— still adrift.

NAM JOOHYUK. seventh year hufflepuff. you're in love with impossibility.

[epjoohyuk-blog]

harmless fun ; ft. joshua

it was pretty weird, joohyuk thinks, because technically speaking, he was some sort of teacher to a hapless student. never did he think that a day would come where he could teach someone, given that he, himself, was struggling so much with his grades. as it is-- he’s some sort of... a tutor to someone now, despite the fact that their subject of interest was rather sketchy at best.

still-- joohyuk would be the world’s biggest liar if he denied the fact that he didn’t enjoy it. he got free kisses, without the attachment one would need from a boyfriend. granted, he should feel bad, exploiting joshua’s interests. speaking of...

the sight of a familiar figure prompts a grin from the hufflepuff. perfect timing. “joshua!” he calls out, low enough not to attract the attention of other students loitering around the black lake. he rises up fluidly, setting aside his notebook on the soft, grassy surface. with just a few strides, he reaches the other man, a confident smirk on his face. “are you free?” joohyuk asks, without hesitance. really, once you’ve gotten over awkward teeth-bumping kisses with someone, it’s long past the point where you need to be hesitant around them. “i kind of had this idea about our ‘lessons’,” he says, with an easygoing smile. “so, are you willing to hear this out?”

@epjoshua 

[epabel]

.toil and trouble

[epjoohyuk-blog]

epabel:

Abel really was a walking menace. He tended to prowl the halls during the day, looking for any bit of trouble he could cause. 

Just be his genuinely awful self. 

Right now his choice trouble is loitering outside in one of the courtyards, cat calling any girl who walked by and horsing around with a few various Slytherins who passed him by. 

“Hey! Puff.” The worst thing about Abel is when he sees something that he can latch onto and run with, he is merciless. This poor hufflepuff. 

“You dropped something.” Pushing himself off the wall the boy wastes no time in striding over and snatching up the book on the ground. “You shouldn’t be so careless.” A sound warning, but filled with malice and ill intention. 

@epjoohyuk

Joohyuk wasn’t one for mindless accusations. Whenever he suspects someone of anything, he makes sure he has evidence, makes sure that he can back up his suspicions if asked. But-- he was still human. There were times when a single glance at a person was enough for him to pass on judgments about them. 

Abel Min-- the first time Joohyuk has ever encountered him, he had already felt something unpleasant crawl down his back. He’s only proven right, of course, with countless news about the guy’s tendency to target people for bullying and taunting.

So, when he realizes that the guy’s finally speaking to him, he clenches his teeth in frustration. Especially when he sees Abel hold his private journal. “Why, thank you,” he says, voice dripping with false gratitude, “Silly me, so careless, so dumb,” he continues, gritting out a smile. “I didn’t expect you to be such a kind and helpful soul,” he can’t help but bait. Merlin-- he literally just can’t leave shit alone, can he?

 In an effort to minimize the chance of getting hexed, he steps forward, reaching for his journal, “Well, I’ll just take this then, alright?” He tries to pluck the book off Abel’s hands, wanting nothing more than to just go and get the fuck away from the guy. “

[notlindsay]

alright so who wants to fall in love with me

[notlindsay]

this is unbelievable I have to do everything myself

[epjoohyuk-blog]

tumble and fumble ; ft. joohyun

[epjoohyuk-blog]

epjoohyun:

she followed him without much resistance, still respecting his wish to keep this side of him under the public eye. now that she thinks about it, joohyuk must be afraid too. although the public has been more accepting of other people’s sexuality without judging them, there are still a couple of rotten eggs who wouldn’t think twice about using it against them. and joohyuk is probably too cautious to just kiss random guys in front of the student body.

once they reached the castle’s kitchen, joohyun sits down on one of the stools before taking a deep breath. she needs to be level-headed about this. her wrath before was mostly fueled by her ego that joohyuk should’ve told her so she could move on from him much sooner than she wanted. the girl finds herself parting her lips only to have joohyuk speaking out first. but she still tries to listen–because above being her crush, the boy is also a friend she holds dear. 

