his last letter to you | satoru gojo
hey, baby!
you'll probably find this letter pretty late somewhere in your messy room (kidding. not really, though). i hid it pretty well, didn't i?
honestly, there were so many things i wanted to say, but somehow i forgot all of them :( there's just been too much on my mind lately. especially with that idiot sukuna and everything else. but you know, right now, while i'm sitting in your ridiculously dusty room, none of it feels all that important anymore.
you forgot to turn off your speaker again, by the way. the one blasting all your depressing songs. angel, stop listening to those so much! especially after you've been sad enough lately already. especially these past few days.
also, one of your fairy lights still doesn't work. i tried fixing it, got electrocuted instead, so... guess you'll just have to live with that now.
anyway, what i actually wanted to say is that this is my last letter.
wow. that sounds weird as hell to write. i think part of me always believed i'd have time to come back to this eventually. but now... for the first time, i'm not completely sure anymore.
i wrote a couple short notes for megumi and yuji too, but with you… i think there are things i genuinely wanted to say before the end.
damn it, my thoughts are getting tangled up again! but i really need you to know this: i have never been happier in my entire life than i was after meeting you.
you literally... glow? i don't even know how else to explain it. your kindness, the way you care about people, those cute eyes whenever you look at me – all of it gets to me every single time like it's the first time all over again. and honestly? i didn't even think it was possible to fall for you more than i already had.
i used to think being "the strongest" wasn't all that great. but when you let me become part of your world, i finally understood why i was given all this strength in the first place. like maybe i was meant to protect you. to fight for you. for our future – the one where we were supposed to have so many more stupid, fun, beautiful things ahead of us.
and we still will. i promise.
as for the past... i don't regret anything.
everything i did was for people, for sorcerers. for you. so you could keep smiling that pretty smile every day. so you'd never be bored, so you could stay happy.
you shouldn't regret anything either, okay? and please don't cry, angel. i really can't stand seeing you sad. and please, please don't spend your whole life waiting for someone… who's already gone. that would be unbelievably boring, seriously.
and finally, don’t turn my room into some weird shrine or something! that’d be just creepy :(
i could probably write something very mature and reasonable here, too. something like "forget me and move on." but honestly? i don't want that at all. and i know you wouldn't want it either.
so just... remember the good things, okay? us. the way we laughed, argued, went on dates together. that'll be enough.
and if i'm being completely honest, i think i'm a little… tired ;) tired of waiting for someone else to appear. i mean, another strongest. someone who'll make this world even better, protect even more people. but someday, there'll be someone like that. if something goes wrong in my fight with sukuna.
and if something really does go wrong…please don't look at my body.
shit. i try not to think about stuff like that. i mean, i'm still the strongest and hottest sorcerer, right? but i probably wouldn't have become who i am if there weren't people in my life worth fighting for. and there are.
and as long as you're still in my life, i promise i'll fight until the very end.
p.s. if i do come back after all, pretend you never read this. this is honestly so embarrassingly dramatic. but at least we'll get to laugh about it together afterward.
and if i don't...
just remember that i lived. and i loved. god, i loved you so much it was actually terrifying sometimes.
i love you, angel.
i always will.
in this world and the next one too.
your favorite, ridiculously handsome boyfriend,
satoru :>
always.














