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kang eunbyul — MIREU ( idol ) — XXIV maknae of element ❝ there may be a great fire in your soul, yet no one ever comes to warm themselves, and passers-by see only a wisp of smoke. ❞

[eunbyulfmd]

⇢ 𝐥𝐲𝐧𝐚

❝ ... ❞

If it seems like she’s prying, that’s because she is. She justifies the steps she takes towards the younger with the worry looming over her head. It’s heavy. And it should be, because something’s clearly not right. However, she does realize that force rarely ever achieves anything positive, and so she decides to soften her previous question with something that might be easier to answer. “What are you doing here at this hour?”

There are only twenty-four hours in a day; three to four of those are spent sleeping ( if she’s lucky ), and every moment in between is spent pushing her body to its limits. Eunbyul has a lot to prove, to the company, to her mother and herself. Because of this she spends more than the required hours in the dance studio, or practicing her vocal exercises or in the gym in order to maintain her weight. 

Of the many critiques she had heard throughout the years, those pointing out her baby fat, and those that called her dancing rigid had really stuck with her — sure, she was good at memorizing the moves, and her dancing was operationally perfect, but it lacked fluidity. And even though she had since been praised for taking those critiques, Eunbyul didn’t want to run the risk of being critiqued for her weight or dancing again. 

In Eunbyul’s mind, practice will make for a perfect performance if she’s practiced enough. She works through a routine time and time again until she can deem her form perfect, and doesn’t stop even when her body is screaming for a break. What does the body know of shame or failure? What does it know of going so far only to meet a wall? Eunbyul can’t stop, not now. 

For herself and her future members, she’ll sacrifice sleep and whatever else is necessary.

She’s stopped for a minute or two, hands on her knees as she fills her lungs with air and then expels it. Sweat is coating her hairline, wisps of hair stick to the nape of her neck, and her feet are tired; all Eunbyul wanted to do was soak in an epsom salt bath, but she wasn’t done yet.

Eunbyul is just about to get into her starting position again when a voice interrupts her fuzzy concentration. “Oh, hi,” she says with a quick bow ( bad idea, since her vision blurs for just a moment ), “I’m alright, thank you.”

It could be the longest pause she’s taking from the day’s activities, and the lethargy is sinking into her bones. The question that follows catches her off guard, the last time she checked her watch it wasn’t that late, but time did seem to fly within the dance studio’s walls, still, she couldn’t leave yet. “I was just practicing.”

[eunbyulfmd]

⇢ 𝐬𝐨𝐣𝐮𝐧𝐠

“If only they realized that overcompensation makes them more unattractive that whatever they were overcompensating for ever could.” She chuckled from behind the rim of her wine glass, shaking her head a little bit as she looked at the younger woman in front of her. They weren’t too far apart in terms of age, just six years, but Sojung had experienced a lot in her career that made her feel so much older. When she looked at Eunbyul, she saw one of the few people that she wanted to protect from being tainted by the industry - if they hadn’t already been. If they had, then she wanted to be a shoulder there for them to lean on when things got to be too rough. She leaned against the arm of the couch, pulling up her legs and tucking them underneath herself. “Anyway, what have you been up to? I hear that Element has a comeback planned soon.” 

"Aish, it’s so hard to tell some men anything though — you can scream and shout and its like they have cotton in their ears or something,” she adds, rolling her eyes jokingly. The conversation between them was light, airy even, and it was almost always like this in Sojung’s company. Eunbyul relished these moments where they were just two women who had lots to gossip about and nothing more. This friendship was relaxing, and there were no airs to put on here. Countless nights have been spent like this, one of Eunbyul’s arms resting on the couch, its respective hand resting on the nape of her neck and her legs folded in front of her. “The usual, you know? Getting ready for the comeback, but I did have a short break where I was able to spend a weekend back in Busan with my family. My eomma is a handful, but it was still nice to see them; and as for the comeback, I’m pretty excited about it. I had a lot of fun with filming, made me feel as if I was in a play again,” it’s so easy to ramble around her eonnie. 

