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So near, yet so far.

This rant may be shallow for you. You may even think that I’m humblebragging, but I don’t. I just want to rant here.

The grades are now out. I should be happy with the results. So far, my weighted average for this semester is the highest I’ve ever achieved in my whole college life. I know that I should feel thankful, but honestly, I am still hoping for more. I even felt happier when I barely passed in one of my programming classes before, compared to my current mood right now. All I can think of at this time is that 0.04 difference away from becoming a dean’s lister.

If you really know me, I am pretty much a laid-back person. I am conscious of my grades, mostly because I need to maintain them, but not to the extent of pushing myself to my limits. I will prefer sleeping rather than putting an all-nighter. I procrastinate, and I think I’ve already mastered the art of cramming. Yet, I am sure that I am responsible enough to not let myself fail. I am even motivated to do my best when I know that I am good at what I am doing.

Being the passive person that I am, I should not be depressed over that decimal difference. I should even be happy since I received an average that high. Instead, I feel like I’m the worst person ever. My mind is full of regret. Thoughts like, “Kung nakakuha lang sana ako ng mas mataas na grade sa ganito, nakaabot na sana ako sa DL,” “If I were just a better speaker than I am, I would have gotten a higher grade for this subject,” and so on are still bugging me. It hurts, and I keep on blaming myself because it’s true. I am accountable, and I regret that I did not push enough effort.

I hope I’ll feel better soon. Maybe this rant will help me release.

May last semester pa. Ang huling pagkakataon para magDL.

My FSA life so far

(Just in case you’re wondering, FSA stands for Firefox Student Ambassador, and I proudly am one!)

How did I end up being a student ambassador though?

Well, once upon a time, there was an announcement in one of my school groups in Facebook, and it was this link. Being the curious person that I am, I clicked the link and saw an invitation for becoming an ambassador. I thought that there was no harm in trying, so I answered the necessary questions to apply for being an FSA. When I was done, I clicked that “Sign Me Up” button, thinking that my application will go through various assessments before becoming an FSA.

Voila! Without any further ado, I saw the message at the screen that I am already a Firefox Student Ambassador. YES, it is that easy.

What I like about being a student ambassador is that you are given the opportunity to do fun activities with your own choice. You can decide to participate on online campaigns, or volunteer or manage events! They give chances to all students. Also, I strongly believe in providing web access to people because it is everyone’s right!

So far, I have been participating in online campaigns such as sharing Firefox-related posts in social media. I hope that I can also start doing activities in my university as I go along this journey.

#firefox #foxway

ayoko maging ganito

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I’m moving in August, and I’m trying desperately to cut down on the amount of STUFF that I have. I have multiple copies of a lot of SHINee albums, and let’s be real, I don’t need them!

Details:

Giveaway runs from June 18th~July 18th (Taemin’s birthday).

You can enter twice. (1 reblog, 1 like).

There will be 3 winners.

Each winner will receive Everybody, Why So Serious, an official poster, 1 unofficial mini poster, an official postcard, and a SHINee sticker.

**Due to the difficulty of mailing posters, posters may be folded**

**Albums do not include photocards**

All albums are lightly used. If you aren’t okay with a little wear and tear*, then do not enter this giveaway.

If you win you will receive an inbox from me under the username meemzter. If you do not respond within 48 hours I will choose another winner.

I will ship internationally.

You don’t have to follow this blog, but you probably should because there’s no such thing as too much SHINee on your dash!

*wear and tear=Everybody albums tend to hold up great, Why So Serious albums tend to be more prone to scuffing or denting. It’s just a result of the design. For Why So Serious, a little scuffing and denting is probably inevitable, even if you ordered it brand new from the store.*

What should I take?

Ano nga ba ang kukunin kong elective subj this sem? May 3 choices kasi. First is cloud computing tapos tuturuan kami gumawa ng iPhone apps. Next is STAC (special topics on advanced computing), basta, panibagong subj ng pagcode gamit ang Java programming language. Lastly, the third elective is CRM or customer relationship management (boring ba pakinggan?). Ano bang mga pinoproblema ko? Dun sa iPhone apps course, sa tingin ko masaya gawin. May advantage ang mga may Mac kaya lang wala ako nun. Tapos ayoko sa prof na magtuturo. May papagawa din na paper at ayaw ko ring gumagawa ng papers. Pero actually napag-isipan ko na yan itatake ko. Naisipan ko na rin na titiisin ko na lang siguro yung prof. Titiisin ko basta maiwasan ko lang ang Java. Ayoko na ulit maranasan ang Java. Pero ano naman ang pumipigil sa akin ngayon? Sabi ng blockmates ko nanakot lang daw yung prof ng iPhone apps para mas madaming magtake ng subj niya. Sinabi ba naman kasi na sobrang hirap daw ng STAC at intended yun for brightest IT students who like coding. Balik ulit tayo sa blockmates. Sabi nila parang computing 1 lang daw yun. Ewan ko. Di ko alam. Kilala ko sarili ko. Di naman kasi talaga ako magaling sa programming. Malaking pasasalamat nga at napasa ko yung mga computing subjs sa java kasi di ko talaga forte yun. Yung mga pinili na yung STAC eh alam kong carry nila ang Java. Paano naman ako? Di naman pwedeng piliin ko to nang basta-basta dahil sa peer pressure. Hello? Scholarship ko makasalalay dito. Di ko pwedeng ibagsak or else... CRM? Meh. Ayun. Ano nga ba ang dapat kong piliin?

#rant #electives #IT

Grabe ka naman, Choi. Masyado mong tinataas ang standards ko eh. Baka maging single ako habambuhay nito eh.