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you love him, you do, and hereâs the miracle: he loves you, too.
â danez smith, "acknowledgements"
Reap & Sow Chapter 5: Wheels in Motion
Itâs that time again! Reap & Sow Ch 5: Wheels in Motion is now up on Ao3!
 More intrigue, missions, a little bit of torture; yet somehow Dean still has time to daydream about pretty blue eyes...
Read from the start:Â
Read from Ch. 5Â
(See this cover art? it's awesome. It's by @Hitori_Alouette)
Light my path
Reap & Sow Chapter 4: The Hounds of Winchester
Chapter 4 is here!Â
Story Summary: âThis is a Mafia AU Supernatural fanfic centering around a Dean POV after he returns from his life in the military and finds himself disillusioned with the 'family business'. It follows him as he strives to find the truth behind the city he calls home and the things that make it bleed (other than himself and his partner in crime, Ketch). He faces trials in love, in friendships, and finds himself needing to protect himself as well those he's sworn to defend for the very first time. When the gritty truths that haunt the Winchester family come to light how will John face the confrontation with his son, and will Dean cope with the savagery that is the underworld of the city he loves.â
Chapter 4 Summary:Â âDean and Ketch get to work on the demon presence that has taken up residence in the south end of their territory. They begin to find their groove again and as questions increase and Dean realises certain things about those around him he begins to consider that perhaps there should be a little more selfishness in his life, and a little less sacrifice.â
⨠Read from Chapter One: Homecoming â¨
⨠Read from Chapter Four: The Hounds of Winchester â¨
âď¸Reap and Sow Artwork by the wonderful and amazing @hitori-alouette (go and follow them)
đAnd as always, a big wonderful thank you to my beta @spnisthewayoflifeÂ
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I received a question on my current WIP, Reap & Sow about the relationship between Dean and Ketch. I thought I'd made it clear at the end of chapter 1 that, while the guys are extremely close, there's not actually anything going on between them.
But since I was asked for some clarification, I've decided to provide it everywhere âşď¸
Reap & Sow is a destiel fic, and while there will be a second major plot pairing down the line, that pairing doesn't involve either of them.
And any romantic or sexual pairings will, of course, be tagged. I never have untagged romantic pairings. đĽ°
Reap & Sow Chapter 3 - Whatâs In a Name?
This weekâs instalment of Reap & Sow went up on Ao3 a little early. (Partly because someone said some very nice things about it in my comments and on twitter and it made me happy inside, and partly because of Deanâs Birthday)
In chapter 3 we continue with Dean and Ketch while theyâre staking out a target and having deep and meaningful conversations that raise more questions than answers about the state of Deanâs family and The Business; not to mention questions into just a small part of the time Dean spent as a Green Beret... and what, at times, that meant for Ketch.Â
As they begin to try and find the long-cold trail relating to Deanâs missing brother further questions arise about what happened on that strange and fateful night that led to a group of young adults seeming to vanish into thin air. And as they follow the footsteps that group walked something new catches Deanâs eye, drawing him in.Â
But is it the small garden that might help him formulate an escape plan, or the man he met there with the pretty blue eyes that makes him feel compelled to return?Â
in other words: the chapter where some shit happens but also Dean and Cas finally meet.Â
â¨Read on Ao3 from the beginningâ¨
â¨Read Chapter 3: Whatâs In a Nameâ¨
Other stuff:
There are no new tags needing to be added this week. But just a reminder that this story is a mafia au where the supernatural still exists and while there hasnât been any violence or murder so far - there will be down the line, and while there will be deaths associated with some familiar faces in the end NONE of these deaths will be protagonists or part of the happy found family that weâre forming.Â
Coverart for Reap & Sow by @hitori-alouetteâ who is incredible and should be followed and adored.Â
Reap & Sow updates once a week, usually on Thursdays AEST, with early access via discord on Mondays AEST. Â
You can find my various socials here âď¸
I don't think Dean and Cas want to get married in a traditional-ceremony normal-person-milestone suits-and-flowers-and-speeches kind of way. I think they want to get married in a you-are-bound-to-me-forever kind of way.
Reap and Sow Chapter 2: Stay in Line, Soldier Boy is now up on Ao3!
Chapter summary: "Dean is put back into rotation in the Family Business, and things are more complicated than he initially thought. With increasing animosity from the family elders and more questions than answers about what happened to his brother, Dean needs to start thinking about what is best for him and who is allies may truly be."
