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"fuck this _____ "

"Bro, FUCK this week. Seriously."

What kind of a life is that?

What kind of a life is that.

One bad thing—your whole week? Really?

It's all gone to shit?

I don't know how she does it. It's really really remarkable, don't get me wrong, but I wish she'd stop.

For my sake, and for hers.

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things that not everyone has that i don’t think about enough

-five senses! i can see (nature is the purest form of art, it really really is), i can hear (music is my escape, it saved my life and turned it better than i could have ever imagined), i can taste (smoothie bowls, pasta, corn, mashed potatoes), i can feel (friends hugging me, warmth of a campfire, fresh a/c, an adorable stranger in starbucks brushing past me for a fleeting second), i can smell (freshly mowed grass, chocolate chip cookies in the oven, fresh laundry)

-i have two parents who are still together and who were meant to be together. they fight sometimes, but everyone fights if they live together long enough, and i’ve never ever seen them go to bed angry. 

-m y  b r o t h e r. we’re best friends. not only do i have a sibling, he’s the person i run to and we came into the world with a unspoken agreement that we were going to be each other’s people forever. i could loose a lot of people and still be ok. if i lost him, part of me would be dead forever. 

-i am safe, i have food, i’ve never had to worry about having enough money to eat again soon, i’ve never seen a raincloud and been worried because i had to sleep outside that night. i get school supplies every year, i go shopping for new clothes, i’ve never had to do winter without a coat or summer without shorts. 

this is the smallest fraction. i’m so lucky. this isn’t meant to rub it in, i’m just trying to be more open about gratitude and trying to keep myself in a mindset where i’m continuously discovering new things to be thankful for. 

(thanks for reading this)

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when it’s ok and not ok to tell people to stop apologizing

ok-

This is a common one. We’ve all met that human who, for some reason, apologizes five times in as many minutes, or more. It is SO ok to gently remind someone that they don’t have to apologize profusely because if they can’t stop apologizing, they’re probably at least flirting with the mentality that they are obligated to repent for existing. It is easy to tell who’s being polite and who’s one “sorry” short of disappearing altogether. Please reach out to these people, but be gentle. They probably feel bad for attracting attention at all, even though that last “sorry” was the loudest cry for help they could manage. 

-however-

If you tell someone you had a bad day, you got clay dust all over your black leggings in ceramics and your backpack was unzipped so your phone fell out and cracked, or even more, you lost someone dear to you, your brain is making life agonizing, and they say “I’m sorry”, please please PLEASE don’t say “it’s not your fault!”. That person knows! They didn’t unzip your backpack, they didn’t cheat on you with the new girl, they realize they’re not to blame. They’re not asking for forgiveness, they are expressing concern and love the best way they know how. They care for you in your hard time and that’s something to celebrate, not something to correct. 

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here we goooooooooo

Hi! Here’s bits and pieces of my life-think the highlights and the blooper reel but also they were made into a quilt and they keep you warm and cosy sometimes. Cool? Cool.