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@evergreendegenerate
Hi lovelies, call me Ev ♡ (she/her)
Stats: 🤎🐇
23 y.o.
5'6" / 167.64 cm
waist check-in: 28 in. / 68.6 cm
lbs kg bmi
hw: 164 74.4 26.5 2020-ish
lw: 120 54.4 19.4 2018-19
cw: 135
sw: ~152 ~69 24.5 April '25
gw1: 135 61.2 21.8 09/24/25
gw2: 125 56.7 20.2
gw3: 115 52.2 18.6
UGW: 100 45.4 16.1 ?
‧ ₊˚✧ ₊°✦ let the bad days happen,
but don't pursue them. ⋆｡° ✩ ₊ °✦ ‧
I can't even ⭐️ve myself correctly.
I'm so stupid.
I fucking love this walking pad actually.
I want 110 this year and I will have it. No more caving. I'm done.
I'm slowly working back up to 140 rn and this is me holding myself accountable—I've been making excuses for long enough and if I don't change I'll officially be falling back into old habits. I can't let my past self down, not again... she put in too much work to throw it all away...
How I feel past 48 hours on the fast
Anyone else feel like having less food in the house makes you binge worse? Like knowing I don't have anything to snack on makes my brain think I need to eat everything we do have (like my roommates food...I'm always replacing her shit and it's EMBARRASSING...)
Can't believe I was at 124 and let it all go... scared to weigh-in after finals but I need to know...
I also plan on a two day fast in celebration cause this quarter has been so fucked it's unreal, my poor pretty body has taken the brunt of it all 😭
Wieiad: (Vegetarian)
Trying to get back on track...
Breakfast:
- black coffee (0 kcal)
- oatmeal w/ chia seeds, protein powder, and berries (262 kcal)
Lunch:
- salad w/ raspberry vinaigrette + some seeds and dried cranberries (122 kcal)
- 1 hard boiled egg (77.5 kcal)
Dinner:
- veggie broth, konjac noodles, veg, and 3 veggie dumplings (214 kcal)
- Coke Zero vanilla (0 kcal)
Snacks:
- 1 apple (94.6 kcal)
- grande matcha latte w/ almond milk + SF vanilla (~109.6 kcal)
Total: 900 kcal, ~40g protein
avoided binging again which is good, but 900 feels like way too much... though yesterday I was able to stay at 793 and I felt the same way :/
words cant explain how unfeminine and dirty i feel with a full stomach
I'm supposed to be 100 this month and instead I'm working back up to 130 - literally what is my fucking goal here???
And I'm slacking on my studies so bad... :/
I haven't cried in a long time and I really wish I could right now.
Paused for a cigarette mid b1ng3, someone come fucking off me while I'm lucid pls thx
every time you think about food, you’re making a choice: be the master of your body or its slave. are you really the kind of person who breaks at the sight of a piece of sugar? zeriously? is that your limit? ur “craving” is fleeting but the shame of being spineless will stick to you all through tomorrow. when you reach for that extra bite you’re literally signing a confession of ur own worthlessness. you’re admitting that a split-second of taste is more important than your reflection, your discipline and ur selfrespect, fat is just the physical manifestation of your excuses. wanna keep carrying that “loser baggage” around? go ahead, eat! but don’t you dare call yourself strong, strong ppl say “no” to their animal instincts. either you get a grip right now or you wake up tomorrow with that same self-loathing that’s been haunting you for years. it’s a moment of weakness versus an iron will
which one wins today?
High rn and fear I needed to hear this badddd :/
He's genuinely sweet and doting, but his ex was - in his words - an "undiagnosed anorexic" and yet he hasn't said shit to me about not eating or lowkey binging. Maybe I'm just not as obvious as I thought, which is good but feels horrible. Maybe I'm not thin enough yet. Or maybe he doesn't care enough to notice.
We aren't dating but I know he wants to be. I don't know if I can date someone who doesn't even see the signs after being with someone who dealt with the same shit. I don't want him to know or stop me from what I'm doing, but I also don't want to be with someone who compliments being able to see my ribs. I like it, but he shouldn't - should he? He comments on how skinny I am and how I "eat like a bird" but isn't concerned about me skipping meals when I'm with him?
Am I being unfair here?
on another note; something fun I've been doing in preparation for FWB coming over this weekend is doing all the dishes and taking out the trash and not allowing myself to create anything "dirty" — no dirty dishes, no wrappers/containers to throw away... no food! :)
