Why am I the worst at keeping up with this blog? Ugh. We are actually a couple of days away from 21 weeks! We did DNA testing at 12 weeks so we found out pretty early that we are having a... BABY BOY!!! Anddddd he has a name, Josiah Mateo Robinson. Ahhhhh all the heart eyed emojis! Pregnancy has been pretty smooth overall, my first trimester brought about a week of sickness (yuck), indigestion to be exact. Ha. Turns out it is NO joke, I was up vomiting all the time for several days, I lost weight, it was awful, but I was all back to normal after one week. Exhaustion was very depressing, I had no energy to do anything, no cleaning, not even shopping... exactly. Mmhmm. Also for about one week or ten days I got up to pee every hour of the night. It didn't matter if I only had a sip of water before bed, somehow I still needed to pee badly. It was annoying and it made up for a crappy night's sleep. I'm thankful that didn't last too long, I was afraid that was going to be my life for the next several months. Second trimester has so far been great! I've gotten my energy back, I've been constantly feeling our little one move for over two weeks now and it is THE most unbelievable feeling and the most precious gift from the Lord. I can be walking around at work and feel a little kick and just smile biiiiiiiig. He's been moving a whole lot harder the past few days, he's dancing in there as I type this! Lastnight was the first time that Dustin felt him kick when he put his hand on my belly, I can't wait until his kicks are harder enough for Dustin to feel him ALL the time. We go back to the doctor this Friday (4 more days) and we'll get to see our little one for the second time ever! I am ecstatic!!! He should look like an actual baby, unlike the little alien/bean he looked like at 8 weeks. Hehe. That day just so happens to be Dustin's 30th birthday! I can hardly handle it. On Mother's day Dustin surprised me with the nursery room put together. What a man I married. I had been having a few rough days at work, dealing with a LOT of impatience, anger and weird emotions that made work super hard for me. Then I came home the night before Mother's day and the house smelled like fresh paint, the room where the nursery would go (his office until that day) had the lights on and the door closed... okay? I go in there and he had moved his entire office out, painted the whole room, put the crib together, the glider, and a couple of floor lamps, he got me tulips and my first ever mother's day card. I stood there with tears in my eyes as I took it all in and hugged my sweet husband thinking how in a few months there is going to be a BABY in this room! OUR VERY OWN BABY!! This season of life is so strange and new. There are so many different emotions that I have gone through, I was first terrified of being pregnant and thinking about how on earth am I suppose to give birth to this child???? Then It was thankfulness to have had a healthy smooth pregnancy so far, considering what other mamas go through (specifically my brother's gf who is pregnant and a few weeks before me and has been so so so sick since day one, she has had to quit her job and has been in and out of the hospital because her symptoms are so intense. Eeek). I have been experiencing a lot of anger lately, anger with my customers, anger when I drive and let's face it, there are some terrible drivers out there. I even get angry when I clean my house and I want to grab each of our three cats and throw them out the door because I am exhausted from having to clean their intricate hairs from every surface of our house. Ugh. So much anger that makes me want to cry. I have been praying a lot for that, my small group has been praying as well, it's so weird to all of a sudden have these emotions come out and not knowing exactly how to deal with them. Praise the Lord that his mercies renew every morning! I think that about sums up the past 12 weeks. Keep growing little one, and keep kicking mommy ;-)
