the space between seconds

even though it's night, there's not a star left to wish on

[emptymidnights]

three.

Falling out of love is a lot like falling in love: a lot of little moments of realizing something has changed.

[emptymidnights]

two.

I can't remember the moment I first looked at him and felt nothing. The moment forever felt too long.

[emptymidnights]

one.

When I promised him forever, it seemed like no time at all. I gave him my heart, my soul, my whole life.

[emptymidnights]

"How can you stop loving someone," he asked.

I wasn't sure how to answer. "I think you stop loving someone when you realize that it isn't right. All it took was loving you to make me realize I was doing love all wrong."

[emptymidnights]

I still look at you sometimes and think this can't actually be real. What have I ever done to earn someone like you? I don't understand what you see when you look at me. When I look at you, I see someone who could have any girl in the world, but somehow you want me. It doesn't make sense; I'm not good enough. But every time I look over and see you there, I believe a little more that maybe I am enough.

L.B.

[emptymidnights]

I knew making someone my whole world was like building a house and then lighting it on fire, but that's what I did. And I keep stomping out fire in one room or the other without putting it out completely. So now I'm asking for some water. Be enough or be nothing, because in between is what kills. Put the fire out or tell me to get out of the house. I don't care which one, I would just like to live.

L.B.

[emptymidnights]

On days when nice words fall off your lips, I wonder if you mean any of them. I missed you. I like seeing your smile. I don't know what I'd do without you. They're just words. Exactly the words I want to hear. You know that. Can you see the change in my eyes when you laugh and say just kidding?

L.B.

[emptymidnights]

I wish you knew that you make me smile just by existing.

I wish you knew you made me cry just as often

[emptymidnights]

“Do you love him?” she asks. “Yes,” I say, without hesitating. “How do you know?” “The way I look at him.” I see her face start to fall. “How’s that?” “The way I used to look at you.”

L. Blake

[emptymidnights]

do you think I'm funny? do you think I'm cute? do you like taking to me? do you look forward to seeing me? do you care about my life? do you wonder if I'm doing okay? do you ever miss me?

because I miss you

[emptymidnights]

If I could know the answer to any question about my future, I don't think I'd ask about you. I mean, I'd ask about you, but not if we'll ever be together. I'd ask if you ever know. I'd ask if I ever tell you that I love you. Either we'll be together or we won't, but I need to know if this will be my secret forever.

I need you to know the truth

[emptymidnights]

I don't think you realize how much a moment in your presence means to me.

its everything

[emptymidnights]

It's unnerving at first, realizing you're happy. It's been so long, you're not sure how to act. Life always seems to be a give and take; you struggle and suffer for as long as you can stand and then finally you get something good. For an hour or a day, you get to be happy before the hurt comes back. But here you are, not in the temporary, just until the other shoe drops happiness you're used to, but actually content. Actually feeling like every thing's okay. You have bad days, but you know they don't last. There's still a worry in the back of you mind that you'll lose it all, but for now you're okay.

nothing lasts forever

[emptymidnights]

I wonder if the version on you that exists in my poetry is anything like the real you. If someone were to meet you after reading my words, would it be immediately apparent that you’re the one I’m in love with? Would you even recognize yourself?

[emptymidnights]

they tell you life’s hard, but you still expect it to be easy. you still feel like you’ll never make it every time something hurts you. but the thing is, life is hard. sometimes it makes you cry until you have nothing left in you. sometimes you’ll feel like you’re breaking into a million pieces you’ll never be able to repair. but the other thing is, somehow, scattered through all that, are moments that make life worth it. look for those moments. live for those moments.

[emptymidnights]

i wish i could tell you. i love you. you’re everything to me. seeing you can turn my whole day around. i don’t need you to feel the same, i just need you to know. what would that change? would you finally understand how much i need you to be there?

[emptymidnights]

I think I’m going against the very foundation of the universe by falling in love with you. There’s no other way this would hurt so much.