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i honestly don't know this is like a mental blog um i yeah i don't even know who i am anymore

[everything-suckswow]

i love making sims of me and the other people in the system like man thats cool

[everything-suckswow]

im thinking really really bad tjpughts but its cool

[everything-suckswow]

we have returned after 20 billion years.

alright so an update on whats happening rn:

our therapist wants to like start trying to figure out why we actually split so we could like integrate or something but that kinda seems scary cause like i kinda don’t really wanna know. Also it would involve concentrating and i am not good at concentrating

and that’s what you missed on glee

[necrophiie]

Icy

Featuring singles like:

Would you like to build a man out of snow with me?

For the first time in a long time.

Love is a slightly ajar door

And last but not least……

Let go of it

[everything-suckswow]

not related to anything on this blog but I reblogged this on EVERY account I have laugh pls even if it’s a pitty laugh

[fairypsychicarchive]

Ok so I rly fucking need to clean my house. Do any other People With Depression™ have any tips or ways you motivate urself to clean? Because this feels like the hardest goddamn thing in the world even tho I know it’s not and I’m just continually frustrated with myself and have been for the past two weeks.

[mossman-making-stars]

HOO BOY DO I HAVE DEPRESSION/EXECUTIVE DYSFUNCTION CLEANING TIPS

in no particular order (because I have depression and executive dysfunction):

1. If something sensory about cleaning bothers you, eliminate that before you start. For example, I wear gloves to do the dishes. If the sound of the vacuum bothers you, wear headphones and turn up the music. etc.

2. If you can, make a list of everything that needs to be done. Then acknowledge that you probably can’t do it all, and circle all the things that absolutely, no matter what, have to be done. Pick one (ONE! ONLY ONE! START WITH ONE!) of those things and break it down into smaller steps. Then even smaller steps. Seriously, if step one is “stand up” and step two is “walk to closet” and step 3 is “get mop”, that’s fine. It can be that small.

3. Take a break. “But I literally only started five minutes ago!” Don’t care. If you want a break, take a break. “At this point I’ve spent more time on breaks than I’ve spent on cleaning.” Ok, but you’ve spent more than zero time on cleaning, so you’ve accomplished more than you had at the beginning. “If I take a break it won’t get done!” If you burn out it won’t get done either. Take a break.

4. If nothing is working, try what I call bin cleaning/box cleaning. Take a big trash bag and a box. Pick up the first object you see. Step 1: Is it trash? Put it in the trash bag. Step 2: Will you use it in the next 2 days? No? Put it in the box. It’s a problem for Future You. If you’ll use it in the next 2 days, take time to put it away. Rinse and repeat.

5. Did you get distracted and forget what you were doing? Don’t worry about it. Just clean a thing. It doesn’t matter if it’s the thing you were cleaning before. You have to clean lots of things, so just pick a thing and clean it. Eventually you’ll get around to the thing you forgot.

6. If you have to do a thing you really hate, do a thing you like afterwards. I hate doing dishes, but folding laundry soothes me, so that’s a nice one to do afterwards. YMMV. If there are no cleaning things you like that you can do afterwards, see number 3.

7. Make it fun. Play loud music and dance while you’re cleaning. Wear something that makes you feel cute, or if you prefer, something comfy. Light your favorite candle. Whatever.

8. If it’s nice out, open a window. Seriously, it helps.

[fairypsychicarchive]

This is seriously so helpful, thank you.

[everything-suckswow]

I really hate that if I tried to make friends my own age it wouldn't work out bc our body is like 14 and people would think im 14 but im almost 18 and it sucks. I just want to talk to people my own age and get to do things but nooooo I've gotta wait till this kid is my age for anyone to take me seriously

[everything-suckswow]

I only have 1 or 2 friends outside the system and I want friends

[everything-suckswow]

We made bracelets for (almost) everyone and to make it easier for our friends to know who's out and i love them. I loved my dinosaur too but i lost him :(

[everything-suckswow]

So like I feel like someone is trying to fuck things up ( just things in general idk) and idk why or who but I'm kinda scared about it but I'm probably just being paranoid

[everything-suckswow]

can you please tag self harm, especially since you're putting that shit in the tags?

Sorry I forget. will do

[everything-suckswow]

Allssooo Lace is gonna be mad and sad when he gets back because someone (most likely unknown) cut and he really liked wearing short sleeves

[everything-suckswow]

A little update on us

We finally found out what ???'s name is, it's Lee. They cry slightly less and we can see them now. In our world they share a room with twist and look about 8 or o but act much younger (like 5 or 6) Now that we helped Lee we're trying to work on Unknown

[everything-suckswow]

There's a test today and I am literally begging (besides Twist or Silence) to front or at least cofront for the test but nobody is talking back to me so idk if they're listening and I'm just like dead now

[everything-suckswow]

Me: *talks to Lace's girlfriend*

Me: time to steal your bitch hoe B)

[sixpenceeeblog]

The Disappearance of Ashley Morgan

by reddit user The_Dalek_Emperor

Trigger Warning: sexual violence, child death

@sixpenceee here but I’m posting this from my personal blog, @sixpencee(with 2 E’s). I wanted to repost some of favorite content from sixpenceee onto my personal blog!