⨠Read on Ao3 â¨
đď¸ art by @hitori-alouette
Literally funniest thing supernatural ever did was when they were like. You know cain. Well killing hims brother sucked but was really like whatever who give a shit. But killing his wife. Worst thing he ever did. Haunts him every day. So the great tragedy of dean becoming cain. Is. What? No itâs not the brother killing. as i, the show supernatural, said previously, who give a shit . The GREAT tragedy of dean becoming cain. Is killing cas
There is something so beautiful about reaching out to the monstrous with intent to touch it gently. To risk the sharp teeth and the lethal claws, to defy fear and revulsion, and choose to be delicate with something that can be, and often is, incredibly brutal.
you know iâm sure after thousands of years in the cage, not being perceived by any other beings (except for lucifer, which neither of them gave the time of day) adam forgets that on earth youâre constantly under the scrutiny of other humans.
i mean all that time? a guy just forgets what being judged is like, can you blame him?
adam hardly ever even considered that most of his and michaelâs conversations are in a mental plane not a physical one. other people just canât see the two of them, so he ends up looking like a crazy person most the time.
like for reference: adams chilling in the bunker with sam and dean and just goes completely blank and unresponsive for hours- aside from the occasional giggle, light hand twitch or facial expression- and other times heâs fully conversing out loud to an invisible second party(michael).
sam and dean definitely prefer his one sided conversations, because he will still acknowledge them both when they speak to him, when heâs unresponsive they absolutely cannot get him to snap out of it.
in fact 9 out of 10 times when adam âwakes upâ heâs got sharpie on his face, popcorn all over him, and his shoes are missing?
now the thing is, michael absolutely can physically manifest himself, he just doesnât want to. adams asked him to show himself to others on a couple specific occasions- one was after the entire line of people behind him at the grocery store (including the cashier) heard him have a one sided argument about buying beets. he hadnât realized his mistake until the cashier asked if he was doing okay. another was initially when they started staying at the bunker and dean had apologized again to adam for leaving him there, but added onto his apology was a comment about how âadams mind clearly broke down there because the way he talks to himself is concerning.â to which adam told him that he was just talking to michael. but even so, michael will still rarely show himself to anyone but adam.
adam learned to accept it and doesnât really care about the states heâs receives anymore, but that doesnât mean that stangers, cas, jack and winchesters arenât still seriously worried for his mental well being..
"dammit Michael, would you just show yourself sometimes? People think I'm crazy"
"you are."
"..."
"crazy about me!" Michael makes finger guns at his human and suddenly Adam regrets teaching him the gesture. He suddenly regrets a lot of things, like all the times he sassed the archangel and achieved nothing but teaching him how to be an annoying and adorable little shit.
"I hate you sometimes."
Castiel is so aesthetic and iconic and cute and I miss him.
âGod, you kiss like youâre getting air for the first time,â Dean gasped, because it was true. Cas kissed slow, and deep, and fucking deliberate in a way that stripped all the callouses from Deanâs soul. It made him feel like he was the only thing in the world that ever matteredâor would ever matter.
Cas unburied himself from the little hollow at Deanâs neck, scruff on his chin sliding up Deanâs cheek as those lithe fingers found their way around like old pros. He lipped Dean again, hands breeding chills as they walked under Deanâs shirt. Â âIf I do, itâs because you make me feel like I can finally breathe,â he whispered back.
Oh, fuck.
Fuck fuck fuckâ
The room was tight and dark, but even if theyâd had the space to back up, they wouldnât have used it. Dean struggled with his belt, and Cas dropped to his knees.
The Laces that Tie Us
New PWP oneshot!Â
Fandom: SPNÂ
Rating: ExplicitÂ
Category: M/MÂ
Pairing:Â Destiel (Royal AU)Â
Tags: Â Prince!Castiel, Valet!Dean, Inappropriate Use of Corsetry, Frottage, Sexual Tension, Royal AU, Finger Sucking, Nibbling, Accidental Biting, Friends to Lovers
Summary: Michael is going to be coronated at short notice and Castiel asks his valet, Dean, for assistance in choosing the right outfit. The only thing is - unlike his brothers Castiel is known for wearing a particularly unique kind of garment: corset vests. These corsets tend to have an effect on the valet; and unfortunately for him, the prince knows all about it and thinks it's just the opportunity to use that knowledge in his favour.
Snippet:
⨠Read it on Ao3 here â¨
Reap & Sow: Chapter One
Finally, the time has come to embark on my new âbig fic!âÂ
A Mafia AU Supernatural fanfic centering around a Dean POV after he returns from his life in the military and finds himself disillusioned with the 'family business'. It follows him as he strives to find the truth behind the city he calls home and the things that make it bleed (other than himself and his partner in crime, Ketch). He faces trials in love, in friendships, and finds himself needing to protect himself as well those he's sworn to defend for the very first time.
When the gritty truths that haunt the Winchester family come to light how will John face the confrontation with his son, and will Dean cope with the savagery that is the underworld of the city he loves.
This Mafia-AU is also universe compliant in many aspects. Monsters, angels, and demons still exist and they all have their place and have their own agendas.
Cover art by the incredible @hitori-alouette form whom I am extremely grateful, with special thanks to @spnisthewayoflifeâ for beta reading this chapter, and a thank you in advance to everyone who joins me. Weâre in for the long haul here peeps, and we burn sloooooow.
 Read on Ao3 HereÂ
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