So this fic is another one of my his POV stories for one of the chapters in game. I previously did ones for Chevalier and Silvio and now this one for Jin's chapter 19 premium story. As a not for anyone new to my page italics are for internal thoughts/flashbacks. Hopefully everyone enjoys this fix and of course spoilers if you haven't played Jin's route or bought the chapter 19 premium story, wc approx 1828.
I've made up my mind, I have to end it for good. It was bad enough I’d let it go on this long but what can I say, she's pretty persistent.
Even as the thought passed through his mind Jin knew it was partly a lie but he still couldn't admit it, couldn't risk becoming…
“And with that thought in mind, I figured… how about we have our final lesson?”
I just have to play this right.
Jin smiled, the smile he had perfected over decades, while grasping the lollipop between his teeth and starting to detach.
“You're my favorite, most adorable student, so the last thing I'm gonna teach you is how to find happiness in the future. Emma, when you've fulfilled your duties as Belle, go home to the place you came from.”
You've got to…my mother never did, and we both know how that ended.
“And then I want you to forget about me, and forget everything that happened here, and I want you to be ridiculously happy.”
You had a good life before being Belle. From what I found out everyone in town adores you, you had Rio and the bookstore owner, a nice place and got to be surrounded by books all day. You can go back to it and pick up where you left off, build a happy future for yourself.
I know you can. After all somebody has to have a happy ending…and you deserve it more than anyone.
“Why did you suddenly decide to tell me this?”
“Because it's almost time for you to choose the next king.”
Jin studied Emma's face, he had been proud she was so perceptive early on but now it just made things harder.
I was hoping you would just let it go.
“You're telling me this because I fell in love with you…aren't you?”
Got it in one, not that I'm surprised. You really have been a good student.
Jin chuckled inwardly but outwardly he made sure to keep his expression flat and empty. He couldn't afford to let even a trace of anything slip.
“I get that you're worried about me, and that you don't want what happened to your mother to happen to me. And I get that you created clause 99 so that no other Belle would ever fall in love and suffer like she did.”
You both deserved so much better than falling in love with a prince. You've still got time to make it right though-
And I'll do whatever I have to do so that you can have the happiness you deserve, even if it means hurting you now.
“It doesn't matter how desperately you yearn for me, you're not the one I want.”
The words tasted sour even amongst the sweetness of the lollipop.
“I don't need things like love cluttering up my life. When I get a craving, it's for physical warmth, so I take a woman for the night. That's all I need. I've lived my whole life that way, and I'm not interested in changing that now. You're feelings are too much for a guy like me. They'd just weigh me down.”
With everything I've done, what I'm about to do.
Jin widened his smile slightly, doing what he did best but he noticed something was off in Emma's face. Sure she looked upset but there was something more than just the hurt, something headstrong & he held his breath without realizing it.
“Okay, then, if I promise you that I'll give up on loving you, and let go of all those feelings– would you take me, here and now?”
Gotta say, I wasn't expecting that. I should have though, you've been pretty good at seeing through me from the start.
“If it's just this once, you'd be fine with that, right?”
Do you have any idea what you're doing to me right now!?
It was all too easy for Jin to imagine it. The look in her eyes, the warmth of her skin, the sound of her voice as he pleasured her, the feel of her…
Dammit, I didn't think you had it in you to take it this far but I can't accept your love and if you still aren't ready to give up on it…I’ll just have to be much crueler than you're trying to be.
Jin crunched the last of the lollipop in his mouth and tossed the stick aside mirroring exactly what he intended to do to Emma's feelings for him.
“So long as you promise it'll be just this once.”
Not that it'll really matter if you don't, not with what I have to do.
Jin moved quickly, catching Emma by the shoulders and backing her into the wall before leaning in. The position wasn't new, he'd done all sorts of things in all sorts of ways with more than willing partners before but despite that he could feel the slightest tremble in his hands. He couldn't back down now so he did what he had to.
“You said you wanted me to take you here and now, right?”