[eunbyulfmd]

( closed for @fmdsooah​ )

She’s taking a deep breath, attempting to blink the fog away and clear her mind. Eunbyul has been in the dance studio for a few hours, going through the same set of dance moves again, and again — and again. Her body’s tired and has been for the past few hours, but she’s been told before that it’s necessary to push through the pain. It feels like she pulled a muscle about an hour in, but the Element member just kept dancing, telling herself that the pain would fade. It’s fine, she’s sure of it, she needed a distraction after all and there was nothing more distracting than pulling a muscle. 

Her mind has been clustered with a f—k ton of scattered thoughts lately, and pushing herself like this is one of the only things that will help. Eunbyul hasn’t really been able to learn about good coping mechanisms, or even the value of voicing her feelings; sometimes she just holds these things in until its too late — then she can do nothing but lie to herself about the severity of her situation. The young woman is fine, she has to be; there’s no reason that she should be moping around about one thing or another when there’s work to be done. 

Dancing until her lungs were screaming was the perfect deflection; she didn’t need to think about the issues she had with her family, or the constant pressure from her mother and her company. In this room it was only the footwork and the music, her feelings be damned.

[eunbyulfmd]

DATE: april 21st EVENT: ❝ dumb litty ❞ MV filming and teaser photo shoot. LOCATION: studio where dumb litty is being filmed — part 2 of 2 WORD COUNT: 1,315+

after they had gotten the last shot of mireu as athena, the filming could begin, and eunbyul was so happy to be able to move around for a bit more before she had to warm a seat for another three hours. 

they had graciously given her a few minutes to listen to dumb litty once and then two more times so she could get a feel of the song again ( as if the speakers in the studio hadn’t been blasting the song, or if they hadn’t been practicing the dance for ours on end before the filming of this video ). 

when she’s done, she hands the headphones to one of the filming assistants and thanks them with a slight bow. 

❝ so, we’re splitting this into two parts, first you’re going to be singing the words, and for the second half we want some action shots: you walking around, waving the sword or in a half-squatting position...do what you feel is right, and we’ll go from there. ❞  ❝ okay, gotcha. ❞  ❝ alright, alright. ACTION!! ❞

the song starts playing on the speakers surrounding them, and eunbyul starts moving around the poles, dragging the fake sword on the ground before she turns and looks straight at the camera, ❝ 에이어! ❞

❝ get up out of my business, you don’t keep me from turning up; 모두 다 여긴 witness, 넌 바른 척하는 criminal. 찔리는 걸 you feel it, 너 네가 뭔데 왜? 솔직하지 못해? 넌 다를 건 대체 뭔데 aye? ❞

the music played for a few seconds more as joosung’s voice boomed through the speakers before the director yelled, ❝ CUT!! ❞ 

❝ okay, mireu that was good. i just want to run through it one more time. this time switch it up a little, i want our editors to have as much as possible to work with. ❞  ❝ will do. ❞

the music started a second time, and eunbyul went through the motions once more. this time she moved around a little more, and played with the sword much more than she had before, setting it on her shoulder and strutting towards the camera. the end of the verse was punctuated with a curt nod towards the camera, ❝ CUT!! ❞ 

❝ wow, really like what you did with that one; now, i wanna move on to the verse that follows and work forward from there. ❞

she nods in the director’s direction, and waits until they find the cue they’re looking for — the last two lines of cj’s verse, if she’s not wrong. 

and as if on cue, she hears his voice fill the room and prepares to go through her own verse. sword in hand, she drops down into a squat and rises slowly as she begins singing, 

❝ stupid dumb dumb dumb dumb, 누가 뭐래도 litty dumb! litty dumb litty, bang the drum!  갈 때까지 baby we go... ❞ 

she keeps moving around the set until the music fades out at the directors request, ❝ good good, now one more time. switch it up for me, alright? ❞ eunbyul nods in affirmation and moves back some, places the sword against her shoulder as she had done before and waits for her cue.

as cj’s voice plays throughout the set again, eunbyul begins walking forward, her facial expressions are the taunting sort. while advancing towards the camera she brings the sword to the front of her and points it towards the camera man. when the director yells ❝ CUT!! ❞ and gives eunbyul some praise, she’s cheesing ( something she has to keep from doing during filming these videos ). she thanks the man and listens to whatever else he has to say, the critiques and appraisals. 

the man has her run through these verses once more before he dismisses her so that she can change and begin filming her other scenes. 

