlemon @musingsfromtheflowers

[musingsfromtheflowers]

ahhh omg cristina i LOVE this, thank you sm for the tag!!! my user is so long and i’m not 21 facts interesting lol, but i’m gonna try to SPILL 

i’m currently learning how to read tarot cards

i love old hollywood movies, especially anything with audrey hepburn since my grandma would play them for me all the time  

i’m a lightweight, and i get seriously tipsy after just one glass of wine

in middle school, the first girl i ever had a crush on wore really beat up converse that she would draw on, so i did the same thing to my converse in the hopes that she would notice and we’d have something to talk about (hint: she didn’t and i was too scared to ever talk to her)

i pretty much only wear black (if i’m wearing color, it’s a special occasion or something’s up) 

i’m terrified of cicadas 

my favorite animal has been the komodo dragon ever since i did a project on them and learned they can reproduce through parthenogenesis (asexually)

i’ve played classical piano since i was 6 years old, and i have perfect pitch

when i was a little girl my dream job was to be a professional party princess or to 'be a fairy like tinkerbell'

i absolutely LOVE fragrance and researching the history of perfumery (if anyone is also interested i would love to chat about it, it’s one of my fav research topics) 

for the span of a year i drank several cans of celsius a day until it triggered the most severe panic attack i’ve ever experienced and i was rushed to the emergency room. the er doctor who treated me basically yelled at me to never drink celsius again

i’ve been told by everyone i know that i have a lethal resting bitch face and look very intimidating, even my best friend told me that when we first met she was kind of scared of me

during a speaking exercise in my high school french class, i was trying to say that i was ‘healthy’ but i mixed up the words and accidentally said that i was pregnant in front of the class. my teacher stopped me, very concerned, and asked if i was actually pregnant or if i meant to say something else and i was so mortified i was too scared to speak up in french class for the rest of the year

when i was ten i did martial arts, and a girl in my class who didn’t like me purposely fractured my wrist during a sparring exercise

i’m obsessed with getting piercings!! the second they heal i’m ready to get several more

i'm a cancer survivor

i love love love gothic literature! i’ve always wanted to write and publish my own gothic short story or novel 

my first vivid memory is me sitting on my mom’s lap, roasting marshmallows by a massive campfire

i HATED my name when i was little, but i’ve grown to love and embrace it

i started college as a bio major in hopes of becoming a doctor, but realized i was doing it out of a sense of moral obligation instead of passion for medicine (i still feel guilt about changing majors and life paths to this day) 

i was obsessed with unicorns when i was in elementary school

TAGS (no pressure):

@cherrycokehair @ellzsbananas @sapphicbae @elliesfreckle @poppycomplex @vixenkii

[elliesfreckle]

omg this is so cool!!! thank you for the tag, char <3 and what do you mean you're not 21 facts interesting and then just drop these things... you ARE interesting. i struggled to remember something that wouldn't be obvious and boring, soo

1. i'm left-handed

2. i'm absolutely obsessed with shiny things, i like wearing bracelets, changing earrings, and decorating my purses (charms, ribbons, anything. my friends hate the sound they make but at least they can hear me from a mile away). but! i dont wear rings, like, at all. it's either i cant find my size or the metal is really bad and they dont live long, or i lose them, or it simply feels uncomfortable for me :((

3. to the previous point i pierced my ears by myself... because i got really nice earrings. i know it's irresponsible. don't do this.

4. as a first impression, almost everyone thinks i'm shy because i act quiet in unkown waters. after a while, they are proven wrong (i turn into a freak the second i get comfortable with somebody)

5. i like when people tell me they find my sense of humor good (it turns me on)

6. when i was 17 i planned on running away with my girlfriend and becoming a tattoo artist............ i was insufferable in my teens

7. i love baking pastries but i cant handle cakes. when i'm in the dorms, i dont cook... at all... i hate it, and it's a real problem. i want to fix it and start eating something healthier than grab and go and semi-finished products, but it takes so much time AND money...... kill me.

8. going to the cinema feels old-fashioned these days, but i love it so much. i usually dont have a company tho, have no one to go on a cinema date with!!

9. i hate flying by plane. i get so sick.

10. i have very few childhood memories (mostly dont remember myself till the 7th grade. it's a mystery to me). but there's one favourite memory that stuck with me. down the hill from my grandparents' country house there was a river, we used to love going there in summer. one day, when my cousins and i were there, the rain started, so we ran through the field back to the house and still got soaked through. we had no boy clothes, so my grandma gave my cousin one of my old dresses while he was waiting for the rain to stop, and i teased him about it the whole time he was wearing it.

11. when i was 16, i wrote a letter to my future self and hid it in a tree hollow in the woods near my house. (why would i do this? no idea.) when i remembered about it and came back, it wasn't there... i feel embarrassed every time thinking that somebody probably found it and read it.

12. the first thing i've ever written was a wattpad story about werewolves (not omegaverse!!!!!!). i was fourteen and thought it would be a bestseller. it was str☠️ight.

