certified loser

⋆｡°✩ just a girl ☆ving or whatever ˚✧₊ ‧ pro-recov, but this is a blog about me and my 3d - proceed at your own risk. ♡

[evergreendegenerate]

Hi lovelies, call me Ev ♡ (she/her)

Stats: 🤎🐇

23 y.o.

5'6" / 167.64 cm

waist check-in: 28 in. / 68.6 cm

lbs kg bmi

hw: 164 74.4 26.5 2020-ish

lw: 120 54.4 19.4 2018-19

cw: can't weigh rn :/ 130 maybe?

sw: ~152 ~69 24.5 April '25

gw1: 135 61.2 21.8 09/24/25

gw2: 125 56.7 20.2

gw3: 115 52.2 18.6

UGW: 100 45.4 16.1

‧ ₊˚✧ ₊°✦ let the bad days happen,

but don't pursue them. ⋆｡° ✩ ₊ °✦ ‧

[evergreendegenerate]

I love my deficit being as many cals as my bmr lol

[thatdayindecemberr]

Character maker

Hope you enjoy my picrew :) credit: twitter: https://twitter.com/hunblooms instagram: https://instagram.com/hunbloom?utm_medium=copy_li

Forever obsessed with this one <3

Open tags <3

[cyb3rneticbun]

Join if you'd like!!

[evergreendegenerate]

So cute! ✨

[evergreendegenerate]

I can't even tell whether I'm failing at eating normally or failing at eating nothing...

Like idek if I want to be sick or healthy anymore, I just know I'm unhappy and failing at something.

[karla-doo]

[evergreendegenerate]

guys idk how to feel about sombr at all but this song hits so hard it's crazy

[evergreendegenerate]

I'm so tired of my mother throwing up her hands and declaring she's incapable of doing anything

"I'm so stressed out!" BITCH ME TOO!!

[katpixii]

I desperately need to look like this in jeans

[dirtandb0nes]

[evergreendegenerate]

Maybe I'm scared to let myself love him because if he turns out like everyone else it'll crush me :/

[deadpoetdreaming]

🫧Mealspo🫧

[evergreendegenerate]

I think when I get back down to 125 again I'll finally get some roller skates :)

I've wanted a pair for yearsssss

[evergreendegenerate]

I feel alone when I'm with him and I hate it...

[evergreendegenerate]

I love traveling but I can't wait till I'm home and can get back to my own routine :/

[evergreendegenerate]

I can't believe I gained all that weight back right before summer...

I feel like it doesn't even matter if I ⭐️ve, I'll never be thin, not really. I'm meant to be this way and I hate it. I can't even look at myself unless I'm hungry.

[ani-wants-to-be-skini]

Tiempos desesperedados requieren medidas desesperadas, aqui vamos

[evergreendegenerate]

Rant-ish:

I don't know exactly what changed, but I was only 5 away from my LW in Feburary and now I'm 20 away... Now it's like I care more about covering everything up than getting what I wanted. Part of me blames my boyfriend, too, cause we started talking around then and I do e@t more when I'm with him since he knows and I don't want to make things weird...

I just need to stop and re-evaluate... this relationship isn't worth hating what I see in the mirror everyday. People figuring out that I don't e@t isn't worth that either. I don't care how obvious it gets anymore—I'm an adult, I can do what I want, including ⭐️ve. If I want to feel pretty again I need to be committed. I need to exercise regularly again and stop fucking b1ng1ng. I can do it—I've done it before, time and time again. This time it'll stick. I'm in my twenties now, it has to...