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after going through the same process as before with the new clothes and makeup, eunbyul is being given the same instructions once again, and is given headphones so she can listen to the song a few times. 

this time she does have a few questions though...there’s only so much you can do on a bed. 

❝ director-nim...i know we’re going to do singing-shots and action-shots, but um...how exactly should i be sitting on the bed, ❞ her words grow quiet towards the end of the sentence and she clears her throat before continuing, ❝ i mean like...in a similar fashion to the poses i did for the concept photos or? ❞ she mostly hoped it wasn’t anything all that out there. her mom watched these religiously.  ❝ yeah, something similar to those poses, move around the bed like you did before, and for some action shots we’ll just have you sitting there looking somewhere, and stuff. first thing we really want you to do is walk through the semi-transparent sheets towards the bed. ❞    ❝ okay, thank you...so action-shots first this time? sorry if that’s a dumb question. ❞  ❝ no worries, but yeah. start by walking in from stage left please. ❞ 

once again, she nods in the man’s direction and makes her way behind some of the sheets. 

as they begin playing the music from where they left off — the last verse she had recorded while dressed as athena — eunbyul makes her way towards the bed, pushing one of the sheets to the side as she moves into the light.

she makes her way around the bed and stops in front of it, looking towards the camera as she lowers herself into a squat. 

the director would yell ❝ CUT!! ❞ and ❝ ACTION!! ❞ again and again as eunbyul moved around the set constantly — this time, the filmed much more than they had a few hours ago. she laid on the bed with her hands supporting her weight and one leg folded halfway as the other rested flat against the mattress ( rotating her head as director asked, and gesticulating as he instructed ); she stood in front of the bed and twirled, even grabbed on to the bed frame and sat on her knees above the mattress.

eunbyul had lost count of the takes by the time they finally moved on to her singing shots.

and just the same, they had gone through countless takes with eunbyul in countless positions up and around the mattress.

❝ party yeah we party, we don’t worry ‘bout the drama no — body, everybody 우린 아침까지 wilding up. 신경 쓸건 따로 아 몰라 오늘 다, 집어치워, 터지게 더 올려 volume up up up... ❞ 

when the music started once more, she had mirrored the slow squatting she had done the first time, as she sung, 

❝ 숨이 차올라 내 심장을 죄여  이젠 풀어 나의 사슬, and I wake up... ❞ 

by the third repetition of her final verse, she was tired but having a bit of fun with it. feeling a lot like hera and using this as her drive to push past her wish to run back to her beloved chair and sit there for another three hours ( which she would undoubtedly have to do soon anyhow, and then she’d be regretting it ).

❝ stupid dumb dumb dumb dumb 누가 뭐래도 litty dumb litty dumb litty bang the drum 갈 때까지 baby we go ❞ 

when she had finished the last verse, she was dismissed again, the third outfit change of the day being the next item on her itinerary. 

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you know her makeup artist had been right...taking off the glitter had been a b—h. lots of makeup wipes and makeup removing oil later, eunbyul found herself in the seat for another round ( this one thankfully would not last three hours ).

when they had finished ( early this time because they didn’t need to straighten her hair ) she was given the outfit to wear, which was very punk rock but oh so cute. the top consisted of two parts, a bralette and a sheer crop top, and the bottoms were a really nice pair of black cargo shorts with some hip harnesses. the cherry on top, was the pair of combat boots that were making her tired feet oh so happy. 

as soon as she’s done, eunbyul rushes over to the set where they’ll film the next scene, finding her group mates, ❝ 와우, you guys look amazing! ❞ 

