Eleanor

neurodivergent ✨ studio ghibli fan ✨ student

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Hi! I’m Eleanor (sometimes known online as enderora)

I’ve never really managed to be active on tumblr before, or any other platform really. As a teenager, I used to livestream games on Twitch to an audience of maybe 5 at best. While this was wonderful for building my confidence, I found it stressful too, and I could never stick to a regular schedule. Eventually, I came to realise that this was probably because I was neurodivergent. Last time I tried to use tumblr I posted an intro and nothing else, so hopefully it goes a little better this time, but I suspect posts will be rare.

I am most certainly an overthinker, I very rarely find any peace or quiet in my own brain, and I often find that this comes across externally in the form of unintelligible lowercase essays in my friends’ DMs, or perhaps more productively in my art, which admittedly is rarely better quality than my writing. As a result of this, I hope that I can use this blog to get some of my thoughts out, and maybe share some of my art, in a space where I’m not directly forcing it all onto my loved ones.

In conclusion, I’m trying something new, hopefully some of what I have to share resonates with other people but ultimately this is just a space for me to compile whatever I’m thinking about. Also, if you happen to be one of the few people who knows who I am offline, please bear in mind that I keep all accounts under the username enderora separate to real life stuff and don’t share any of my personal info in this space!

Eleanor 💫

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long distance

A little comic/illustration about my daily life in a long distance relationship while at university 💜

Especially around Valentine’s Day it feels very difficult being so far from my partner, knowing the next time we’ll see each other is in a few months’ time. This comic is about all the little moments throughout the day where I imagine what my partner is doing and I wish that we could be together. It is also about the joy of coming home after a long day of missing them and being able to call them and hear their voice, and how it makes the distance bearable.

Happy Valentine’s Day to my favourite person.

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traffic cone cat. not at all an original idea but a fun little doodle while I’m procrastinating

oil pastels (in procreate) my beloved 🧡

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magpies

first non-intro post and it’s something I actually drew today!

This is a comic (perhaps a loose definition of the word comic) based on a real conversation I had, and an idea that I’m gradually learning to accept about having to look for joy yourself. I used to hate this idea that someone suffering so much should be expected to work so hard to find happiness all by themselves, but recently I’ve realised this doesn’t always mean a big change. Sometimes it really just means taking the time to look for a second magpie rather than assuming that there’s only one. Making that little extra effort is an achievement that really pays off a lot more than I thought it would before I started doing it.

Thank you to the magpies in my neighbourhood for inspiration :)