Everest

welcome to the everest iceberg hosted by everest aka Evan, this page is my time capsule before I die, it took me a long time to love myself. my whole life, I could never be comfy in pictures and would make ugly faces because I didn't want to see my smile and hate it. When my ex bf (we don't like him) saw the amount of snaps of myself, he said "Wow, you're really obsessed with yourself!" Then I said, "If you were born looking like a beautiful woman wouldn't You want to dress that body up and take pictures? Even though I'm a transman it took me a long time to take a photo and say I loved it. As a matter of fact I want my own website dedicated to all of my photos." This is because I want the way I love myself now to be captured in time. You can see how I love myself so much more over time. Also, in a lot of these photos I'm with people who weren't treating me right. My kryptonite is loving abusive people who put on a front and then have to runaway into the arms of another one. I'm safe now though.

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I feel like the best thing we can do is show support when theres nothing left in any way you can, I wish I had a good camera so I could start making youtube videos again.

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The Anarchist Library

The Anarchist Library

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Backup for me, some links for later

Intro Works:

"Life Without Law," — Strangers in a Tangled Wilderness http://web.archive.org/web/20210801123245/https://tangledwilderness.org/life-without-law/ (Brilliant intro outlying anarchist concepts)

"Are you an Anarchist? The Answer May Suprise You!," — David Graeber https://davidgraeber.org/articles/are-you-an-anarchist-the-answer-maysurprise-you/ / https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-G19LwrJwkw (Demonstrates how people organise and act like anarchists in everyday life)

"Anarchy 101," — Bob Black https://theanarchistlibrary.org/library/bob-black-anarchy-101 (Short, simple FAQ)

"Anarchism: What It Really Stands For" — Emma Goldman https://www.libertarian-labyrinth.org/anarchist-beginnings/emma-goldman-anarchism-what-it-really-stands-for-1911/

"Anarchy," — Errico Malatesta https://theanarchistlibrary.org/library/errico-malatesta-anarchy / https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZIZVbXaE4fY (Longer essay outlying the basics)

"Anarchy Works," — Peter Gelderloos https://theanarchistlibrary.org/library/peter-gelderloos-anarchy-works (Long-form explanation of anarchy and how it has been practiced; adresses questions like "what abouth human nature?" & "What about the power vaccum?")

Classic anarchist texts:

"The Soul of Man Under Socialism," — Oscar Wilde http://libcom.org/library/soul-of-man-under-socialism-oscar-wilde / https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u5Qcr1109UA (The case for anarchic socialism & individualism)

"The Conquest of Bread," — Peter Kropotkin https://libcom.org/library/the-conquest-of-bread-peter-kropotkin / https://librivox.org/conquest-bread-2-by-peter-kropotkin/ (Gives powerful arguments for socialism/communism; gives some suggestions on how an anarchist society might be organised)

"God & the State," — Michael Bakunin https://libcom.org/library/god-and-state-mikhail-bakunin / https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=teUUZ-SEuqs (Bakunin's anarchist critique of religion)

"The Kingdom of God is Within You" — Leo Tolstoy https://theanarchistlibrary.org/library/leo-tolstoy-the-kingdom-of-god-is-within-you / https://librivox.org/the-kingdom-of-god-is-within-you-by-leo-tolstoy/ (A Christian anarchist text advocating non-violent resistance)

"Mutual Aid," — Peter Kropotkin https://theanarchistlibrary.org/library/petr-kropotkin-mutual-aid-a-factor-of-evolution / https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLAWpwCQqndn68ADSHK1vsFUQ93n3hLcv4 (Shows how cooperation drives evolution; excellent refutation of social Darwinism)

"State Socialism & Anarchism: How Far They Agree, and Wherein They Differ," — Benjamin R. Tucker https://archive.is/XF7u

"Marxism, Freedom, & the State," — Michael Bakunin https://www.marxists.org/reference/archive/bakunin/works/mf-state/index.htm (the anarchist critique of the Dictatorship of the Proletariat)

"What is Property?," — Pierre-Joseph Proudhon https://theanarchistlibrary.org/library/pierre-joseph-proudhon-what-is-property-an-inquiry-into-the-principle-of-right-and-of-governmen (Complex work by Proudhon outlining his criticique of Property & government. Best when read alongside Shawn P. Wilbur's notes: https://www.libertarian-labyrinth.org/proudhon-library/notes-on-what-is-property-2019/)

Modern anarchist texts:

"Anarchy vs Archy: No Justified Authority," — Ziq https://raddle.me/wiki/expertise_vs_authority / https://immediatism.com/archives/podcast/102-anarchy-vs-archy-no-justified-authority-or-why-chomsky-is-wrong-by-ziq (Dismantles the notion of "Justified hierarchy")