there was a brief moment of silence before she breaks into a fit of giggles. “homophobic? you must be joking me!” shakes her head. “listen, i’ve been crushing on you for almost five years now. five!!” she shows her entire palm, all five fingers outstretched. “if you told me sooner, i would’ve stopped much sooner than i would’ve wanted.” wait– that sounds wrong– “i mean–it’s like you’re giving me false hope. sorry if i snapped earlier. i was just… surprised, and angry.”

she then takes his hand–and feel her heart clench a little. although it’s not as bad as it was before. “you’re still my friend, dummy. of course we can still hang out.” pats his hand comfortingly, her usual smile is back now. “but no secrets next time, please? i’d appreciate if you can let me live my seventh year in peace and have a proper closure instead of leaving anything untied.”

“i--” a pause, as he tries to parse through her confession, “wait-- what.”  joohyuk feels the tip of his ears flush, embarrassment colouring his cheeks red. “oh fuck-- that’s,” he covers his face with his hands, letting out a groan, “i feel like such an asshole,” he says, words muffled by the palm of his hands. he takes a moment to recollect himself, before moving his hands away from his face, “i really didn’t mean to lead you on,” he said. hell-- the concept of someone actually liking him for his personality was such a strange concept, because he knows just how he was. “merlin-- five years,” he continues, absently, almost as if he’s saying it to himself. 

“i feel like i’ve got to make up for those five years, huh,” he says, with a rueful smile. after a moment or so, he lets out a soft sigh, staring down at their clasped hands, “i’m sorry,” he apologizes, yet again, fingers tracing hers gently. this time, when he looks up, he gives her a soft smile-- an agreement to her plea. “yeah, i promise,” he chews on his lower lip, before letting go of her hand. 

“so!” he exclaims, trying his best to move past his previous melancholy, pasting on a jovial expression on his face. it was, perhaps, forced, but he didn’t want to maintain the serious atmosphere any longer. “since you no longer have someone to crush on,” he says, “i could help you find another guy!” he leans back on his chair, crossing his legs, exuding faux arrogance, “they won’t be me, of course,” he gives a haughty sniff, “no one could be as great as me, but,”  he gives joohyun a playful grin, “maybe we can find a close second.”

[epjoohyuk-blog]

a little hazy ; ft. rj

[epjoohyuk-blog]

eprj:

rj is FANTASTIC at avoidance. from when he accidentally broke one of his mother’s vases when he was young, to times like today when he couldn’t face a familiar figure in the crowds of hogwarts. it wasn’t that he was a s h a m e d - no, it was that he didn’t know how to analyze the problem at hand, how to explain actions that weren’t remembered by the other party. 

his thoughts are elsewhere, his family, his future, anywhere but where he expected them to be the moment he sets eyes on the entrance to the ravenclaw common room. his throat’s dry, swallowing what feels like acid reflux but it’s really just his mountainous guilt and regrets coating his throat, avoiding joohyuk’s eyes as he approaches. rj steps back when joohyuk makes a move forward, eyes cast to the side and distant. 

“ um. ” he begins, arms crossing over his chest. “ sorry, i’m kind of busy. so no. ” rj counters, side stepping joohyuk’s form so he can get to the bronze knocker that awaits students wishing to enter the tower. he listens for the riddle, hoping it would indicate to the other male that he wasn’t interested. 

oh, so that’s how it is, then. good thing joohyuk’s been given this same treatment over a hundred times already-- he’s great at this whole forcing people to talk to him thing. it’s how he makes his figurative living. rj seems to dislike him already, so if he manhandles the guy a little bit more-- well. it’s not as if he has something to lose. with that thought in mind, joohyuk gets over the tiniest bit of hesitation in his mind, and grabs rj’s arm, forcibly tugging the man away from the ravenclaw entrance. 

