Call me Equus! she/her, adult, queer, autistic, writer, artist, programmer.
Check out my AO3 or my Writing Masterpost!
Talk to Me!
My inbox is always open! Feel free to reach out if you wanna. š¤ I'll take drabble requests/prompts for my listed fandoms (with no promises, and as long as y'all understand I might take forever lol). I'll also just chat if you wanna scream about a favorite character. I don't bite ā¤ļø (A note though: I can take forever to respond sometimes. š )
More info under the cut! šš»
Current (and Perpetual) Fandoms
Five Nights at Freddy's: Security Breach
Elder Scrolls (particularly Skyrim and Elder Scrolls Online)
Dragon Age: Inquistion
Tales from the Borderlands
Notre Dame de Paris / The Hunchback of Notre Dame
Johnny the Homicidal Maniac / Invader Zim / anything else Jhonen-verse
Not a fandom but talk to me about turn of the century circuses!! (1880s - 1930s)
Also not a fandom but talk to me about America in the Roaring 20s ā¤ļø
Where to Find Me
I'm most active on here and AO3!
Archive of Our Own (I write! A lot!)
Discord (DM me if you're a moot ā¤ļø)
Elder Scrolls Online (if any moots are into ESO let me know, I'm EquusTenebris there as well and would love somebody else to run dungeons and stuff with :>)
Twitter
Some other various places aksgfk just ask
My Tags
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Everything else will be uhhh attempted to be tagged correctly, with fandom and characters where I recognize them.
Trigger warnings are always proceeded with "tw:", as in "tw: triggery thing". If there's something you'd like me to tag let me know. I have the awareness of a golden retriever so I sometimes miss trigger tags, don't be afraid to reach out.
I know it has been a very long time. I just want everyone to know that I have seen the comments you've left me and the wonderful things that you've said. Nothing has changed on my end, but I want you to know I am immensely grateful and you all are so lovely and kind. It's meant more to me than I can ever, ever express. Thank you. From the bottom of my heart, thank you.
I am so sorry but this isn't a return notice, I just wanted to get out my gratitude. Everything that has impeded me before continues to impede me now. "Everything" continues to be me myself. Maybe someday things will change but I just wanted everyone to know that I am still in existence and your comments have not fallen into a void. I read everything and I am immensely grateful. Thank you.
Be safe and be good to one another. Be kind and understanding no matter what your situation is. Everyone is capable of more love than you can ever comprehend. Try to reach that. I believe in you.
I think I need to maybe step back for a while. I'm sorry I'm going to leave a couple people hanging (sorry sorry šš») but I need to figure some stuff out and help myself like. yesterday. I am not well or okay. I don't know know what to do. I don't know where to start. I'm going to remove Tumblr and Reddit and shit from my phone for rn, I have never done that before but it feels like the right thing to do right now. I just. I don't know. need to do something. I don't know how long I need to step back but I don't plan on this being forever or anything. Sorry. I just need to think. I wish I COULD think. God I'm confused. I wish I was better. I wish a hell of a lot of things. I'll see everybody later, sorry for this being so abrupt. Don't worry about me at all. Everything will work out, or at least that's what I'm going to tell myself.
OK. So. A number of you know I deactivated my old blog a few days ago without warning.
I was told a lot of people missed me and were worried. I was not expecting that, tbh. But I feel terrible. You guys are awesome. I'm sorry. š
Long story short, my anxiety, insecurities, and low self-esteem have been worse than ever. And I just thought "Fuck it" and decided to delete not only my old blog, but my AO3 too.
This was a TERRIBLE mistake.
I felt horrible... heck, that's an understatement. It was a GUT PUNCH when I realized what I did, which was immediately after I deleted everything. I dearly missed the connections I made, the content I enjoyed, and my own content. How could I have just thrown all that away?! And when I learned via email from a mutual that people were worried and cared, I felt worse than ever.
So, I came back. Because I genuinely wanted to. I've already reached out and reconnected with a lot of you. And I was not only able to find most of my mutuals and others I was following again, but I found most of my posts via a few others' reblogs too (good thing I knew where to look)!
