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“So cute of you that you still remember who I am.” Antonin’s voice broke the sunken silence as he sat there, one leg crossed over the other. The effortless boredom he found in stewing, waiting for the call from the Dark Lord. He knew to be patience. To never bother nor badger his lord. That the job set forth would reap the rewards he could never experience from anyone else.
What a crime it was, to remain obsessive, out of control. His poor mother tried to stop that, his father tried to slow him down. But is grandfather awoken the beast, may the Devil rest his soul. “The ball?” he asked, a chiding tone in his voice, mockery mixed with a child-like sense as he sneered. “Pull your head out of your ass, Evan. What would your father say to such stupid innocence?”
If he was his son, Antonin would’ve killed him to make a lesson of him. But children and marriage would’ve never interested him. Love was for those who had nothing better to do, no higher calling to serve. Obsession—certainly another subject. Possession was simple. Something even he knew he could obtain. But the others—it was wasted matter left to the dist.
Hues narrowed, for a moment, before flashing, that demure look that had most within the Auror department trusting the split-personality man. Instead of waiting, he extending a hand, not asking but simply telling Evan to sit down. “You’ve been keenly lax on the things even I expected from you. From who your father is, I thought you’d come so… easy to the cause we’ve set forth,”
“Getting cold feet?”
There was no way he could forget. Like Evan hadn’t spent months going over the faces, the names, starting to fear them. They called themselves his allies, his friends but they felt anything but friendly. Evan was walking on eggshells, he had been ever since his father had introduced him to the cause. Unlike Severus or Lucius he couldn’t find himself blindly following along with ease, effortlessly producing spells or words to cut down those lesser.
His father would be disappointed in him, he knew that before Dolohov pointed it out. His family was waiting for him to jump forward as Bellatrix had, to prove that he was tougher than the rest, more dedicated than the rest. Instead, Evan had held idle, waiting and watching to see what Lucius’ steps were before making his move. Maybe looking for weakness in anyone else among the ranks so that he could follow. But he was running out of time.
“My inexperience must be showing,” Evan admitted, glancing towards the door to the boys dormitory before sitting across from Antonin. Looks like no one would be coming out to save him anytime soon. “I’m not exactly known for my spell casting, and NEWTs have been keeping me busy. All excuses I know, but perhaps if I had a mentor... things could be different.”
It was better than nothing, something to start steering the conversation away from his uncertainties. Maybe if he was lucky, he could even get out of this conversation without being cursed by the older Death Eater.











