kinda there but not quite

❝ e t h a n ; [...] and i could hear the thunder and see the lightning crack. all around the world was waking, i never could go back. felt it in my fists, in my feet, in the hollows of my eyelids. shaking through my skull, through my spine, and all down through my ribs [...]

[rose-levitt-deactivated20140721]

Er .. I suppose. I just don’t see the point in arguing over something that’s sort of true, y’know? Would you really? The rest of this town would probably want me locked up if I was actually able to see ghosts. They’d want to talk to their deceased loved ones and I’ll just be used like a toy .. No, thank you. How come?

And what makes you so .. dick-ish? Oh .. well, maybe if you act the way you are with me towards other people then they’d call you an alright guy too. Pleasure to finally know you’re name, grumpy.

[ethansht-blog]

Hey, would it make it better if I said that I don't think you're a freak? Yeah, I think it'd be cool. If you think about it, it could be a nice business. If people found out, I mean. Twenty bucks if you wanna talk to your deceased aunt for half an hour, fifteen more if you wanna talk to her for a full hour. Not a toy, but more of a communication sorta' device? Eh, you don't want to know. It doesn't matter.

Nothing in particular, it's just that I see no point in being nice at all. Don't think that'd work, I mean, mostly everyone in this town either hates me or simply avoids me, so I can't just... make an 180 turn from a day to the next. You too, town freak. 

[alicedarlingx-deactivated201410]

Sleeping some more would mean wasting the day away, I don’t want to do that.

[ethansht-blog]

Okay. Then don't. Stay tired all day for all I care.

[sicnnabackup]

No, not really. The quiet out here helps me concentrate.

[ethansht-blog]

...Concentrate on what? 

[michaeltheshaw]

Maybe people are just avoiding you.

[ethansht-blog]

Is that necessarily a bad thing?

[ethangtfo-deactivated20140607]

Too quiet.

[ethansht-blog]

... Okay. Thanks for stating the obvious.

[niallsoriginal]

[ethansht-blog]

It's a little... quiet out here, innit?

[rose-levitt-deactivated20140721]

That’s just what people label me as and I’m just going along with it. No point in saying otherwise ‘cause they won’t listen anyway. But trust me, I can’t talk to dead people. So I’m assuming you’re a party-all-night type of guy?

Oh .. well, why haven’t they? Huh, I guess that’s something we can agree on. Er .. is it a good different? It’s Rose. What’s yours, grumpy?

[ethansht-blog]

You're kinda' just going with the "if you can't beat them, join them", then? It would be kind of cool if you could, though. But creepy if you actually used the Ouija board, because what if you don't use it properly and then a bunch of dead spirits come back to haunt you? Fuck that. Eh, used to be— not so much anymore.

Because I'm a dick, apparently. I mean, I am a dick, but they don't have to rub it in my face. Yeah, you're tolerable. I suppose so... no one's called me an 'alright guy' or said that they'd mind in a long time. Ethan.  

[alicedarlingx-deactivated201410]

No matter how much sleep I got the day before, I’m still sleepy whenever I wake up.

[ethansht-blog]

Good for you. Sleep some more or whatever.

[heres-luke]

You totally didn’t see me trip. I’m smooth as an eggplant!

[ethansht-blog]

Dude, don't say that. 

[fucklepuffs]

You know it had to have been a good night when you don’t remember half of it.

[ethansht-blog]

Technically, no. For all you know, you could've been drugged and missing a kidney and you wouldn't even know. That doesn't exactly sound like a good night. Not to me, anyway.

[ethangtfo-deactivated20140607]

No, I’m just saying I don’t think its a good idea.

[ethansht-blog]

Oh, yeah? I rarely come up with actual ideas, so no, it's obviously not a bad one. 

[andisons-deactivated20140925]

Well you’ve given them reasons to! You can give them reasons to not hate you too, it’s not a one way street. I don’t hate you either. My sister might, but I don’t. I don’t like you all that much but I don’t hate you. Well good, keep doing that, see where that leads you. You don’t know?

[ethansht-blog]

Yeah? And you think I can fix everything in a split second and suddenly everyone won't hate me anymore? Yeah, right. Whatever you say. Honestly, I don't care where it leads me— I literally couldn't give a shit. I don't know, okay? I don't.

[ethangtfo-deactivated20140607]

Of what you’re saying is true. 

[ethansht-blog]

Are you calling me a liar?

[ethangtfo-deactivated20140607]

I’m not entirely convinced.

[ethansht-blog]

Of what?

[sicnnabackup]

How is this fun? You know most people who want to have fun, take up a sport or a hobby. Maybe you should try it, and leave me alone. No, but you’d think it would. I’m a person too, if you hadn’t realized.

[ethansht-blog]

Look at your reactions, listen to yourself. It's quite the laugh. Nah, too much work, I'd rather not. You're a person comparing another person to a cloud. I mean, seriously? That's just all you, I'm not even making fun of you right now.

[rose-levitt-deactivated20140721]

Uh, I can’t really talk to dead people. That’s crazy! Heh, I guess it’s better company because .. it’s more calm. Spirits are much more quiet. I don’t have to listen to heaps of voices trying to talk over the other, y’know? Anyway, it’s hard to explain.

I think .. home is in people, not a place. Sure, people around here might not like you but who’s to say moving to a different place is the answer? Maybe it’s you who has to, I don’t know, change for the better? You’re an alright guy though so I would mind if you left but don’t count on me chasing you at the airport. I’ll take that into consideration if I ever decide to move.

[ethansht-blog]

You said you were the town freak, maybe you could? I mean, I wouldn't know. Silence is so fucking loud, though. If someone was willing to talk to me, alive rather than dead, I'd take it. Yeah, so's everything else.

Well, people haven't exactly made me feel homey, either. Nah, change's not something I'm really interested in. Or willing to do, for that matter. Alright guy? You'd mind? Well, that's... different. Anyway, town freak, d'you have a name?