I'm not 100 percent back yet. I've slowly began reblogging, but still won't be on as much for a couple of weeks. Trying to just relax and take it easy. In the meantime, I've signed up for AO3 again and am waiting for my invitation, which should be in a couple weeks.
After that, I'll restore all my stories from my orphaned AO3 account onto my new one and look for as many of my favorite stories and writers again to bookmark and subscribe to, which will take awhile. Then I'll resume work on my WIPs.
All of ya'll whose stuff on AO3 I left comments on, they'll say Orphaned Account now where I commented.
So, when you see a bunch of my DuckTales stories pop up on AO3 in a few weeks, that's me restoring my old stuff.
As for my former posts, I'm going to reblog them when I start posting regularly again. They'll be tagged as something like 'My posts from my old account'.
I'm OK, as I told some of you. Just need some time. You guys are too kind and supportive. But taking this time away has already helped me a lot.
I'm so so so glad you're back and I hope that things get better for you soon, Shy!! ā¤ļø It's such a relief to have you back again, I missed you. š Please take all the time you need and take care of yourself!! ā¤ļø Thank you so much for letting us know and for coming back here, my heart just ached at the thought of not seeing your name in my feed all the time. ā¤ļø
Hey y'all, here we go! The final chapter (plus the epilogue) to the Virus Scan, the conclusion of the All in a Day's work series. š¤ I did it, I did it, we're done!! I'm gonna go crawl under a rock and nap for ten years.
An Archive of Our Own, a project of the
Organization for Transformative Works
Chapter 4 - The Path of Totality -- After some help and several discussions, Moon makes his final decision, and it's time to take action.
An Archive of Our Own, a project of the
Organization for Transformative Works
Epilogue -- A couple of weeks later, Sun and Moon have been thinking about something.
I am looking for another someone who can fill the role of beta reader/co-conspirator for Visions! I have one person helping me currently, but I need additional help, so if you're someone who's really into Visions and wouldn't mind knowing a few big plot details/the entire planned plot, and would be willing to help me plan the chapters out as well as read unfinished chapters and suggest changes, I want you! The more inclined you are to suggest your own ideas to possibly improve the story, the better. Please keep in mind that I'm likely to deny you if I value your blind feedback/comments, because I don't want to spoil the big plot details for my best readers. However, if you're at all interested, you should still give it a shot! I would prefer dms so I can talk to those interested directly, get to know you better, all that. That way I can determine if you're a good fit for the type of role I need filled, and you'll also hear back from me quickly.
YO as much as I would LOOOVE to do this I know I'm the wrong person for the job š Not because I wouldn't ADORE talking through stuff (oh my GOD would I ever!!!!!) but I just don't have the reliability and working brain rn unfortunately, so I'm boosting this instead. Y'ALL GO LIVE MY DREAM GO HELP WITH VISIONS ā¤ļø
All my public playlists are on my Spotify but I thought I should lay 'em out for people. :>
Five Nights at Freddy's: Security Breach
The Daycare Attendant (Sun & Moon) - Mostly songs that are directly related to canonical Sun and/or Moon (as opposed to AUs), but a little heavy on the Y/N x DCA themes. Kinda equal parts bouncy and angsty.
Elder Scrolls Online
a natural disaster masquerading as a personš„ - Primarily a playlist for Revus Demnevanni (but there's definitely also some songs about Tiras's mixed feelings about his mentor, as well as some pining Vestige on there as well). Heavy on fire imagery (it's my leitmotif for him, leave me alone). Generally on the easier-listening side along the lines of the Crane Wives.
Duckverse
Newton Gearloose - No fancy title, lol. Primarily songs I associate with my teenage Newton headcanons. (I am so sorry.) Often brash and obnoxious, because. Well. (I love him.)
MD/Gyro - To steal my own Spotify description: My song dumping ground for anything that reminds me of the Mad Ducktor, Gyro, or MD/Gyro. Maybe it's abstract, maybe it's literal, maybe I should have my Spotify privileges taken away. Don't judge me.
