escaping my reality

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[escape-myreality]

I used to sit and lay in bed for hours-

just thinking.

Those same thoughts now scare me

to the point where I make myself exhausted

so the second my head hits the pillow

I shut off.

and the thoughts I used to love,

are left in the dust.

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I am 5 feet 5 inches

(which is just a tad too short)

I am 130 pounds

(its a little too much)

I have a 3.7 GPA

(its a little too low)

I have a 27 on my ACT

(again, too low)

I got a 67 on my last math test

(which is just unacceptable)

I take 45 milligrams of anti-depressants

(which is too much or too little, depending on how you look at it)

Sometimes,

I think I don't have an identity anymore,

I think I've been reduced

to just numbers

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Sorry about the lack of poems, I kind of took a couple months break. Basically, I was just really lacking the ability to put my feelings into words. I'm trying to put more poems on here, but I'm also trying to work on putting my edited poems up, sometimes I literally just type it out and sometimes my first drafts are not so fantastic! I'm really working on just making my writing the best it can be and trying to improve as much as I can!

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I'm screaming-

but my heads under the water

and

no

one

can

hear

me

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All I see is good

even if all you see is bad

Perfection is just perspective

And sitting here,

My view

Of you

Is perfect.

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Bittersweet Goodbyes

Bittersweet goodbyes

make for the worst of times.

I'm glad to see you go,

and chase your dreams.

But I don't want you to leave,

I want you to stay here with me.

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Dear doctor,

I don't think you hear me,

even when I try my best

to make you understand.

Don't talk to my mom,

talk to me.

I know what I'm feeling,

Not her.

The solution you're offering,

Isn't a solution at all.

It's a temporary fix to a permanent problem.

Oh doctor.

Dear dear doctor.

I'll be on my way now.

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Insecurities

they have no idea-

because they're either carefree

or guys.

they yell at me to hurry up

because we need to leave.

but i still stand in front of my closet

i cant find anything to wear

because i hate everything on me.

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Hi!

So, I'm freaking out because I AM GOING TO RUNNING CAMP FOR A WEEK! I am so excited I've been waiting for almost a year now and TOMORROWS THE DAY! Eeeeeek!

I have one thing queued but I won't have my computer at camp so I won't be on for about a week. I AM FREAKING OUT OVER HERE I AM SO EXCITED!!!!

~Sarah

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Me

hidden under a mattress

in a computer 

on a phone

thats where you'll find me.

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Home is where the heart is

I feel at home

in my friends houses

in the forest behind my house

the track at school

when I'm alone 

with my thoughts

it makes me happy

don't ask me why.

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You put now instead of no.....

Whoops....

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Camping.

Me the four of you in a tent for three days Gee, I see now way this can go wrong.

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The Hogwarts Notebook

I find it strange, that I store all my fucked up thoughts In a hogwarts notebook I got when I was young When I was young, And thought the worst thing in life was not getting dessert.

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Everything is changing

..........and I don't like it.

Why do you have to leave?

Why did you have to grow up?

Why is it,

that if feels as if

everythings falling apart

right when its supposed to come together?

Right when

its supposed to be

the best times of ones life?

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My grandmother sits, Alone on Fathers Day. Eating Popeyes chicken, because that's what her husband always wanted. Her husband. The father of all 5 of her children. He is gone, but her love for him will never die. I don't know what she thinks, as she sits there alone. I guess I won't, Not for another 80 years.