13. i took a photography course!! i wanted to be a fashion photographer or someone with a sophisticated artistic vision. lately i've wanted to buy a digital camera with that 2000s vibe but oh boy everything in my life is too expensive i cant afford it

[elliesfreckle]

your honor, i swear, every time i try to write and finish this goddamn fic, something crazy happens... the universe prevents me from closing this gestalt

[elliesfreckle]

she's the most beautiful person i've ever met. everything is perfect about her. i'm not even exaggerating. it's wild, it's insane, it's a shocking revelation that comes back to me every time i see her. time flows but i still can't take it for granted or get used to it. it's not romantic or platonic or casual or nonchalant. it's all-consuming, irresistible, cosmic. i'm jealous of people who get to see her everyday. of those who walk past her in the morning rush. of those who sell her coffee or books or tickets. of those who sit next to her in the train and fall asleep without knowing her, without cherishing the moment. of those who won't remember her face in the evening while it's the first thing i wake up with. i am jealous of her tattoos, for they are permanent while i am not. i was never envious, but i'm jealous of her scars — of how time whitens them, learns them by heart. i'd like to be either learned like that or to learn her in return. i'd like to be something that stays.

[elliesfreckle]

i just reread h(a)unt and i'm fangirling all over again your writing is so gorgeous aahhhhh ily can we be mooties please 🥺🥺

wym WE ARE MOOTIES and i love your asks and you yourself and your love for 'haunt'!!!

[elliesfreckle]

if the longest trip home filled with music and winter views doesnt heal me im giving up on that shi

[elliesfreckle]

Mar bby i just gotta let you know that i think about h(a)unt 10 times a week. I wish i could read it for the first time again LOL. But no rlly... despite it not even being a series, it has so much impact on me??? For some reason that i cant even explain??

The hampster is actually me randomly remembering it throughout my day HAHA. anyways... #thinkingofyou hope ur doing well <333

hii capy!!! so glad to see you there, and i love the cute pink font 🩷

i’m doing great — the new year is coming!!! (even though i’m drowning in finals and have zero holiday mood, but still). how are you?

ohh, do you know how much i think about h(a)unt? i’m not good at writing headcanons because i always have too many words, but this was my last resort — i just needed to get it out of my head somewhere. i wanted it to be a series, but i can’t handle a series, as we can all see (although over&out is never dead, i’m just waiting for the right moment, okay…..).

i wanted it to be a long process of unarming, obsession and possession; of turning revenge into devotion, because i absolutely LOVE these kinds of stories. it was supposed to be love/hate in its best form, but with love as the root cause of the whole story. one day i imagined an ending where they killed each other; another day they got their happily ever after; and another day one of them was killed by the townsfolk, turning it into a classic tragedy.

i want someone to film a movie with a plot like this (i crave lesbian vampire movies; why the hell there are so few??? why does fanfiction do most of this work? isn’t it one of the most visually pleasing concepts ever??). i even had to replay one of the silliest, badly written, unupdated for years visual novels/dating sims just for the possibility of choosing a female vampire and addressing this weird fixation (it didn’t help). i also came back to resident evil 8 because i loved alcina’s castle — its hidden rooms, statues, everything.

one day, tired of my constant rambling, my friend asked me why i thought vampires would love someone forever. i was GENUINELY offended. like, let a girl dream and believe a little??? if all fantasy creatures were real, if our dull world had magic, then eternal love would definitely exist too — one of the most fantastic, unrealistic things in the universe.

so in my mind, it was a long story with slow burn, soulmates, castles, and blood vows. i’ll try to send it to you mentally so you can enjoy it and think about it even more <3

ps. the hampster is me randomly writing an essay nobody even asked for

[elliesfreckle]

[🦢࿐]

if you were a swan and i were a swan, would you stay with me through the winter on the shore of a grey lake? would you make a home with me in the reed beds? would my company be enough for you among all the ducks and the passers-by, the people who laugh and smoke and cry and kiss along the edge of our grey lake? would you be my mate for life?

i mean— nevermind, look how cute the ducks are!!!

[elliesfreckle]

[elliesfreckle]

new theme is GORGEOUS STUNNING BEAUTIFUL💜💗

💘💘THANK YOUOYYOU

i deny and despise the fact that itʼs already winter. we are BLOOMING

[elliesfreckle]

YOUR NEW THEME IS SO PRETTY BBY<33

THANK YOUUU MY LOVE 🤍🤍🤍 itʼs barely a theme bc i was lazy but i like these pics aaa

i love yours too!!! cinematic as always <33

[elliesfreckle]

i need to write something angsty and niche to heal my soul

[elliesfreckle]

marceline... h(a)unt is so beautiful ❤️ all of your fics have a tight grip on my soul

hello, my dear! glad you loved it 🩶 not gonna lie, i think about this piece quite often. maybe i should blame it on the weather (we donʼt have any signs of snow, only eternal mist and fog). i just know that living in a castle with the love of all your lives would heal all of us. thank you so much!!! love <3