"Days of War, Nights of Love," — CrimethInc https://cdn.crimethinc.com/assets/books/days-of-war-nights-of-love/days-of-war-nights-of-love_screen_two_page_view.pdf (Ruthless criticism of -archic society)

"The Continuing Appeal of Nationalism," — Fredy Perlman https://theanarchistlibrary.org/library/fredy-perlman-the-continuing-appeal-of-nationalism / https://resonanceaudiodistro.org/2015/06/25/the-continuing-appeal-of-nationalism/

"Fragments of an Anarchist Anthropology — David Graeber https://theanarchistlibrary.org/library/david-graeber-fragments-of-an-anarchist-anthropology

"The Abolition of Work," — Bob Black https://inspiracy.com/black/abolition/abolitionofwork.html (explains what it means when anarchists say we want to abolish work)

"How Nonviolence Protects the State" — Peter Gelderloos https://theanarchistlibrary.org/library/peter-gelderloos-how-nonviolence-protects-the-state / https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLTeHv2rWFci6wlDAQ6OomdZ6WjOMrUXdW (Best critique of pacifism I've come across)

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19 & 22

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As a species why are we feeding our abusers.

Many if not most people wonder about how they came to be, in all of existence. A human? Wild. What did I have to do or how did I develop from the dawn of time to evolutionize into a human being? Is it chance I wasn't born a wolf?

I believe there is a complex structure outside our natural understanding and I find theism, spiritual nomadism and a higher self help me piece together enough of an understanding of how to regulate spiritual emotions or ailness. It helps to look to people who know what their talking about but once you leave the religious sphere there's almost no correlation between one persons spiritual rules and understanding to the next. Maybe life should be that way but I just wish it was easier to find a spiritual teacher that could help me make sense of what I should and could be doing. Outside of trying to be a good person and just make the right decisions.

Ever since I was young I understood most systems where not making a lot of sense. Government, school, police, banks. You learn that its how most people feel after watching the Batman cartoons or Teen Titans. We live in a time where statistically things are about to get way way worse like falling asleep with your foot on the pedal. It's accelerationism. How could our most trusted resources, long-time youtubers that have always been great alternatives to the media, not even getting started on the general news outfits. Why does everyone think its NOT necessary to be getting violent back. The people in our lives, media, in power KILL us off, one by one and sometimes all together in bunches. War, anti-human bans and laws. Painstakingly taking the time to let. Us. Know. That they enjoy doing it and we are too poor and weak to hope.

5 trillionaires are going to be expected in our very near future. If you have kids, they might not be able to afford water or ways to just keep cool by the end of their lives. And birth being extremely hard, and constantly worsening decision. As a species why are we feeding our abusers.

Sometimes I think to myself that my life has been so hard since childhood because I deserve it. Like every traumatic or generally upsetting situation has almost this air about it like I shouldn't be so upset, because this is probably what I did to someone else or not even close. And were all living in this specific Earth as a punishment while better people live on another planet where everything is also random. Some people get born here there, these looks those looks. The difference is just that their is generally less pain and suffering because they worked really hard at always making moral decisions when no one was watching and earned their spot. Not in heaven, but a better Earth. Or maybe decided to come back to our Earth just because its such a hot mess and they want to help. And that explains why good people always seem to die while bad ones live. And on this other earth that's not really a thing. Maybe we need to be taught-

X: Maybe that's just completely suicidal ideations and you should probably stop.

I don't want to make anyone feel worse. I just want people to think of unconventional ways to fix this stupid mess. The best ideas we have are sniping as a generation? Where are the homies at or do we really have to wait for a revolution or war to change the scope of this reality?

There are so many fucking cool things about this world that need discovering but were so busy focusing on land and who's god is a better god when you can LITERALLY GO INTO A DREAM WITH YOUR BEST FRIEND? Like LITERALLY (just don't try to bug anyone who didn't consent. If you do, dont be surprised if the universe or someone's ancestors whoops your azz womp.) And you both wake up and recount the whole thing to each other? Like what the fuck are we doom scrolling for? Things are not as far fetched as they seem and I want to be very carful with my words. This is not being physic and I don't even believe its ESP. I think this is all just obviously science. Of course I'm extremely spiritual too but I am also a HUGE science lover. This isn't mass psychosis either because I've done this with so many people.

My point is that we need to stop being afraid of our own tails when were literally saint brenards. okay peace out.

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Very weird photos but I love it.

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Me before escaping again

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Pastel blue silk dress binded together by various corsets, I also used extra fabric to tie some accents to the bottom and to hold up false straps.

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