It wasn't Emma who Jin was seeing in front of him now, it was one of the many women whom he'd passed the night with. One whose name he didn't even remember, who'd been more than satisfied playing by his rules. Somebody who if their heart got broken it didn't matter.
“And you know I've always had the hots for you, right? We might as well have some fun.”
I thought things were bad earlier, if this is gonna work you can't say my name like that. I can't give you what you want.
Just then Emma pulled back and gasped.Good, you have to fight this.
“Hmmm, Breathless already? Well, I can understand that. I've had plenty of practice.”
He kissed her again, cutting her off. He had to. It was impossible to hold the illusion when she spoke and he couldn't do this without it. He may have been a charmer, some would say womanizer, but he was never a cad. What he was doing now though, and to Emma of all people…
I know you'll hate me for this but–
Jin moved closer pinning Emma to the wall with his body. She felt so soft and warm beneath him and he could help running his hands lightly down her sides and over her delicate curves.
I have to….you feel so soft and I've wanted to touch you for a long time now–
Just then Emma let out a soft throaty moan and Jin almost lost all control.
Dammit, Emma— I can't, we can't–
“That's just the sort of sound that turns me on.”
“Hmm? Are you sure? I mean, this was your idea.”
I can't accept your love, accepting it would ruin you. I have to reject it, make you reject me.
Jin swallowed the last of his doubt and reached up cupping Emma's breasts through her shirt. He did what he had done so many times before, he knew how to make a woman feel good with just a touch, and Emma was so receptive to his touch.
Emma let out a gasp at his movements and he grinned before leaning in and nuzzling her ear. He was determined to see this through and he stroked her nipples with his thumbs which made her arch into his touch making him chuckle.
If I had to have guessed your most sensitive spot it wouldn't have been these, not that I mind.
“I'm glad to see you're enjoying it.”
“This is exactly like me. This is who I am.”
Those women at the tavern, the informants, the random lady in town. Every woman who's known me as a man knows this is who I am–
Jin's thoughts stopped in their tracks but his heart knew what he wouldn't allow himself to think, every woman except for the one he loved and was destroying…
"Im gonna bring you so much pleasure, and we'll both get to enjoy every second of it. I can't think of any better way to end this, can you?”
And it has to end, it should have never started. I had only wanted to watch over you, make sure you didn't get hurt–
Jin's hands, which had moved back to exploring Emma's body, felt her tense beneath them.Just a little more, one more comment, one more push should end it.
“Oh, you're begging for more already?”
What you want is no good for you Emma, that's your real final lesson.
Jin pressed his knee between her legs pushing them apart then rubbed it against her teasingly.It's almost time.Jin felt empty, more empty then he ever had before; but he made sure to keep smiling he had to, he couldn't risk this lesson not getting through. He was just starting to wonder when he felt the sting and ripple against his cheek accompanied by a loud crack.
“Haha! I had no idea you liked it so rough.”
That one makes your first slap seem like a gentle caress–
“I don't need you to accept my love. I don't even need you to be comfortable with me being in love with you. But don't act like everything we shared–everything we had–means nothing! Don't act like you can just walk away tomorrow like you do with every other woman!"
Looks like I took it too far–
Jin could see the tears forming in her eyes and even though he had wanted to put them there it still hurt to see.
“If this is how it was always going to end…I wish you'd never shown me any kindness in the first place!”
Those words hit Jin harder then any slap. Suddenly he was a small child again, lying completely still pretending to sleep while his mother's sobs and broken words seeped out into the night.
Why….if you were just going to let it end like this….why bother to be kind to me at all!
Jin stood there silent as Emma beat against his chest, all her pent up anger and sadness slowing sleeping out. He hadn't been able to say anything to his mother when he was little, he just didn't understand why she was so sad. Now that he was old enough to understand he still wasn't able to say anything, not out loud anyway…
It's okay Emma, go ahead be angry with me. Hate me even, I deserve it especially putting you through this right before we–
Jin turned his gaze downward, Emma was still beating her fists against his chest but some of the strength had left them.
This is all I can give you Emma, your last gift from your teacher before we say goodbye.
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