Exploring a New Path

College and belief exploration and discovery

[furiousgoldfish]

I’ve seen a lot of arguments about abusers “just not being aware they’re abusing you” but pretty much every case of abuse I’ve heard of had a lot of escape sabotage and prevention of victim getting away, can you explain to me if those abusers didn’t have any clue that they were hurting the victim, why were they so strategically making sure the victim couldn’t easily get away? Why did they all know the victim had a good reason to get away from them, and went out of their way to make victim feel guilty, scared, dependent, threatened or at lack of resources to leave? Why are abusers all so desperate to have the victim believe that everything is victim’s fault? If they believed no harm was done on their part, wouldn’t they hear out the victim and try to help them, as a genuine human being would?

“They didn’t know they were abusing” is a lie. They all know very well what they’re doing. They say it because they want to keep doing it, and evade any and all responsibility for their actions.

[furiousgoldfish]

“well don’t let it traumatize you” well damn why didn’t i remember before that we all have perfect control over our life experience and how it affects us, that must be why we call it trauma, because it’s our personal choice what kind of terror and pain will or wont cause damage to us! honestly if you’re gonna imply in any way that us being traumatized is our fault go and live thru it yourself, go on, I’ll be here, watching how you “don’t let it traumatize you”.

[ever-learningstudent]

I've never asked for the pain it the trauma. But I received it anyway with no choice but you have to accept it to manage life. Telling people that trauma is a choice prevents those affected from healing. In fact, it damages them more by telling they had a choice. And by telling a person they had a choice, you are telling then that they were asking for the pain that can cripple then in everyday life.

[ever-learningstudent]

Taking from the Fair

Today I went to the Metaphysical Fair in my hometown. There was so much energy flowing in the main room. It was definitely an experience. Plus, everyone was super cool. There were people projecting and most were really understanding about that I’m sensitive to different energies.

I went to one of the classes offered today: Meditaiton. We discussed focusing, benfits, experiences, and what meditation isn’t. The class wrapped up with a guided medition session, which was a fantastic experience. 

It was really cool to take a journey as the instructor put it to see what place my mind is and answer some questions. It was also nice to meet my sage and see their form and find the meaning/significnce for me. We were also guided toward a flower that our minds saw. We were given a choice to pick the flower or rather take what we seek or are looking for. I did pick the flower. The flower was a purple carnation with teal/turquoise tips.

Flower meaning:  Purple carnations imply capriciousness (impulsiveness). Turquoise means  refreshing, feminine, calming, sophisticated, energy, wisdom, serenity, wholeness, creativity, emotional balance, good luck, spiritual grounding, friendship, love, joy, tranquility, patience, intuition, and loyalty.

I guess that means I need to just go for what I need or want, not think it through until I miss out on things.

It was a really mind-opening experience. I am looking forward to the next one.

[spookyvibezz]

Fall butternut squash soup

Ingredients

6 tablespoons butter 2 tablespoons butter 1 tablespoon olive oil 1 small onion, chopped 2 medium potatoes, peeled and cubed 1 medium butternut squash (you’ll find out what to do with this in the recipe) 32 oz container of stock or broth Salt and pepper to taste

Herbs and spices Rosemary Thyme Garlic Nutmeg Allspice Herbs de provence

Instructions

1. Preheat oven to 425 degrees Fahrenheit. Cut the bulb off the butternut squash. Cut it in half and scoop out the guts and seeds. Place on a baking sheet and add the six tablespoons of butter to the halfves. Add a little bit of the all spice, nutmeg, or even pumpkin pie spice. Put in the oven and let bake until the squash is soft and pulls away from the skin

2. With the stem of the squash, peel the skin and chop into half inch cubes. Make them smaller for a faster cooking time.

3. In a large pot, add the 2 tablespoons butter and 1 tablespoon olive oil to heat up over medium flame. Add the onions, rosemary, herbs de provence, garlic, and what ever savory herbs you like! Sauté on medium until soft and flavorful.

4. Add the squash and potatoes to the pot and let them sauté for about 3 minites, just enough to get well coated in the yummy onion stuff.

5. Add the stock or broth and raise the heat to high. Let boil until potatoes and squash is soft.

6. Scoop the squash from the bulbs you baked and add it to the soup. Take either an immersion blender or just a normal blender and blend soup to desired consitincy.

7. Serve warm with sour cream or what ever you want on top!

This recipe is perfect for fall. Make it into a spell by carving sigils or runes into the bulbs before you bake them. Make a chant to say whole stirring the soup. You could serve this next Mabon or during Samhain. You should always stir a soup clockwise to bring good into your soup! Since butternut squash is so cheap, this is a hearty recipe for those on a budget.

[marigoldwitch]

Samhain will be here before you know it. Sometimes referred to as “The Witches New Year” it is, not only a time that’s believed to be when the veil between our world and the afterlife is at it’s thinnest, but also a time to reflect on the past year and look to the future.

Let this spread be a guide as you prepare yourself for the cold and dark months ahead. 

Card 1 : Your Past

This card represents all you’ve learned and experience this past year (since last Samhain). Let this be a reminder to you of how far you’ve come.

Card 2 : Your Future Love Life

Will you have one? Is it important? What should you be focusing on in your relationship in the new year? These are all questions that this card can answer for you.

