[enoughofmyself]

hey! i just wanted to comeback and tell u guys im finally recovering... it took me like 6 years and a lot of effort but i hope u get there too one day

idk if im closing or deleting the blog but... idk im happy

[enoughofmyself]

My Tweeter is @enoughofmslf

Hi dudes I know I've been inactive for a while, but school really has been kicking my ass lately.

Anyways, why don't u goys follow me on Twitter? I'm much more active there bc it's easier to post, that also means that my post are drummer so be prepared.

[manich0e]

my talent: switching between starving myself and eating everything in sight

[amen-sis-2]

i don't want to say "when" i'm skinny, i want to say "since" i'm skinny..

—a bitch who's gulping down coke

[spinkuniverse]

you know what you could be doing instead of eating?

masturbating.

orgasm > bloat

it's science.

[butterfliebeauty-deactivated202]

Haha what do you mean starving yourself isn’t a personality trait?

[kittenbruisez]

my fatass scrolling through thinspo instead of doing my history paper. A BITCH IS STRESSED

[notlowkey]

For someone who only wants to be skinny, you'd think I'd starve myself better

[enoughofmyself]

Also, I've been hitting the gym every day and I'm trying to loose weight in a more healthy (? way... I'll keep u posted on how I'm doing.

Love ya guys 💕

[enoughofmyself]

It's been a while since I posted here, and truth be told, Ive tried to let go of ed Tumblr,,,,

But here I am baby u know what that means

[enoughofmyself]

Warm saltwater tastes amazing when you hate yourself

[adeles]

you know that feeling when you cannot wait to be in a relationship and you day dream about what you’ll do on dates with your future s/o but also at the same time you’re afraid to put yourself out there AND YOU JUST DON’T FEEL READY bc same

[enoughofmyself]

And then you force yourself to go out and have a relationship. It completely backfires because you DON'T WANNA SEE the person you are with because it feels like a responsibility. They end up breaking up with you because you don't put any attention or effort into the relationship, and you feel like the biggest asshole because you know you hurt this person so much just because you wanted to try something different

[justacoffeeplsty]

Literally

Gonna fast till i can’t no more. And only eat if I literally HAVE to. But i will NOT allow myself to eat for pleasure no more. Maybe it looks and smells good in food form, but trust me it will not look good when you suddenly see all the new gross FAT on your body. Fat is gross. A full stomach is disgusting! I will never allow myself to ever do that to myself.

I’m gonna be clean and tiny, and no one can stop me!

[enoughofmyself]

9Food Diary: entry #4

(it's been a while since I've done one of this, specifically because I'm ashamed of what I eat lol)

Breakfast :

Lunch:

Dinner:

Snacks:

Some garlic crackers (I round it up to 100gr)- 500 calories

A shit ton of diet coke- 0 calories

Total:

Around 500 calories

[euph0ricjourney]

EDs are so fuckin weird

I’m tryna have a hot shower and my brain be like: you clearly don’t have an eating disorder if you’re not willing to freeze to burn calories you fat bitch

like WHAT

[enoughofmyself]

Me: *thinks I look ok for once in my life*

My mom: *literally calls my dad telling him to stop feeding me because I look like a cow"

My dad: *goes with it*

Me: 🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡

[enoughofmyself]

Check in: I’m still here

Recently as you know, I had kind of a “recovery” and relapsed to my starting weight.

I’m slowly getting back to restricting, I am now trying to eat only one meal a day which is good and looks like it’s working.

I’m happy for that because I really wanna loose this weight and I want to really prove myself that I can change and be what I want and reach my goals.

Also, it’s helping that my mom told me I am fat, that I’m heavier than her and that my dad was finnaly convinced of the same.

Sooooo yeah, be ready to hear from me again.

[enoughofmyself]

And then I didn't