So working at Red Rose Tavern..
Doubt anyone will read this I just need to let my feelings out or I will probably explode.
I quit my job yesterday. A job I both loved and hated with all of my heart.
People straight up suck. In the course of my time there, 1 year 7months, I’ve had like 4 “best friends” and a bunch of different groups of friends like it changes every month. I have a lead that if you don’t talk to them or are super friendly to them specifically, they’ll give you the shitty jobs to do and even if there’s no work they won’t let you go home until they say you’re done. I have a lead who’ll get high every shift and then have you pick up the slack. I have a lead that will add so much extra work you’ll be doing today’s work + tomorrow’s work and will leave you to close alone because they’re too busy making sure tomorrow’s people have an easy day. I have a lead that thinks emotionally not professionally and has their favorite people moved to work by them while those they aren’t fond of are kind of left on their own. That lead sent everyone on my side home early knowing there was no closer and I’d be alone the whole time and when it came to break time I told them I needed my break and waited but nothing. Had to find someone and pull them from somewhere else to give myself my break. They were also annoyed when I asked for them to find me someone to take over for my lunch. like what?? I went through all of that, everyone yelling at me left and right what they needed and I had to keep up all night by myself when there’s normally up to 3 people there but.. the person who closed tonight (with 2 helpers might I add) got all this praise? There’s people who will sleep with their coworkers and when they don’t want a relationship, will go around bad mouthing them and saying they should get tested for STDs. Like u serious? There’s people who will block others from advancing simply because they personally don’t like them. There’s people who will belittle you SO HARD and make you feel like shit if you need help. I fucking love what i do man. I learned every recipe, I spent my time practicing and figuring out a better and faster way to do things. But I can’t have one without the other. And that sucks so much because all I really wanted was to work there. Literally thought about it and dreamed of it for a while and a big part of me is killing me because I feel like I just gave up and let it all get to me. But I honestly don’t know how much more I could take. I have flare ups with my mental health every once in a while and I recover when I can but since I started this job.. at this point I have a flare up every other day that I don’t recover from because it’s the same shit the next day. I’m really going to miss some people. There was one lead, always understood mental health, always made you feel appreciated and like you were actually wanted there. Gonna miss her and a lot of the people that I have met there. Especially the good memories. Just wish they were enough to drown out the bad ones in the end. Sucks that they weren’t.