Card 3 :Your Future Work

This card will represent your career for the coming new year. Whether this be to help you figure out any doubts you have about a new career path or promotion, or if how you can better improve your current work ethic / attitude. Let this card help you figure out where you’re trying to head [in your career] in the new year.

Card 4 : Your Present

What are you still dealing with right now? This card will help you better understand where you’re at in this moment so that you’ll better understand how to get to where you want to be.

Card 5 : Your Future Self

Let this card be a guide for your coming new year. Allow it to represent where you need to be in the future, as far as self and self-love goes.

**feel free to print this out and add it to your tarot journal, BoS, Grimoire or whatever sort of notebook system you use**

[reachingstardust]

Calming Spell

You will need the following items for this spell:

A blue candle

A purple candle

A white candle

Put the candles in a triangle. The blue candle should be at the right point. The purple candle should be at the left point. 

The white candle should be at the top point. Light the candles in the order of blue, purple, then white. Chant:

In this time, and in this place, make this a peaceful space.

[ever-learningstudent]

The best weekends are the ones where you calmly watch the sun set.

[ever-learningstudent]

Firsts For Me!!!

I, for the first time, did some cleansing in my room. I put down some black salt along the doorway to block out negativities and the likes. Especially for during move-in week. I’ll sweep up the used salt at the end of the week once everything with move-in week is finished. I also made a little protection bag to place in the window sill.

I can feel some of the negative energy stop at the doorway, so the salt is definetly helping. I have anxiety and other problems that are so rooted that the salt won’t help with them, but it’s working for the day-to-day stuff.

I don’t know with the bag yet. I will hopefully find this out as the days progress. I might make a new one in a month as a refresh. I have to decide that when the time comes.

[ever-learningstudent]

My Life Goals

I have many goals. Some of them I have already achieved by this point in my life, but I have many more to achieve.

Graduate High School

Get License

Own my own car

Have an internship

Earn a 3.0 GPA

Have my own place to live

Pay off all student loans

Go to Harry Potter World

Learn a 2nd language

Run a DnD campaign

Earn a Bachelor’s Degree

Earn a Master’s Degree

Work with a company for 5/10/15 years

Visit an OBGYN

Test for family Med problems in me

Get married

[ever-learningstudent]

Well I meant to keep up with doing a 30 day picture challenge. That obviously has not been kept up. However, that tends to happen when life decides to flip you off. 

I’ll try again at another point. Sorry, it’s my bad.

[ever-learningstudent]

Day 4: Pendulum My pendulum is carved tigers eye. (And picky about subjects) Sorry foebthebpoor quality of the pic.

[ever-learningstudent]

Study Plans

Yes, I am the person in love with school. Not all of my classes, but school itself. In fact, it is 62 days until my classes for the next semester begin. That’s both a lot of time and not.

Goal: Improve my grades by improving how I study.

Book notes before lecture.

Take written notes in lecture.

Re-write lecture notes in a separate binder or notebook.

Check/verify answers on homework problems.

Work through practice tests.

Attend review sessions.

[ever-learningstudent]

Day 3: Crystal Ball.

I don’t have a crystal ball... Therefore, I will use a picture of some of my crystals.

[ever-learningstudent]

Day 2: My name(s) in runes.

Mind you, the spelling is off as I did not use repeated or silent letters.

[ever-learningstudent]

My Take on Sigils

So, I’ve seen in a few places about sigils. I figure there are some people that function similar to the way I do. My activation of my sigils I create is typically a meditation base when I create it.

Currently, my sigils I have created are for personal use, not for use on objects. So I draw mine in sharpie on my arm. Usually I’m in the process of calming down (breathing and visualizing), so I’m meditating as I draw them out. There’s a lot of raw energy going into my personal sigils, so the activation is very different. I see this kind to be meant to stick with you and that’s why I use sharpie on my skin. Some sigils last longer than others (even if I wash them all equally), which leads me to believe that they fade when I have used up that energy and the purpose has been fulfilled.

I have yet to work with object sigils and ones that don’t apply directly to a person yet, so I can’t say my views on those or their activation.

All in all, I see sigils as need based and that they can be activated however works for each person when the time is right. If one sigil is working out, maybe it isn’t the right situation or time for it. Or even to origination (if not your creation) has a different meaning or tone that you thought.

[ever-learningstudent]

Day 1: Selfie with your Soul Card

To find out your Soul Card, use numerology with your birth date.

My Soul Card is The Lovers. This card can be looked at as an emotional and romantic card, but can also be interpreted as choices. This card tells to make balanced choices in all aspects of our lives.

[ever-learningstudent]

Where I am

Currently, I am working on expanding my circle by developing my belief. I want a larger understanding of the Pagan paths I have available to me. I’ve been doing a lot of reading on my choices that I can make.

I am choosing to take the Wiccan path. I am also choosing to look into the Celtic pantheon. There are many more decisions for me to make, but this is my journey thus far. I’ve a lot to still learn, but that’s the point of expanding my circle in that I always have more to learn.

Currently, I am not ready to join any groups. Maybe in the [distant] future I will work with other people, but for now I have no interest in it. While I do think it is nice to be able to talk to people about my beliefs, I am not comfortable with going into a congregation setting.

I hope to move forward in my self-discovery. My belief will be expanded as I grow. So, that’s where I currently am and I’m glad that I have come this far.