ender listens to music

to live for the hope of it all

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I believed you were the type of person that would comfort me in times of need and hold me close when it was cold. But it was in fact the opposite. Because when I needed you, you pretended you didn’t catch onto what was wrong. You pushed me away and didn’t respond. I just needed a friend, nothing more, nothing less. I really gave it my all, bu it wasn’t enough, you never cared or you were good pretending you didn’t. And then you were wondering why i left, like you did nothin to hurt me, like you didn’t left me waiting for you every single day.

So this is From Me, The Moon, To You, The Sun.

I know how i feel, and part of me will always wonder how you felt, all i can do now is fantasize about it, about you hurting the way i hurt.

The Sun: https://open.spotify.com/playlist/6yduY22PiffJqqdH5X9WRX?si=70f93fd76a6d4493

The Moon: https://open.spotify.com/playlist/0qurViQ1SEFcGheP5EakwC?si=e51e8866a6f34888

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i think i’m allowed to be bitter sometimes, after the way it all went down, i deserve to feel my bitterness, if that’s what it is, because it belongs to me by right

https://open.spotify.com/playlist/6F6YkVk5xuamgOQSlqOjvO?si=a9d995dc8e3e4103

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Of course I miss you. Even if I didn’t love you I’d miss you. But we have to accept reality for what it is. I was never a priority to you, and you proved it over and over and as much as I’d love to go back, I can’t anymore.

https://open.spotify.com/playlist/5Miw3zk6uGxqFqXHqwt2jP?si=d49ad8cc610e4add

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i wish i knew how to quit you

https://open.spotify.com/playlist/1u3ktjs0KOY5fCkmIDsh2u?si=53ce713159314fbd

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“I once heard a tale of a man who split himself in two. The one part never changed at all; the other grew and grew. The changeless part was always true, The growing part was always new, And I wondered, when the tale was through, Which part was me, and which was you.” 

This playlist i made tells the story of two young folks from each point of view, they were best friends with each other, but always wished they were more, ‘cause they loved one another but never discovered ‘cause they where too afraid of what they’d say. One was pretty ready, the other one didn’t know what he wanted until it was too late. This story hits too close to home tbh.

pt.1: https://open.spotify.com/playlist/4ZZOT8DQaCR327VmYeSWC3?si=d2a8a5f18be547b8

pt.2: https://open.spotify.com/playlist/01AFP5PvKfhtX9xNwNhtGh?si=212c7a9b394d424b

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Everytime you show up in a dream it’s so happy but then i wake up and it’s just 180º, it makes me overthink everything, it keeps me wondering, why couldn’t you be ready, too? I was ready, ready to be happy, ready for that long look that never ends. You don’t get to show up like that only to make things harder for me, so this is a playlist of you showing up, but it’s not real, ‘cause you never do, and all that’s left is a plane and ready white page, one with many questions. 

 https://open.spotify.com/playlist/0aKt5IJkexQ0juwanLQ7F9?si=48dade99f08d4624