Emotionally Wrecked

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I know he loves me he knows he loves me we'll be together

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I am his dream woman , she's me I am her .

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My illusions are taking over me and I can feel myself lost in a fascinating magnificent maze created by my own imagination . . . .

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“It is an art of the most exquisite kind to touch someone’s soul before touching their skin.””

— a.y.

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We are nothing ... today we're here tomorrow we're forgettable ... so why are we even trying why are we even fighting why do we care and why do we cry ... nothing matters if after all we're heading towards our inexistance !!

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I know he only thinks of me as a friend yet it hurts every single time i have to remind myself of that ...

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I wonder how it'd feel like to have full control over my emotions....

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U know what ?

Why not just enjoy what I have right now ?

why not just be content with what I'm feeling ?Why do I have to ruin the beautiful present by engaging in overthinking the mysterious futur ?

Why do I have to drain myself by something so uncertain when I have the current moment to appreciate ?

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" you can't change the beginning ! But you can start where you are and change the ending "

Is probably all I needed to hear!! It made my day

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So I guess it's just me and my heart against the world huh.....

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She is just a girl a simple girl who's trying to know herself trying to make it through trying to be her best . But she doesn't know where to start from where and keeps going in circles back and forth .

Sometimes it feels like she knows herself she has full control over her emotions over her thoughts over her body over her mentality her consciousness and subconsciousness but does she ??

She's trying her best just to get compliments to be charming to be what everyone aspire to be but she knows if anything it's wrong !! If anything she needs to be her best for herself not for others but she can't help it she craves the attention!!

And in order to improve she's still wondering from where to start ?! What does it take to be a shining star ?! What to do in order to be this glowing rainbow?!

She keeps wondering and wondering and wondering....

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I'm just a creature full of emotions trying to fit in this cruel world

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I guess it's all in my head everything that I've ever felt or thought . Everything I hoped for and prayed for . The things that made me smile the things that made me giggle . It was all in my head . I'm delusional I know but it's the different feelings that take over me that I can't handle. I keep replaying every scene I keep analyzing every word but I know it's all in my head . I rush things in my head and I know it's wrong I let feelings grow and I know it's wrong but I can't help it it's all in my head. Maybe it's cause I wanna be loved i wanna feel secure i wanna be cared about that I let my thoughts and my delusion get the best out of me . And again it's just in my head .

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My worst enemy is my own brain

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This is my road to happiness

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Maybe love is all I need

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Will things ever change ? Will my overthinking ever stop ? Will I be happy one day ? Will I be satisfied with my person ? Will all this anxiety fade away? Will all these emotions settle ?

Will it ?????