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skyslotus‌:

❛ I WASN’T intending on a fight at all, but go ahead and underestimate mugen. ❜ PRIZED SWORD DRAWN, but not borne. ❛ IF YOU really had nothing to hide, then you wouldn’t have a problem letting me through. ❜

“ahah ~ someone’s touchy.” lucian is nothing more than curious, intending to pry his way through circumstance to save his energy. “i am sure you want nothing more than to show off your skills and weapon, but i have no interest whatsoever in that, i’m afraid.” but as for the person ? it all depends, of course. he gives a grin, somewhat teasing, cocking his head to the side. “perhaps we can make a rain check? fighting you might be tantalizing, no doubt. but i’d rather not waste my breath today.”

#skyslotus #ic.#same back to you!!#also again i am sorry kanda

in lucian’s original canon it was betrayal that lead him to living in solitude. he’s been brought up and made to live up to expectations which took vigorous training and fortitude. because lucian has been met with more shallow smiles than genuine, his black and white perspective towards others stemmed from the treatment he was given. hearing one thing said to him directly, but then hearing the opposite behind his back. lucian learned to view the world as merely a giant chessboard and people as pieces, but it was ultimately his friendship with zadimir that lead him to think and believe that there were genuine people out there, a rare number among the countless pawns. lucian is incredibly deceptive, purposefully overbearing, narcissistic, and observant. he’s also a people-pleaser, and craves affection and adoration only to himself due to being touch-starved for so long. he has questionable coping methods but is a seeker of attention for the sake of sating himself. even if said affection is artificial on many levels. nothing ever descends past the surface because he’s afraid of it. lucian’s biggest fear is abandonment.

#analysis.#some.. lucian Things #one day i'll organize my thoughts properly but for now i'm typing out brief insights #gnskg

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“I don’t want to be at the mercy of my emotions. I want to use them, to enjoy them, and to dominate them.”

Oscar Wilde, The Picture of Dorian Gray (via goodreadss)

#musings.

“do you really intend to fight me with that ?” it’s almost humorous, lucian thinks. “why, would you not trust my answer to whatever spiel you have? how unfortunate.” @skyslotus

#skyslotus #ic tag.#thanks for liking ! hope this is alright