Small Blue Thing

Niamh | 17 | tired and creative and generally just sorta trying her best

[cardiostimulator-deactivated201]

[serious]

[evehasnoideas]

watch me eat my own words

[evehasnoideas]

I’m leaving

hey x I’m taking a break from Tumblr

Things are a bit much right now with A Levels, my singing, running the LGBT group, the creative writing club, piano, working, a potential relationship. I want time to be able to do all those things properly. 

I feel like I’m grey. Everything seems kind of disconnected from me and I suppose its just a part of being 17, but I’m not sure. I find small reasons everyday to keep working at myself, now that I’m at the stepping off place. What I mean is that I am on the brink of my life, my real life, the one I get to live freely. Part of me doesn’t feel ready for it, part of me is exited. I’m getting away from the point here though which is that I’m worried I’m losing myself in all the stress that is right now.

So I’m taking a break in the hope it’ll make me feel a little more connected and a little more calm. I want to keep in contact with the friends I’ve made here very, very much and if you’d like to keep in contact with me please message me your email address or a postal address and I will get back to you.

I’ll leave this blog open for now, so you can message if you like 

Thank you so much, I love you all

[anem0nesiac-deactivated20231104]

my aesthetic: left 4 dead 2 graffiti 

[aries324]

My friend from high school got engaged and her photo is amazing

[singsongstardust]

What kind of next level

[earthshakinlove-deactivated2018]

He set the bar too high that’s it I can’t propose anymore I’m gonna be single forever

[onthephonerightnow-deactivated2]

Goals

[misstaylorsaid]

But why the fish and birds come through like its a damn disney movie?

[thatpaidmermaid-deactivated2018]

They knew.

[mercury]

[wholesomemes-archive]

[thecheesyllama]

So whenever my hearing aids run out of battery, a deep-ass man’s voice goes off right next to my ear drum yelling “B A T T E R Y”, and, every time, without fail, giving me a minor heart attack.

And since my hearing aids aren’t synched for when I replace the battery, the left hearing aid will go off one afternoon, and I’ll know that the right one will go off the following night.

Yesterday afternoon, I replaced my left hearing aid battery.

Now it is tomorrow night. Now I sit, and I wait, for that monotone-ass motherfucker in my head to yell “BATTERY” in my ear, again leading to my gradual heart failure. It is only so long before my heart cannot take this repeated occurrence of panic.

I sit.

I wait.

He is coming.

[asspunker-deactivated20140913]

do u ever just love someone so much it overwhelms ur entire heart and thats all u can think about and even seeing a picture of them or something just triggers this rush of emotion and all u can think is like wtf i love u 

[plzstic]

when u have anxiety but ur still spongebob af

[setheverman]

the face gives away no emotion, but the guitar gives away the emotion of a broken heart

[endoshan]

WAKE UP POTTER

WE’RE GOING TO THE ZOO

[catchaglimpseofalleble]

Oh i get it now.

[mukejpg-blog]

OH MY GOD IN FCUKING DYINF

[gond-wanaland]

[just-an-pain]

Can you not?

[catchaglimpseofalleble]

AHG, I fucked this up!

[scottandhiskind]

omfg I’ve seen the high school musical post about 15 times and I’ve never understood why it had so many notes. Now I finally understand

[mydarlingxo]

WHY WOULD YOU NOT REBLOG BOTH PARTS DO YOU KNOW HOW LONG IT TOOK ME TO FIND THIS?!?!?!

[theinturnetexplorer]

Being a nature photographer seems great, maybe I should try…

[hareofhrair-in-a-funny-hat]

[kim-doki]

People I’ve met, they’re not like you. They don’t care. I don’t matter.

[velveetashellsandcheese]

i mean a huge part of lgbt culture is the whole “it’s not a phase” and “i’m not confused" thing but that’s just not really true y'know?

like here’s to the people that have gone through countless labels, and still can’t find one that fits here’s to the people that have declared a label, but then realized that label might not be accurate here’s to the people that have to come out 1,000 times because their identity is constantly changing here’s to the people who are confused, and have gone through phases. you’re real and you’re valid.

i love all of you. you don’t have to have everything figured out to be lgbt

[haleyincarnate]