[eunbyulfmd]

DATE: april 21st EVENT: ❝ dumb litty ❞ MV filming and teaser photo shoot. LOCATION: studio where dumb litty is being filmed — pt 1 of 2 WORD COUNT: 1,178+

eunbyul had been sitting in the same seat for about three hours, as two or so stylists worked on her hair and makeup. they had decided on dressing her as athena first — the makeup artist mentioning something about red makeup and how difficult it was to remove ( if they wanted a clean canvas, the red would have to wait ).

so it had given her time to do a google search ( or ten ). whatever she knew about greek gods and goddesses was knowledge she had been given in her early high school years and she needed a refresher. 

those who knew eunbyul knew that she was still that young theatre kid who had auditioned years ago, and was always excited to take these concept photos. the one thing she wanted to do was really emulate these goddesses and hope to tell a story; of course, she didn’t understand the correlation between getting ❛ dumb litty ❜ and greek gods ( and thor...a norse god?? really, eunbyul was still confused about that, because three other google searches confirmed that thor and zeus were like...the same, just worked in different jurisdictions, and everyone else was two different greek entities...but whatever ).

anyhow, she’d looked up athena and found that, ❝ athena, also referred to as athene, is goddess of wisdom, courage, inspiration, civilization, law & justice, strategic warfare, mathematics, strength, strategy, the arts, crafts, and skill, ❞ so first, she’d represent this badass warrior goddess with an intelligence that could rival anyone in mensa. and eunbyul was so into it. 

from what she had seen in the mirror over the past three hours, she thought she looked beautiful. she didn’t look all that much like herself, but beautiful nonetheless.

after a coat of foundation, her eyes had been covered with this shimmery salmon-pink eyeshadow that mirrored the shape of her eyeliner; on her lips she just had a coat of lip gloss, on her cheeks she had the slightest indication of blush, and she was wearing the light-green contacts that had now become a trademark. 

her hair had been thrown into an updo, bleach blonde curls forming a sort of crown ( well, no, the golden leaves they’d added to the hairstyle was supposed to be the crown, but anyhow ), and her bangs were allowed to fall and frame the right side of her face. to match the golden leaves in her hair, they’d added a pair of large golden earrings.

what comes after is the rest of the costume, a mix between a corset and a very very short dress. the dress is is some type of matte leather in sage, and the corset ( that’s a corset by the loosest definition ) is a very light pink, and the front is open save for the four belt-like straps beneath her breasts. all in all, she thinks it’s pretty — hella short — but very pretty. the open-toed strappy heels even match the corset perfectly. 

eunbyul is ushered to the area where they’ll take the pictures and film the first portion of her solo scenes — an open area with lots and lots of poles. 

❝ mireu-ssi, ❞ ❝ yes? ❞ ❝ would you like to do the photoshoot first or have us film? ❞  ❝ ah, photos first, please. ❞

they work for about an hour, eunbyul taking any direction she’s given and bouncing back with a large variety of poses. the young woman has always been like wet clay, malleable, easily molded by gold star company into the idol she is today and representing an image that is both her own and someone else's.

by the end of the shoot, they decide to post the picture where eunbyul is looking straight at the camera, the sword she was holding ( her favorite part of the shoot, honestly ) covering her right eye. but the day isn’t over yet, she’s got the scenes to film, the makeup to remove and then she’d have to repeat the whole process as the queen of the gods.  