“nope-- you’re not busy,” he says, “you and i, amigo, we’re gonna have a heart-to-heart,” he continues, as he brings farther away from the entrance, and away from the gaggle of ravenclaws who were staring at them. once joohyuk was satisfied, he lets go of rj’s arm, and instantly straightens. “alright-- here we go,” he starts, giving rj the most serious look he could muster. 

“as far as i know, i have done nothing wrong to you,” he tells the man, a frown already at his lips. “i’m pretty sure i haven’t hexed you, stalked you, or done anything to you,” he says, words coming out in a rush. he had a speech prepared, alright? “i’m used to people giving me a wide berth, but it’s usually after i’ve dug up something about them, but you? i haven’t even done anything yet!” his voice rises up just a tad, showing just how bothered he was about the whole thing. “so can you just-- i don’t know, tell me what i did wrong or something?”

[epjoohyuk-blog]

hey kids.. im not a new member spdvidjfvgifdopejn but i’ve been inactive for weeks because i was trying to revamp my child. BUT HEY. i was successful. meet joohyuk 2.0, who’s slightly sadder now, and kind of more serious, but still annoyingly determined to find out everyone’s Dirty Secrets. my current plots with ppl still hold, and i’ll message u guys one by one if i think that there should be changes but at the same time, I HAVE A NEW PLOTS PAGE!! if you see anything u like pls tell me

im gonna message everyone i haven’t yet, so pls be patient.

[praaatt]

[epjoohyuk-blog]

hello amigos! this is your good ol pal mod rami aka fenris and i swear im not dead i’ve just lost muse for this character. having a long ass time to lounge around in a hospital bed made me think about Life-Altering stuff so now i’m in the process of revamping his bio and his personality ( in general ). i have plots here so i’ll definitely message everyone sooner or later once i’ve finalized his latest bio and just check up on the plots to update it. i have threads waiting for replies from me and i am not dropping them! i’d like to just revamp joohyuk before replying. thanks for understanding and sorry for bein’ a shitty mun omg.

[fyeah-namjuhyuk]

[epjoohyuk-blog]

squid & company ; ft. eiden

[epjoohyuk-blog]

epeiden:

it’s rare to find eiden out in the open. it’s not like he hates the outside, he loves it! but he’d rather sit in his dorm and rest or just stay inside so he’s able to keep his pale complexion. there are days where he ventures out for a little bit of peace. technically, he’s only out because the kitchen was taken and the common room was too noisy for him. so he decides to sit near the lake and watch the squid just float around happily. he wonders if he could float around like the squid one day, but he’d rather not. 

his peace was disturbed by a certain someone. he glances over, a soft smile appearing on his visage when he saw that it was only joohyuk. ❝i know. the kitchen was taken today and the common room was too noisy for my liking. ❞ he quirked an eyebrow at the other, seeing him stare. his cheeks were dusted with a light pink, pearly white teeth softly digging into his bottom lip. ❝w-what? is my new look bad or something..❞ a hand came up to run through his hair as he softly pouted. hearing his questions, eiden rolled his eyes playfully.  ❝not really. after all, you’re not suppose to miss your ex. silly.❞ he softly flicked his forehead.  ❝my summer was..alright. i guess?❞ his summer was horrible. 

“well,” he says, lips drawing out the word in a lazy drawl, “it is the first week of school, it’s inevitable people would want to catch up.” joohyuk rests his palms on the soft ground, casting his gaze back on the still river, basking in the momentary peace. at the mention of eiden’s appearance, joohyuk’s lips form a small smile, “now that you mention it,” he says, putting on a mock thoughtful expression, “well, let’s see...” he stays silent for a moment or so, before his expression breaks into one of amusement, “of course you look good,” he says, as genuinely as he could. “it’s impossible for you not to,” he adds, with a charming grin.

