Hiiiiiii! I’m Emberlynn, but you can call me Emi or Emby or whatever you want ^_^ My pronouns are she/they/he/it/doll/meow, but again, you can call me whatever you want! I’m technicallyyyy 21, but our body is 20. I identify as perma19 though!
I am an alter in a cis DID system, so I’m not always fronting! I am a hyperérosian (a hypersexuality holder in simple terms), so this account will be very NSFW. My source is Helluva Boss and sourcemates can interact!
I am radqueer. The rest of our system is against RQ so this is a mostly secret side blog of mine (meaning I won’t follow back or like your posts, but I will happily stalk you and possibly communicate in your ask box or DMs or comments <3) Anyway, here’s my radqueer identities!
HIIIII emby you’re so cool and sexy and awesome and great and nice and I hope you have a WONDERFUL night and both sides of your pillow are cold and you get everything that you want because you are THE BEST EVER -💐
HIIIIII HELLO!!!!! THE SWEETEST EVER HELLO!!!!
THE AUDACITY TO CALL ME THE BEST WHEN YOU ARE THE BEST EVER!!!! BUT ALSO ON A GENUINE NOTE THIS IS SO CUTE AND SO NICE I DONT EVEN KNOW HOW TO RESPOND AAA THANK YOU… SNIFFLESAND CRIES. CRIES A LOT I LOVE YOU
just looked through all your posts. hello. i like you. did your system find out about the blog and that's why you went dormant?
OOOOH Hiiii!!! Hello!! Thank you for the ask!!!!!!
Response is a little long so here’s a cut! ^_^
Yeah, that’s pretty much it, it was kinda messy! Half repeating myself and half expanding on what I said at the beginning of this blog (from that one ask I got), but in our sys we have a rule that if an alter has their own blog, no one else is allowed to look at it or use it or whatever. Basically if an alter has their own blog, that’s their space and it has to be respected. Because there really isn’t much privacy in a system, but everyone does try to make sure everyone has their space as much as possible. Others can use the sys blog all they want.
I had notifications turned off so that no one would see anything from my blog, but at some point I randomly got pulled from front (bc that’s how DID works duh /lhj) without getting the chance to switch back to our sys blog. The alter who switched with me ended up seeing everything and they told whoever they could about it — I don’t hold anything against them, but everyone felt upset and disgusted with me, so I kinda just ‘ran away’ after awhile.
I did end up coming back like a couple months ago, but I wasn’t allowed to front 😭 which was annoying. While I was gone we did end up splitting another problematic alter from another problematic source, who happens to be a gatekeeper, so he lets me front all I want whenever we’re both available to. I honestly have no clue why my headmates didn’t delete this blog while I was gone, but I really appreciate that they didn’t!!
I’m not entirely sure if they’re 1000% antis anymore, but I’m genuinely too afraid to ask because I really don’t want to risk losing this blog 😭 I’m sure they still are but, they’re not as weird to me as they used to be so I’m being delusional :3c
I need it to happen again I need it to happen again, god please I need it to happen again so badly. I won’t ever be happy with myself until I know I’m useful enough to have it happen again