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eunbyul is back in the same seat for another three or so hours ( after having wiped her face down with makeup removers and going through a compressed version her skin care routine once more ). this time her hair is down and straightened, parted in the middle. the makeup, like the stylists mentioned, is very red...but eunbyul loves it.

initially, eunbyul hadn’t been sure of how the color red could fit with the greek goddess; as a google search revealed, ❝ hera is the queen of the gods and is the wife and sister of zeus ( gross ) in the olympian pantheon. she is known for being the goddess of marriage & birth. despite being the goddess of marriage, she was known to be jealous and vengeful towards the many lovers and offspring of her husband zeus ( i mean...be angry at zeus himself, lady ). ❞ 

but as she looked at herself in the mirror, the red made sense. with the slightly opaque red of the eyeshadow there was softness, but with the red eyeliner and red glitter that coated her eyelashes there was this intensity ( especially with the green contact lenses ). the way she saw it, this was all of hera’s vengefulness and elegance. not to mention she was such a sucker for bold earrings, and the dangling black gems were a beautiful contrast to the light color of her hair. 

kang eunbyul is not conceited, i promise you. but the stylists and makeup artists do such amazing work, and she just wants to praise that.

after thanking the stylists and makeup artists, she was given her outfit to change into and almost laughed. 

it was a beautiful outfit, really, it’s just that there wasn’t much of it. 

still, it kinda made her feel as if she could run the world. the top was an off-the-shoulder red leather situation ( and eunbyul didn’t know that leather could be ruched like that ); the bottoms ( glorified underwear?? ) were a brighter red and a much tighter leather, with leather garter clips that some stylist helped her attach to the sheer red thigh-high socks. to top it all off they gave her a pair of red sock-boots she wanted to take home...they were just so pretty. 

the scenery for this one was in all black like the last, but instead of metal poles all over the place, the room had one large bed ( larger than her own ) covered entirely in black, and sheer black sheets cascaded from the ceiling. 

❝ okay, mireu...you’re beautiful, sexy and very angry...so, go crazy. ❞ ❝ will do! ❞

same as the last time, eunbyul gave as well as she took, posing in front, behind and on top of the bed for an hour before they felt they had the right picture.

this time, eunbyul was looking away from the camera, right hand set above her chest, her left hand somewhere behind her and holding her weight while her legs were crossed — she bright red colors she adorned were quote the juxtaposition to the black backgrounds. 

❝ mireu, thank you...we’ll film the solo parts for this outfit, and we’ll get you changed for the first set of group scenes. ❞ ❝ okay, thank you so much. ❞

and then she’d be back in that same chair for another three hours. an idol’s work is never done.

[eunbyulfmd]

( closed for @fmdsamsoo​ )

Lo mein doused in soy sauce is a salty and very guilty pleasure; she lost quite a bit of weight as a trainee and was advised to keep said weight off, so she only has take out once every few months. Just the same, she only aired her grievances every so often — and these grievances were usually minor...Eunbyul wont really talk about anything with weight. These deviations from her routine usually went hand in hand, after one phone call to her oppa and a grubhub order with all the things she knew he liked — having two older brothers, it’s no surprise that she wasn’t above bribery. “Oppa,” the blonde begins to say, after picking up some noodles, “you know what sucks? Dancing in a mini skirt,” it’s really a low-level complaint, but what else is new. “It’s like...I’m wearing shorts under the skirt, sure, but then as a female idol, I have to think about people ogling me or judging me, and it’s just not a fun time.”

[eunbyulfmd]

DATE: april 5th EVENT: performance at seoul spring festival after sunset concert ( see event ) LOCATION: green room WORD COUNT: 854

sometimes eunbyul didn’t know who gold star wanted her to be. all at once she was supposed to be this stoic girl crush and sultry firecracker; all at once she was supposed to be the snake and the snake charmer, and this kind of wrecked her socially ( and when you compound that with her virgo rising sign and her ab blood type — for those who believed in that kind of thing, of course — it was a recipe for disaster ). some netizens would call her a snob, even though she came from very humble beginnings, and others thought she was just wishy-washy. she’d learned that she would always be judged like this, it just never made it easier. 

so eunbyul has this thing about her: when she first meets someone she just tries to be agreeable and makes an attempt to match the other person’s mood — it’s been said in fan cafes that because she’s an ab ( there we go again with the blood type ), it’s difficult to know her true colors, but this duality is part of her charm. or so it should be. in quite a lot of situations it becomes her hamartia. 