It’s funny what you remember as a kid. I don’t remember my 5th birthday or my first day of school. But I remember very clearly the day my dog died. It’s been 12 years now, and it’s still the most vivid memory of my childhood.

Keep reading

[dissociativediary]

MAJOR TW for csa/incest/death. none the less if you can handle it, you should read. Brought me some closure a little.

[everything-suckswow]

I want someone else to front cause I'm freaking out and may or may may not be in the middle of a psychotic episode

[dansphalluspalace]

I recently became inspired to write this tip list. TW: Abuse

If you are living with an abusive person (be it a spouse, sibling, cousin, roommate, or partner, and whether it is physical or verbal or whatever), here’s some tips.

1. If the person demands you isolate yourself by deleting things like facebook, tumblr, etc, here’s a tip: Do it, and let them watch you delete it. Then, make a new one and download ccleaner.com. It looks like a regular spyware/adware/registry cleaner remover, and one helpful aspect is it deletes history permanently and basically makes it easier to cover your tracks.

2. This is something a relative of mine did; when they are gone, take out one of the base moldings of the wall. She took the whole thing out so the line from a cut wouldn’t be seen. She cut a low notch/alcove. She hid money, extra things like snacks, and other stuff in there. Eventually, she saved up money to get away. She would use wood glue to put it back to the wall and would pry it off again to fill it in with a shoehorn. Even if you don’t get away, this can be your cubby hole for resources.

3. That same relative hid a prepaid cellphone with contacts in it to make infrequent calls and kept the phone off when hidden away.

4. I am not complete in compiling the survival guide stuff, but here is a copy of First Aid for Everyone in case you cannot go to the hospital for any reason.

REBLOG WIDELY and feel free to share and add on pieces of advice, please.

[salt-water-chardonnay-blog-blog]

Safari’s private browsing mode is very easy to turn on and off quickly. Just check or uncheck it in the “Safari” menu. When it’s on, it won’t save your history or any other information.

[missgingerlee]

Adding…if you think they’ve put a gps on your vehicle to keep tabs on you, most police departments (and some domestic violence units) will help you check. 

Wasp spray. Yes, wasp spray. If things go downhill fast, & you have to get away from a person/have something to protect yourself that looks like just another random household product, wasp spray can help you. It sprays 20+ feet, & it will temporarily blind a person if you aim at the eyes. 

As horrible as it may sound…wear the right shoes as much as you can. Running in heels is hard, & at a certain point function comes over fashion. 

Document, document, document. Have that info somewhere either than your home/computer. Even if it’s an anonymous email account on gmail to yourself. If your computer/camera/phone are destroyed, you don’t want to lose all that info. Thumb drives are your friend, & they can be hidden in all kinds of places. DO NOT KEEP IT ON YOU. 

Screencap things like they’re going out of style. If you’re being sent texts, tweets, etc., you want to be able to show them in case your abuser decides to go back and delete things at some point. 

If they have access to your banking information, whether it be by seeing/finding paper statements or having access to your online banking info or having a joint account, your movements around your town/where you are traveling to can be tracked. If you can use cash for things, do it. 

Know alternate routes to get to/from home from places you frequent, as well as police departments, etc. Sometimes losing somebody following you on the road comes down to you knowing more ways out than they do.  

Gaslighting is real. It can make you begin to feel like you are going crazy, because your entire reality can be used as a way to control & frighten you. You know you. Trust yourself. 

[bebinn]

Here are some ways to protect your internet activity

Hide an extra set of car keys.

Along with the practical shoes tip, try not to wear many necklaces or scarves - they can be used to choke.

Keep the car backed into the driveway, with all doors locked except for the driver’s side, and with a full tank of gas.

Arrange a code word or signal for neighbors and family if you are in trouble and need them to call the police or get help in some other way.

Identify safe rooms, where there are no weapons and ways to escape. If an argument occurs, try to move to that area.

For people in domestic abuse situations and victims of stalking, keep a small bag packed in a safe place with:

Money and bank info

Medications

Birth certificates and passports

Social Security #s

Extra keys for neighbors

Kids’ items

Important numbers: law enforcement, friends and family, attorneys/prosecutors, medical care, child care, pet car, creditors

If possible, a change of clothing

This website has more suggestions for safety strategies and steps to take when leaving.

For more support, call the National Domestic Violence Hotline at 1-800-799-7233 or 1-800-787-3224 (TTY).

[fromonesurvivortoanother]

Although GPS was mentioned, there are a few other ways someone can track you:

All iOS devices (ipad, iPod Touch, iPhone) after 2nd generation can have the Find My iPhone app installed, and then someone with access to the iTunes account connected to that device can track it. There’s also a similar app for Macbooks now.

A lot of other smartphones have similar features.

Even if you have Find My iPhone turned off, some apps (such as facebook or instagram) have location tracking whenever you make an update or post…check your settings app to turn off that stuff.

Feature phones with GPS functions or software can be tracked also.

Some car anti-theft services have tracking that can be used, especially if the abuser is the owner of the car.

One other thing:

If it’s an emergency and you have no way to call for help, get to a public school, fire station, public library, or similar building, and try to open the locked doors. Most of these places (especially in larger towns and cities) have automatic security systems which will call the police to go and check on them.