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#thinking about it #i let him go so i deserve to suffer #i betrayed him and i should be punished for it #he deserved so much better than me

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#it's my first night without him and i've had to go home to my parents because i can't bear to be alone #i keep thinking i can't possibly cry anymore #but it just keeps coming #i'm so exhausted #i just miss him so much #death mention #death tw

tw: animal death

I am trying so hard to be a grown up about having to let teddy go in two days time but really I want to sob and scream and just give up entirely because he is my best friend who's kept me alive these past six years through everything and I don't know how I'm supposed to cope with life without him. he has saved my life so many times and I feel like such a horrible abject failure because, this time, I know I can't save his. but then there's still this stupid selfish part of me that wishes he could stay with me so I can still cuddle him and take care of him and make him feel safe and loved even though I know he's in pain and there's nothing I can do to make him better. I hate that I keep arguing with myself about keeping him with me when I know he can't carry on like this. every time he still falls asleep with his head on my feet, or bonks me with his nose for attention, or gets excited for food and treats, my resolve just disappears and I just want to hold onto him for dear life. but I know I can't. I know I have to let him go and that knowledge is so unbearable that I just don't know how I'm supposed to cope anymore.

#i cant be on here but i needed to put this somewhere #im so broken #i just wish i could sleep #animal death #animal death tw

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#this is so stupid i'm still awake and now i've seen that seoham is cast in hwang da seul's next drama and i don't think i will ever #be able to sleep again #seoham sweetie i'm so proud of you #hwang da seul i will KISs you on the mouth

beverlycrushr

North & South (2004) dir. Brian Percival

#mentally i am here #north and south #queued

creepyyeha

Creepyyeha <3

#i need a sheer robe and a palace to wear it in #creepyyeha #yeha leung #queued

griezelig

Sleeper agents be like time for my next mission

#oh mh god that boy is so sleeby #bun bun #queued

whitepeopletwitter

I already do that

#if i'm sending you memes then i've run out of things to talk about but i still really want to be your friend #maybe this is why i don't have friends lol #queued

bwbeautyqueens

FKA Twigs photographed for Wonderland Magazine

#fka twigs #queued

bebemoon

dilara findikoglu rtw autumn 2o2o, paper dolls .

#dilara findikoglu #queued

rox-and-prose

One of my least favorite mental illness things is "hungry but dont feel like eating" and its companions "hungry but all the food in the house is Illegal," "hungry but can't make anything," and "hungry, want to eat, but why bother"