take green rooms for example — lots of other idols of a multitude of personalities, lots of people whose mood she can try and match. see how confusing that can be? this is really making her sound like the biggest sheep on this planet, but i promise she does have a mind of her own.

it’s just...the last thing she wants to do is make a bad impression; she grew up striving to please her mother and after joining gold star she spent many years striving to please the company. but it’s so f—ing hard to decide who of all these personalities to match and why. it’s hard to know if she should amp up the fire or simply nurture a small flame, and even harder for others to decipher which of these is most true to her, when eunbyul is, in fact, the perfect blend of both. not that she knows it. because of all these factors and more, green rooms are a certifiable nightmare. 

in the end she wont talk much in green rooms; she’s still friendly and respectful to those around the room ( bows to those who are older and smiles at anyone younger ), but she gets in her head and ends up missing out on the conversation — or conversations.

this is one of these moments.

she’s pulled her cellphone out a total of seven times; three of those don’t count because she was using the camera feature and making sure her hair and makeup were okay. the fourth instance was used to check the festival schedule; another was to reply to an sns from her mother; the sixth was when she took the mandated selcas that would be posted to the groups twitter, and the last time she just stared at the screen for five minutes.

is she nervous? maybe. is she socially awkward? probably not...kang eunbyul’s got charisma to spare. that being said, being an idol isn’t easy. and this is exactly what happens when she gets in her head. ❛ eunbyul, please lets go back to our scheduled programming, ❜ she thinks to herself as she takes a deep breath and looks around one more time. 

when she brings this up with her mother, the woman always tells eunbyul that she’s being dramatic. it’s just some slight identity confusion; what matters is that when eunbyul gets on the stage, she moves like wildfire, commanding the stage and keeping all eyes on her.

eunbyul thinks she needs to get over her people-pleasing dilemma, but misuk doesn’t think that people-pleasing is such a bad thing. and she wouldn’t, right? if her daughter hadn’t been so eager to please then eunbyul wouldn’t have debuted under gold star and the woman wouldn’t be able to vicariously live through her. 

there’s a lot to unpack here, obviously, but she’s interrupted from her thoughts before she can go any further. 

they’re due on stage in just a few minutes, and their stylists want to give the group a few touch ups. before she leaves, she adjusts the hem of the flowery dress ( shorter than she’d like it to be, but she’s got shorts under ) and fixed the ( slightly tone-deaf if you ask her ) head band atop her hair. eunbyul bows to the room and wishes them all luck before she’s walking through the door with the rest of element. 

this festival is really big for them, they’re definitely one of the smaller acts but she’s optimistic that the group’s charisma and talent will pay off. 

one of the few things she loves about performing is the clarity that comes with it. 

she’ll forget about all those dumb thoughts in the green room and she’ll set the stage on fire. the young idol is a dragon through and through, and she’s here to make sure that — regardless of all her flaws — this is where she belongs.

[eunbyulfmd]

  ⇢ 𝐬𝐨𝐣𝐮𝐧𝐠

❨ starter // @eunbyulfmd·. ❩

Maybe supplying her hoobaenim with alcohol wasn’t really the most morally sound or correct decision on her part, but Eunbyul was an adult. She was way past the legal drinking age, which meant that she was fair game as a drinking buddy. And on top of that, she knew that it was probably for the best that she drank with her anyway. She knew that the younger girl didn’t exactly have the best tolerance for alcohol, so she had weened her away from bar hopping in exchange for a few glasses of wine in her apartment - a much safer and more private setting, for sure. She hummed as she poured a third glass of wine for the both of them, the alcohol helping loosen up her tongue a bit. “And I just for the life of me can’t understand why those men think that’s flattering?” She laughed at how ridiculous it was. “Do they really think we’ll be happy that they’re trying to take pictures for a low angle? Like we don’t know exactly what they’re trying to do?”

