I feel no one understands just how horrible cyberbullying can be and how badly it affects people.
As, Idk if victim is the right word, but as someone who's experienced cyberbullying, it is not fun.
Cyberbullying has had a major negative impact on how I see myself and how I act.
I could list all the things I've gained from it and the list is long,
- The constant need to say sorry and apologize for even the smallest things
- Feeling as if my presence is disturbing or annoying.
- Fearing that my looks can be used against me at any given time.
- Feeling undeserving of simple pleasures
- Constant need for reassurance
- Pleasing others as to keep them happy with me
- Limiting how much I vent as I feel it may make me seem like a negative person
- Putting on an image no matter how much I'm hurting
Cyberbullying is the easiest form of bullying because nobody knows who anyone is. They can get away with being cruel and vile because nobody knows who they are.
The people I was "friends" with were not good people.
They posted my face publicly to tiktok, and my body shammed me. They ridiculed my face and laughed. Called me fat and ugly.
I feel disgusting now whenever I do things. I can't even cope properly without worrying how I look or that I don't deserve to cope.
It was so bad that I feel hesitant referring to it as emotional trauma because what if it's not? What if I'm being over dramatic? What if they were just poking fun?
I'm afraid people will think I have a victim mentality, so I try to push myself away from referring to it as emotional trauma.
Cyberbullying is horrible and can leave terrible imprints on how someone sees themself.
May is mental health awareness month, and I want everyone who has experienced cyberbullying to know that I see you and I've been through the exact same thing. You're not alone. 🔆