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I've said quite a few times that I would try to make a comeback here, and each time I just kinda close out and don't come back. Well rather, I don't post. Sometimes I check up. I want to, I really do, but I must confess that something's happened behind the scenes that's really fucked up my life and prevented me from getting out of this depressed funk. Things got worse. A lot worse.

Since moving out of my apartment, life hit me hard, and life got harder. I fell into a depression that I just couldn't shake, due to losing my belongings. I got my things back after almost a year, but life wasn't about to let up on those punches. My mother in law doesn't like me. She doesn't care much for my health problems, and there have been times where she hasn't helped me get my meds. I've been off of them, and I've been going through severe withdrawals. Without my meds, I end up in so much pain I can't move.

I'm chronically ill with several conditions, some which have no cure. For years, I had SSI and Medicare. That's how I survived. Without it, I can't afford my near dozen medications.

I've lost a lot of weight because I can't get foods that I can eat often. Thus, I've gotten thinner and weaker. This has been a big problem for me for most of my life. Because of my condition, eating and even drinking is hard for me. I'm disabled.

A few weeks ago, the government cancelled my SSI and Medicare. I now no longer have insurance, or any source of income. I can’t get a job, because my health is so poor. Physically and mentally.

This is probably one of the biggest blows I've had to deal with in my life. Things have been hard, and I haven't been stable. My mental condition isn't the best because of the stress. I don't know how I'm going to survive.

On the 21st I'm going home to fight to get my insurance back. This is.... stressful. Beyond stressful. The stress takes a huge toll on my already poor health.

I don't know how this is going to go or what I'm going to do with my life from now on.

I'm sorry for all of the people I stopped talking to. I got distant, and it's my fault, not anyone elses. I can't begin to apologise enough. But I've been fighting for a long time, and I'm tired. I haven't had the energy to function.

I'm not gone forever, but I need some time. I’ll be back, I will. I couldn’t say bye to Eva or all my friends here. But please understand I need some time right now. Thank you.

#[ OOC ]#tbd

#[ OOC ]#its my birthday #i have my things

fini-mun

Commissions for Acidworks! (Overall time for both = 90)

#[ ♛ ; the once and future queen. ] (SELF)#heart eyes #top pic's characters are my other muses heh

big 11 year old on the block today

today is eva’s 11th (irl) birthday! january 21st 2007

i signed in to post this lol i finally got my computer back the other day, but i havent been able to get my desk. once i get that out, ill be back in full 💜 expect me back in the next week hopefully!

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r8diac-moved

happy birthday.

#this is important #[ OOC ]

hey guys. I just wanted to let you all know I’m not dead. I sort of lost muse for awhile, along with some stuff that happened in my life. I’ve been busy, I moved out of the US and to Canada! I currently don’t have my computer, and I don’t know when I’ll get it back. I haven’t had it for about a month and I miss it haha... I don’t have any of my stuff. I’m sort of getting muse back. But I might not do too much until I get my computer back, since it has all of my art and icons. Plus, this laptop just runs like garbage and it’s really hard to do anything on it.

I’ll get to replies and such when I’m doing better. I just wanted to pop by in here and let everyone know. Thank you all for being patient. I’m surprised to see people recently following me! Thank you for that even though I haven’t been here! xD

I also have a new blog! If you want to hit me up there, I now also RP Infinite! Warning, my blog will include Forces spoilers. @illusioninternee

(I also have another blog that I’m currently mostly on, it’s for my Wakfu OC, if anyone wants to follow me there you can IM me lol)

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please give me some time, thank you.

#[ OOC ]#[ tbd ]

theislandkeeper:

“Why are you here bugging me, specifically? What’s wrong with your own Knuckles?” She had realised this wasn’t her zone, hadn’t she? Knuckles could tell she wasn’t a native the second he locked on to her, apart from her appearance there was her stranger energy to consider as well. He frowned.

Knuckles didn’t like this person, her personality and tone were far too close to that of a certain bat who he also detested. Their confidence might be alluring to some, but not him.

“I don’t know you.” There was no familiarity here whatsoever and he couldn’t stress that enough. “And you don’t know me so I’d advise you not to fight me if you want to leave this island in one piece.” That was just a fact.

"I suppose an easy answer is curiosity. And well. He already knows of me. We don't get along." The temptation to start a fight was great -- but she didn't want to put him off completely right away. "I'm not interested in your island, nor am I here to steal your emerald. I'm simply curious about how it works. It's not something I ever got the chance to learn more about." There currently wasn't anyone after her in this zone, she could take the time to explore various things.

Eva had yet to find a zone that differed drastically from her own. Thus, any information she could find out here, would likely apply to her own. But getting this Knuckles to share information would be the first task.