(One-sided) PK/Gyro - Self-explanatory, some Gyro pining for an uninterested Duck Avenger. Very under-developed but generally bouncy and pop-y.
Blame Gravity - A generally-in-order playlist that helped inspire my Mad Ducktor/Gyro Gearloose MDGyro fic Blame Gravity on AO3.
Blame Gravity - the extras - Some various songs that were eventually going to be related to other stories I was going to include in my Blame Gravity ficverse.
hey y'all, I dumped my queue and I think I'm gonna step back for a little while. I'll still pop in to check my DMs though so if any of y'all want to talk to me (and you know who you are) I'll still be available, I know this has been rough. ā¤ļø Keep safe y'all.
One of my best friends is completely gone from the fucking internet. Iām so fucking upset. Iām sad, Iām angry and I feel fucking depressed
I hope everyone who made Shy feel like she didnāt fit in or wasnāt good enough has a horrible life moving forward. Iām not even joking when I say that I hope you fail in life and I wish the worst for you
I donāt know how active Iām going to be on here this weekā¦I canāt bring myself to do anything without her here
Ohhh Mars I am so sorry. ā¤ļø Shy was one of my closest friends, I'm devastated and so so hurt and sad. I still don't have words.
I had just queued a bunch of stuff yesterday but yeah I don't think I'll be around much for a while either. I miss her. I wish I was more functional because I left her hanging in a few different conversations and I feel so guilty about that, I was trying to answer but god, fighting the brain all the time. ._. I still feel like a dick though.
Take the time you need to be okay. I'm still trying to keep optimistic ā¤ļø
adkjfbgblagjb i have been thiNKING ABOUT THIS TOO MUCH OKAY
so like. Who is the big bad, here? (I mean, presumably it's Afton, in the Leave ending, Gregory doesn't have any idea about ANY of that.) And I am uhhh NOT really brushed up on my FNaF lore so I will leave that to the experts.
HOWEVER currently Peepaw Willy is a rotting corpse rabbit barely able to shuffle down a hallway, so presumably there's somebody else at play, here. Somebody that can work the lights and door controls quickly, and with timing. In-game it was Vanessa, and maybe it still is! Maybe she's still holed up in the Pizzaplex, watching them on the cameras. Just because the animatronics have been cut off from the intranet/internet doesn't mean she is.
Or maybe it's not Vanessa at all! From what I've seen, Afton's influence is vague in canon, he could have snagged some other unwitting participant. Others have clearly been in the Pizzaplex since it went to rot (as evidenced in early chapters by Gregory spotting some graffiti).
What's the motivation? Is Afton's virus/control weakening, so he's trying to dispose of the threats before the threats figure everything out and dispose of him? Moon clearly snapped out of it and you can make the argument that Moon was infected first, so he may realize his time is limited.
Is he buying time to try to reinfect/reassert control? I always thought it'd be really interesting to see Moon reinfected, like Freddy during the Afton ending where Freddy is struggling and fighting it. Moon would be devastated after all the trust they've built, but he'd be so helpless. A role reversal would also be fun -- what if Afton succeeds in corrupting Sun but not Moon? With the lights going on at Vanessa/whoever's whim, it'd be so dangerous.
(I'd also be interested to see if we could explore a bit beyond SB -- does the company know about Afton's persistence? Are they allowing this for some reason? Maybe a part of it somehow? But I don't know enough FNaF lore to theorize there lol.)
Trying to remember other ideas and theories I had -- may come harass you more later :P
What if Y/N won an enormous amount of money at the lottery but after one year they have to stay an undisclosed range of time at the hospital because they continue to collapse and the doctors don't have any idea of what's the metter.
What if Y/N is tired of no answers from the doctors and being in the same room of other really ill people (because it's not good for their mental state to see them eventually die in front of them) and decides to use the money they won to "book" a room at the most advanced and famous hospital of their side of the world: Faz Co Hospital.
What if in said hospital they offer an emotional aid figure as a part of the basic therapy and you have to choose from a list full of sentient robots a companion.
What if you choose the "Celestial duo" (because lmao it is a Y/N x DCA AU) and spend a lot of time with them.
