EMILYNEELTJE @emilyneeltje - Tumblr Blog

i’m not really sure what i’m doing on here anymore. i might stop posting, i might not.

i guess it’s a part of growing up but i genuinely don’t recognize the person i was 6 months ago or years ago and it’s weirdly painful to see that eternalized on this blog. also embarrassing at times. i often used fandom and tumblr as a coping mechanism so it’s really not the most flattering version of teenage me.

i’ve been thinking about lots of things lately, resetting my values in life and trying to find out what i should do. growing up is weird and trying to out-grow trauma and finally having a safe space for self-discovery is weird.

so bye for now i guess but there’s also a high possibility that i’m just in a funk and will be back in a day or two.

aestheticallymarauderss

little women instagram au

↳ jo, amy, meg, beth

blackinmotionpictures

Mahogany Too - dir. Akosua Adoma Owusu

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#guess whos having another mental breakdown because of the new semester starting #me bitch #i dont know why i put myself through this #i also have never had less friends so :)#i just be throwing myself a pity party #but idc and have no one to complain too so...#aight imma go cry again #✌🏼

burtoo

Self portraits in abandoned houses 2014-2018

glowdetails

hello?? um?? universe?? u hearin me?? just letting you know i’m ready for good things to happen in my life!! i’m prepared for amazing things!! i think its time!! just lettin you know.

now that i’m done high school and not learning typical academic things because i’m studying film, my love for learning has come back ??? i just bought a book called ‘modern ethics in 77 arguments’, really enjoyed learning about all the natural history when i went on some tours in alberta last week, and have made plans with myself to visit a bunch of museums when i get back to the city. high school destroyed my love for learning because as a kid i would read atlases and history books for fun and that all stopped once i became a teenager...but i’m doing it again now. and it’s really exciting

i guess i finally have choice in what i can learn and it’s making me really passionate about learning new things and i couldn’t be more thrilled about it.

#haven't been on here in a hot minute but i just thought of this #and am getting excited about the world again #even though i'm still very much lonely #i've found a bit of hope and optimism

cinemagal

You know, Katniss and I… we’ve been… we’ve been luckier than most, and I wouldn’t have any regrets at all, I-I-if it… if it weren’t… THE HUNGER GAMES: CATCHING FIRE (2013)

samcarpnter

Well I believe we have some power over who we love, it isn’t something that just happens to a person. I think the poets might disagree.

LITTLE WOMEN (2019) DIR. GRETA GERWIG

bnmxfld

You still have a lot of time to make yourself be what you want.

S.E. Hinton / The Outsiders (via bnmxfld)

huariqueje

Milwaukee at Night - Tom Shropshire

American,b.1943-

Acrylic on stretched canvas,

baelatargaryen

Harry Potter in Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince (2009)

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“Women matter on their own, not in relation to a man. Whom here disagrees? We all deserve the right to bodily autonomy and to be treated with respect and dignity. To say ‘stop’ and be heard; instead of pushed, derided, and told that a man knows more about our basic rights and desires than we do.Women are made whole the moment they enter this world.” Anne With An E S03E07 (2019) dir.Moira Walley-Beckett