“is that so?” he lets out a soft hum, a humouring smile on his face even as he rubs at the flicked spot, “that’s odd, because i did miss you,” he says, with ease. it’s not like joohyuk was lying-- they broke up in an amicable manner, and while they weren’t and wouldn’t be as close as they were before, he still had hopes that they’ll be good friends. “wow, that summary was exciting,” he deadpans, in the driest tone he could muster. “alright-- very filled, very uplifting,” he continues on, just to be a little shit about it. he’s still grinning though, his jests lighthearted, “i might as well converse with the giant squid at this rate. i reckon he’ll be far more interesting.”

[epjoohyuk-blog]

tumble and fumble ; ft. joohyun

[epjoohyuk-blog]

epjoohyun:

(. . .)

joohyun stops hitting joohyuk and takes a deep breath, recomposing herself in the face of her first love. her eyes return to send semi-murderous glare upon the hufflepuff boy. “how long have you known about this?”

joohyuk’s expected a lot of things, really-- hell, he expected her to slap him the moment she had the chance, so the punching wasn’t much of a surprise. it still doesn’t stop him from stumbling back, though, his hands moving on his own accord, gripping her arm gently. “well,” he starts, tone light as he tries his best to make joohyun feel better, “that’s assuming someone would actually want to marry me,” he says, as if the mere thought was impossible. when she continues to question him, he knows then that he can’t just simply talk himself out of this mess.

it wasn’t that he was shy about his sexuality-- he certainly wouldn’t be making out with a guy out in public if he was, but at the same time, there was a difference between doing it in the darkness of the corridors and admitting it to someone. it may already be 2017, but joohyuk wasn’t naive, nor was he blind. it’s his job to dig up dirt on people, not the other way around.

he glances around the empty corridor, before looking back down at joohyun, a resigned expression on his face. “let’s not talk about it here,” he says, aware of the eyes and ears on the wall. one can never be too safe, really. joohyuk takes a step back, letting go of her arm as he gestures for her to follow him. 

joohyuk leads them towards a place almost all hufflepuffs go to for comfort-- the hogwart’s kitchens. it wasn’t necessarily past curfew yet, so they’re not at the risk of being told on, and at the same time, joohyuk knew that house-elves don’t indulge themselves in the good old art of gossiping. upon reaching the portrait, he tickles the pear, and waits for the portrait to swing open. once inside, he takes the seat on the nearest table, waiting for joohyun to do the same. 

“alright,” he says, sounding as if the very thought of sharing his thoughts was a painful experience. “i’ve known for quite some time,” he says, being as vague as possible. “it’s not really-- i’m not really going around announcing it to everyone,” he explains. “i’m still not sure why you’re so angry, though,” he continues, a small frown forming on his lips, “i mean-- it’s not like, i mean,” he stutters. “you’re not homophobic, are you? would you have, y’know,” he makes a vague gesture with his hand, “stopped accepting my offers to hang out if you knew?” 

[epjoohyuk-blog]

hi guys! i have.... more than 30+ unanswered messages right now and i know it’s my fault i’m so sorry! i promise PROMISE i’ll get to them in the next day or so. if i haven’t messaged you/replied, please don’t think i’m ignoring you !! thanks for your patience guys !

[epjoohyuk-blog]

a little hazy ; ft. rj

joohyuk considers himself to be a very... likable person. he wasn’t exactly bragging, but at the same time, he knows where his strengths lie. it’s how people trust him so easily, letting him in on their secrets. suffice to say, joohyuk doesn’t do awkward-- so to see rj avoiding him so early into the school year? well-- he wasn’t about to let that continue. 

they weren’t particularly close. not really-- joohyuk does recall that he was there on his last birthday party, but it was more of a friend of a friend kind of knowing each other. so it was completely strange to him how rj seems to just so conveniently avoid passing by him. it wasn’t like they even talked in his party, as far as he could recall. there was really no reason for this.

