Dear Diary

People use diaries still... right...?

[erinnkaylaaa]

[erinnkaylaaa]

I Failed You

You said the words as you were balling your eyes out.

My heart sank and my eyes were drowning with the kept back tears.

I’m sorry.

You didn’t deserve this.

You are the Sun.

You deserve a better life, a safer life.

[erinnkaylaaa]

Solar Eclipse

My heart aches for you.

I feel like this is my fault it happened to you.

I wish I could do something for you.

All I can do is pray and be here for you.

I love you.

[erinnkaylaaa]

Broken

She whispers to herself, “it’ll be okay,” as she slowly broke down into pieces. Tears being pushed back as her heart tore in two. A silent mouth but screaming in sorrow inside. She is not okay.

[erinnkaylaaa]

[pinewoodcomposts]

[pigmenting]

sometimes i forget how many times i’ve picked myself off the floor, how many times i’ve washed away smudgy makeup and put myself to bed. how many times i’ve said no to something unhealthy. said yes to something good. how many times i’ve treated myself with kindness and patience. i forget how many times i’ve tended to wounds and made peace with my own anger. if i was taking care of a body that was not my own, i’d believe i was doing everything i could. so here’s to remembering that i’m doing the best i can.

[frammentidillusioni-deactivated]

[erinnkaylaaa]

Unspoken words

So many words racing in my head. I stay up at night and can't go to bed. I just can't ever find the right words to be said. So those words just stay in my head.

[erinnkaylaaa]

Blind

Sometimes I feel unseen. My actions unseen. My eyes screaming "I'm not okay" is unseen. My wants unseen. I am unseen.

[nedobropojalovat-blog]

[erinnkaylaaa]

Happiness.

Happiness to me was getting married, having kids and having a well paid job. Happiness now is being my true self whenever and wherever. That’s all owed to you. My happiness isn’t you, but because of you.

[nebelzeit]

[mitten]

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[thegoodvybe]

[thegoodvybe]

[erinnkaylaaa]

As I stared more and more, I realized that I too am now free.