it feels like I choke you just to breathe

My name is Emma. My life is an infinite jest. I love art and literature and beautiful, broken things.

[emmaoftheisland]

I keep letting people down. I can’t get anything right. I don’t want to do this anymore.

[oilpaintinggallery]

Poplars in Grey Weather by Claude Monet, Oil painting reproductions

[understands]

[recaption]

[neckkiss]

THE BEST FEELING.

[destroymylife]

[emmaoftheisland]

I don’t want to do this anymore. A phrase that I think to myself so many times a day this past month or so. About everything. Waking up. Getting out of bed. Choosing an outfit and putting it on. Doing my makeup. Preparing food for myself. Eating. Walking my dogs. Doing my course work. Going to work. Picking up prescriptions. Doing laundry. Taking showers, brushing my hair and teeth. Shaving. Keeping in touch with friends and family. I’m just so tired. I want to sleep. I don’t want to do this anymore. I feel so alone. Every time I start having a good time it’s because I’m drinking and then I feel like I take it too far and fuck it all up. I don’t want to do this anymore. Everyone has their own problems, I know this. Mine feel so so trivial. I know how to help myself I just can’t bring myself to do it. I guess it’s good I’m terrified of death.

[lonelycigs]

[artofadesignermind]

[understands]

[hoeykravitz-deactivated20221201]

[museiums]

artist: brunna mancuso

[hellish-daddy]

[eliminated]

[luhvers]

[destroymylife]

[emmaoftheisland]

I don’t know if life is too short to cut people off hastily or to spend energy on people that aren’t that into you as much as you want them to be…