I'm sober but what does that even mean at all now that it doesn't even matter now
what difference does it make when I already lost her and she might not ever choose me again
I'm not in her heart anymore
truly the price I pay for my stupid FUCKING worthless self
why did the gods answer my prayers to help me be sober when it doesn't matter now!?
WHEN I HAD BEGGED AND PLEADED FOR MANY YEARS TO SET ME FREE FROM IT!?!?!?
WHY DIDN'T YOU JUST OVERDOSE ME THEN!!!?
BECAUSE NOW I DON'T EVEN HAVE THE FUCKING THOUGHT IN MY HEAD TO DO IT OR THE WANT OR ANYTHING TO DO WITH IT!?!?!?
ITS NOT EVEN A FUCKING STRUGGLE WTF!!!!!
I NEVER WANTED HER TO FEEL THAT WAY
I CANT EXPRESS THAT ENOUGH 😭 IM SO SO SO SORRY
THE ONLY REASON IT'S EVEN SO SET IN STONE NOW & I AM FREE OF IT WAS BECAUSE I BELIEVED IT WOULD HELP OUR FUTURE AND EVEN NOW I DON'T WANT IT BUT....
what does it even matter then..
I lost my only true dream even though I fought so hard for it and I still lost it now I damn the path you lay before me
for I will not continue on your path if this is what it costs I would rather be damned so my end will find me sooner
none of my recent accomplishments even matter knowing what I know now
will I really just have nothing but work and money and loneliness........LOL
what a pointless life to look forward too
don't send anymore to try to claim my heart for I will never give it them I will be firm in letting them know not to get attached to me because they will never be my dream come true
for you have forsaken my hopes,prayers and dreams
I will lock away the heart you cared so much to save FOR NOTHING!!!
I will keep my vow I made to you
thank you so much for loving me
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