"I did not mean you might know me specifically... rather, you know of my kind? Unless the invasion never happened in this zone. If not, I'm quite surprised. That seemed to have been a constant throughout most zones."

#[ IC ]#theislandkeeper #//late but #i dont think we did establish a zone #i would have remembered that xD;#so this is fine!

maikroftdoom

Gift for @evangelinefate

I hope, you like it :3 http://fav.me/dbk6447

evangelinefate

Ah!! This is such a pleasant surprise! omg your art is incredible! she looks amazing in your art style *w* I’m super super flattered you did this for me... Thank you so so much! I don’t just like it... I *LOVE* it! She’s so small compared...

and that suggestion sounds perfect >:3

#fave #save

"You are a very interesting looking creature." Leif (yo)

“You think I have not heard that before?”

#[ ic ]#ofdiffxrentwxrlds #//Hi!!#of-diffxrent-wxrlds

unsung-heroesofmobius

Continued from (x) @evangelinefate

“A place among the stars, roaming from place to place.” Jerard couldn’t help but reminisce on the life he once had and the friends he once made. It was a completely different way of life compared to life on this rock.

evangelinefate

“How funny. A fellow feeling, then. Though... it did not used to be that way.” For thousands of years her kind traveled the universe. But she yearned for a place to call home again. She missed her kind, her father, her homeworld. “I thought you were just a normal Mobian. Stuck here on this planet. I have never heard any of your kind traversing the stars.”

#[ IC ]#unsung-heroesofmobius #unsungheroesofmobius

fenix-the-echidna:

>_ “Differing views will separate even the most unified of people.” He said matter-of-factually, letting out a frustrated sigh, not so much as irritation to the insult towards the clan but at the thought of being used by said fools, “Idiots or not, I can think of two reasons why they chose to revive me the way they did, to create a warrior that could fight longer or so that Ix could find a way to extend his reign.” He wasn’t sure of the exact reasons behind the ‘revival’ but those were the best guesses he could make on the matter. “However, for a being such as myself, to watch those that I care about wither and die right before my eyes, will most certainly be painful.”

>_ He raised an eyebrow at Evangeline. “I apologise if I am staring, however, like you I do wish not to engage in a fight, if possible.” He said lowering his weapon but only slightly so that he wouldn’t be caught off guard. “There are at least three possibilities that come to mind. The first option is that you are here to harvest the organic life of this planet for the protein, the second possibility, you are here to seek out revenge against Shadow the Hedgehog for the death of Black Doom and those on the Black Comet, Shadow was very thorough about the records on his encounter.” He added, bluffing his way through the last part, unfortunately, G.U.N. records weren’t specific as to whether or not the hive mind was controlled through the use of advanced telepathy or the production of pheromones “The third reason as to why you are here is all of the above.” All three sounded plausible to him and whether or not he hit the nail on the head, was anyone’s guess. “Personally, I think we can come to some sort of compromise, rather than exhaust a planet of all life and leave it barren, why not take planet’s undesirables? As tribute and for future sustainability of both of our people” The echidna offered, the idea sounded detestable and unthinkable to some, but he believed that there were those that couldn’t be redeemed and deserved to removed, additionally there was no sense in eradicating all life and if some sort of accord could be made.

“That is why I believe that individuality is troublesome. If a mind is shared... then there will never been defiance. Total unification, knowledge shared among each other. Truly perfection.” Her eyes focus on him, eyelids raise. Scoffing, she opens her mouth slightly, baring her jagged teeth. “So, you have a purpose. Good for you. I hope you will be able to fulfill it. Those who cannot live up to their reason for living are useless. Far more depressing than watching people you care for die. It would make everything you have done be in vain...” Eva chuckles.

“Fear not then. I will not engage you. I do not fight without reason. People staring at me is not new. But if you attempt anything, I will unleash all my power on you.” Swaying her tail back and forth, she lowers her head, hiding her mouth under her collar. Leaving her arms at her side, her fingers clench. “Do not speak as if you know me or my kind. Only the surface was scratched on information of the Black Arms. - but if I must admit... you are correct. It is both matters. Unlike my father, I will not rush into things... form better plans. And... I will make sure Shadow pays for his treason.” Not usually the type to explain her plans -- though this time her patience was thin. How dare this stranger talk like this to her? As if he had any idea about her kind.

“Compromise? What makes you think that I would reach any agreement with someone like you? To me, you are a nobody... not a challenge. You have no right to talk to me in such a manner.” The temptation to enter his mind was growing. To boom her voice, to poke at his brain. “But to offer such a thing? Interesting. Give me a good reason. Because such a small number would not be good enough for us.”

#[ IC ]#fenix-the-echidna #fenixtheechidna