it’s how he ended up lounging in front of the ravenclaw entrance, keeping a careful eye on the students going in and out of the dorm. he isn’t ashamed to admit that he had sweet-talked a random acquaintance of rj’s, persuading them to give him a rough estimate of the guy’s schedule. it’s maybe after ten minutes or so before the person he’d been waiting for finally shows up, and joohyuk decides that, well, it’s now or never. putting on an easy-going smile, joohyuk approaches the elusive ravenclaw, unashamedly stepping into his personal space. “hey there,” he greets, all smooth and casual, as if he didn’t notice just how awkward rj has been with him. “are you free right now? i was rather hoping to talk to you for a bit,” he continues, making sure to sound hopeful. “if that’s alright?”

@eprj

[epjoohyuk-blog]

GUYS,, i literally have no excuse omg. i stayed up super late playing dragon age and now i lack sleep and haven’t replied to IMs or posted starters and i want to apologize!! i’m gonna get through everything like right now and if i don’t feel free to never talk to me again please,, 

[kant-deactivated20190908]

I hate dogs and dog people annoy the shit out of me

You Think Anonymity Will Keep You Safe But When Our Paths Cross You Will Meet My Blade You Mother of Fucking

[epjoohyuk-blog]

interrobang ; ft. yoojin

honestly speaking, joohyuk really did intend to study in the library. it was a bit too early in the term, definitely, but he knows he needs as much of an early start he could get. he wasn’t dumb-- joohyuk’s humble enough to say that, but he wasn’t particularly driven, either. it’s the reason he’s forced himself to sit in the library, book opened in front of him, as he tried to absorb whatever it was that he was reading. 

it was difficult-- he’s torn between reading and listening in on the loud group of third year gryffindors. he decides that, no, for once, his grades are much more important than whatever inane chatter those third-years were having. so, with a heavy breath, he takes his books and stands up, looking for a more secluded spot, away from groups of people. 

it’s only by chance that he catches sight of one particularly secluded table, holed up in a corner of the library. it was quite possibly the most ideal spot to be, with no other tables nearby, as well as the lack of chatty groups. joohyuk catches sight of the woman occupying the table a little bit too late, and he thinks twice about looking for another spot. but-- it was just one person, right? surely, joohyuk won’t get distracted.

with resolve, he takes the chair a few spots away from where the girl was. from her robes, he could make out the fact that she was a ravenclaw, and from the looks of it, a headgirl. he tries to ignore the other girl for a few moments, trying to convince himself that he was actually reading-- but upon the fifth time he’s read the same sentence, and about the ninth time he’s sneaked glances to the girl, he decides that he literally has no ability to let sleeping dogs lie.

with that, he takes in a deep breath, before pasting on a smile. “hey there,” he greets, cordial and welcoming, but still low enough so as not to be heard by the librarian, “do you think you could help me out with something?” he asks, the lilt of his voice just enough to convey distress. it’s one of joohyuk’s most preferred methods of striking up conversation-- pretend as if he needed help. “i’ve-- i mean, i’ve kind of been reading the same paragraph for a while now, and i still don’t get any of it,” he says, adopting a meek expression.

@epyoojin

[epjoohyuk-blog]

squid & company ; ft. eiden

contrary to popular belief, joohyuk does manage to find some time here and then for himself. it’s not really difficult to believe that he could crave for silence , after hanging around people’s heads for so long. and there was definitely nothing calmer than the black lake, listening to the gentle breeze and the sound of the black squid lazily moving around the lake.

so-- it’s a pleasant surprise for him to spot a familiar place in his favourite resting spot, and he feels a smile form on his lips as he recognizes the student. with barely any hesitation, joohyuk takes the spot beside eiden, settling down on the soft grass. “fancy seeing you here,” he says, in lieu of a proper greeting. he takes the time to observe eiden, not even bothering to cover up his fondness. “how was your summer without me?” he asks, “did you wither without my lovely presence, maybe? mope around your place out of misery?” 

@epeiden