The first time Eunbyul drank was...horrible; she had no inkling of a tolerance, the taste was disastrous, and the hangover that followed...well, Eunbyul could care less about it. She’s come to discover that she’s a lightweight, and while the running joke is that she has much more fun with much less alcohol, she’s also afraid of being that person to make a fool of themselves half a drink later. Sojung-eonnie ( thankfully ) had decided to be Eunbyul’s drinking buddy, and while the blonde didn’t want Sojung to feel like the babysitter in the duo, Eunbyul had convinced herself that this would be mutually beneficial — so far, she hopes it had been. The evenings spent on her eonnie’s couch, have been a calming sort of fun, and Eunbyul’s even becoming accustomed to the taste of wine. She takes a sip of the wine in her glass, and proceeds to laugh at Sojung’s words, “I’m starting to think that some men have convinced themselves that we don’t know,” she says with a shrug, “the ego’s so so big, I think they’re trying to overcompensate, eonnie.” 

[eunbyulfmd]

hey hey everyone!! i’m nie ♥ and i’ll be bringing you kang eunbyul, otherwise known as MIREU of element ( maknae, lead vocal, lead dancer ). below the cut you’ll find a tl’dr about my girl. and here are some links, a really long and extensive profile/stats thingy: ❂, her kpop profile thingy from one of those websites: ❂, her full biography: ❂, and some wanted plots/connections: ❂. can’t wait to get to know all of you lovely people, and plot some amazing things ♥

eunbyul is my busan-born and busan raised baby; daughter of a woman with big dreams, and a humble dad who wanted to give her everything. she’s the youngest in a set of triplets ( two older bros...and even though they’re just a few minutes old, they never let her forget it ). she’s an aries sun, aries moon and virgo rising baby ( also a gemini venus if that means anything to ya’ll )...anyhow...she went to busan high school for arts & dance, and initially auditioned at gold star for acting. but, since she had musical theatre experience, and had provided video in her audition, they asked her if she would like to try her luck as an idol. they wanted her to work with a few of their dance coaches to see if she could prepare something that would give them a sense of who she could be...and the rest...is hallyu history.

a brief stats thingy, if you don’t want to go through the extended one. 

name: kang eunbyul stage name: mireu  age: twenty-four birthplace: nam-gu, busan, south korea birthday & zodiac sign: april 16th, 1996 — aries sexual orientation: bi ( in the closet ) languages spoken ( omg, we’ve got a polyglot here ): korean ( fluent ), english ( fluent ), japanese ( conversational ), mandarin ( conversational ), thai ( conversational )

her life so far... 

♥ she’s the daughter of a woman with big dreams. said woman didn’t get to see these dreams realized and eunbyul became a vehicle for that. ♥ out of the three siblings, she’s the one that gets doted on the most but this came with a set of caveats: all of her time was spent in classes — music, dancing, and when she was old enough, acting. ♥ her mom was sure that she would make her a star. ♥ at 15, her mom decided that it was best for eunbyul to audition for gold star media...it was what she wanted after all ( we love a mother who lives vicariously through her daughter ); eunbyul had many plays and musicals under her belt, and her mother thought it was the perfect time.  ♥ so, during spring break her mom took her to seoul, portfolio in hand and the highest hopes for this audition. ♥ when she’s about to begin her monologue, they stop her. they’ve seen her portfolio and after watching one of her solos in a musical, and think that she would be better off as an idol ♥ they want to see if she’s truly the right fit, so they have her work with some dancing coaches and give her a week to come up with a routine ♥ she works day and night for seven days and when she auditions once more, the excecs decide they’d like her to join the company as a trainee. eunbyul has her doubts but her mother wouldn’t turn down this opportunity. ♥ five years later, she’s releasing a pre-debut single as part of the co-ed idol group, element. ♥ she’s been dubbed the group’s fire ( the fiery maknae by some ), the words a nod to the fire in the young girl’s eyes — the dream that had been her mothers for so long was now revitalized and made eunbyul’s own.

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Element ‘ You In Me ’ — Color Study

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Element - Trust Me ( CJ & MIREU Ver. )

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Element — 밤밤 ( Bomb Bomb )

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