Damnit, she saw this coming as well. She knew that, no matter her reasoning, she’d react to this poorly. Vriska had been through alot and she had forced people to go through things much worse. Keri understood this, despite not having any real grounds to relate. Yes during her time in the Medium she made her share of mistakes but she assumed those weren’t going to affect her long-term. This however, this was something that was clearly eating away at Vriska.
Her gaze became more harsh, yet she still remained stoic. Even after Vriska punched the wall of her home she wasn’t deterred. She came here with a clear goal in mind and she wasn’t leaving until she got her point through.
“ First off, I’m you’re friend. Nothing you could say to me would make me think otherwise. I don’t know how you can even begin to think that, but I’m going to reaffirm that you’re wrong. “
Keri gritted her teeth, her hands balled up into fists. Her vision was becoming less distorted as she fully focused on this one singular moment, consequences be damned.
“ I… I suppose I can’t say that what you did was right either. No, I’m fully aware that what you did was awful and if I had met you six years ago I would’ve made it a mission to slap you upside the head so hard it’d do a 720-degree turn… but I can tell that you’ve changed. That you’re trying to make amends, but at the same time you’re still letting these thoughts eat away at you. That’s why I came over… “
She was starting to shake now ever so slightly. Either she was blinded by rage over the fact that Vriska hadn’t let go of this despite Tavros seemingly not giving a crap anymore, or just upset that she always had to see this look on Vriska’s face.
“ When you came over two days ago I was… I was happy. I was so happy you were there. You made me feel like I didn’t have to go through things alone. That I didn’t have to suffer the burden of inevitability by myself, and that you’d try to help. Every time I see you like this it… it physically hurts. Seeing the worst of you surface like this hurts because I can’t help but care. “
A sharp breath was taken, tears began surfacing again. Her arms instinctively reached out and grabbed Vriska’s wrists as she pulled her closer as her gaze shifted to the ground.
“ Even if I can’t relate to this problem at all. Even if you feel as though you still deserve to hurt for what you did. Even if you think you have no friends. Can you… “
She looks up, puffy-eyed yet determined.
“ …Can you let me try? Let me try to help you realize that there’s a future past this, that you deserve and have friends… Let me at least do that… “
ᚐᚚᚌ ⊰ Her gaze was mostly fixated on Keri’s face and what she was saying, but her attention was immediately grabbed by a certain passerby who was supposedly trying to get into their house- it was Jade. She forced herself to look away from her- she couldn’t look at her Kismesis. Not now, while she was like this. She didn’t deserve her…
She didn’t deserve this level of care- to be offered a place to stay and live. She felt her hands firmly clench into fists, and she looked up to Keri once again. Much to her shock- she was crying once again.
ᚐᚚᚌ ⊰ She could only sit and listen while Keri’s words reached her ears and further threw her emotions down the hole. She felt stupid, every time she had these outbursts she felt so fucking stupid. Like she had no reason to be like this- she had no reason to be negative, and yet these feelings always came back… always haunted her from the back of her mind.
She did not offer any resistance when Keri grabbed her wrists and pulled her closer, and her sight was trained directly at her.
ᚐᚚᚌ ⊰ She felt so lost. All of her feelings didn’t feel grounded in the slightest- every swing of emotion she had seemed to only serve to further alienate herself from everyone else and make things harder for everyone around her.
She just wanted to stop. But she wanted to receive proper punishment for everything she’d done- and at this point the only thing she would accept… is death.
But she felt like she had a reason to stay.
ᚐᚚᚌ⊰♏⊱ᚒ “I-I just….. I…..”
ᚐᚚᚌ ⊰ And just as quickly as all of her anger had built up, it cascaded down into a fit of sadness. She felt she could no longer keep in her despair- drops of cerulean escaping from her eyelids and rolling down her cheeks. She threw herself at Keri and buried her face into her shoulder, firmly wrapping her arms around her.
ᚐᚚᚌ ⊰ She didn’t know what to do. She didn’t know what to say- she didn’t feel like she had the strength to take the proper steps to recovery.
ᚐᚚᚌ ⊰ She felt trapped in her own mind.