Brendan Blogs

Personal blog. Will Update this from time to time depending on Mood.

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I married my bestfriend. We aren't perfect. We have our flaws. We don't make the best photos. We don't try to be the couple of the year everyone envies. We fight. We cry. We some times lose ourselves along the way.

And you know what? I'd still to choose to be beside her. We'd still choose to be together doing whatever, talking about what food to eat, gossiping about the people we hate, making crazy eyes at opposite ends of the table, sipping drinks that I'd finish in 6-8 sips and her taking forever to finish hers.

If I told my 20 year old me that love and marriage is about the little things, the compromise and daily lives you both spent I bet he wouldn't believe me. I know I've changed a lot ever since we we met and spent more than 3 years together. And I still fall in love with the small details and acts she does everyday. My best friend and now wife, how lucky am I to have you in this lifetime?

I love you, G. 🌹

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After Scarecrow, nagtakam ule ako magdraw. This time I wanted something that has life pero with the same drawing style. Birds that we are used to see kahit saan.

Sparrow, 2021.

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Don't know why. Pero nasa school kami ni Grace ng naimagine ko sya, di na sya naalis sa isip ko and I had to draw him.

Cartoon like. Pero with the the creepiness and details Of a comic book.

Used ball point pen and Fine point marker for the shades.

Scarecrow, 2021.

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Late 2021 Update

So few late 2021 plot twists,

I got offered a job for a school me and Grace’s family teach in. Not as a full time teacher but as a building supervisor job. Sounds promising different environment and opportunity. Looking forward to seeing more of that. Salary almost the same, but since next year mukhang may face to face na sa QC office. Working at the school is really a better fit and better learning experience. 

Found a new game I will try to learn and enjoy playing. Apex Legends. Medyo balik loob sa Dota 2 - looking again for that competitive edge, medyo napagod sa Valorant.

I have had urges to draw again since the day I came with G to her school. There was a clear image in my mind of what I wanted to draw pero walang medium and instruments that time. Remembered na may blank journal kaming binili ayun took out my urging hand and drew will post some of the drawings here. 

We can’t decide between getting a house (problem is where?), or getting a car (problem is what?). Good problems are coming our way this 2022, can’t wait and hopefully more happiness. 

Wedding plans are slowly being built and almost ready. Some pips are more excited than we are. Even if some of our vision or plans for the wedding change. All that matters is matuloy and we celebrate it we the people who matter to us.

2021 more blessings before you leave please? 

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This keeps me up at night. If only my future self warned me na mababa sahod sa pagiging architect. Lalo na kung dika privileged at di kayang magstart ng sariling company at walang connection. Maswerte na may mabulsang 100 per sahod 🤣🤣🤣🤣 dapat nag seaman or business industry nalang ako may laban pa siguro. I don't even know if I'm good at what I do. Kaya ren siguro diko mareach yung highs na gusto ko Career crisis shizzZ. Late na ata para magshift hahaha.

But looking at the bright side I have fulfilled my responsibilities and wala akong atraso or napapabayaan. Nakakatulong ako sa family ko and nakakatulong sa bills sa bahay. Adulting 101. This calms me up when marami akong iniisip. At the end of all this, being appreciative of my blessings and being contented is what I should always remember. I have a job at home where I can control my own time. I have a gaming hobby that I am indulged in and want to get good at. I have the most loving wife that I know always has my back. Grind lang, Dang. You'll reach more heights. Be patient.

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Gaming calms me. Gaming is my escape from the things I worry about, the things that make me anxious. Keeps your mind off of things and focus on what's in front of you. Happy to have a wife that supports me in playing. But therr are still times that my anxieties and worries still follow and shrouds up all the life inside me.

Anyways, just invested in a new NFT crypto game. Not putting my expectations too high. But hoping that this can help me and Grace earn more which can help us in our savings. Things will soon be looking up. In due time.

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There will be times that you wish you had a bit more money than you have now, like reaching out your pocket or your wallet and actually seeing it feels golden already. Not saying money is an issue. Just saying that maybe life can spare just a few extra bucks for the things I want to have and the things I want to try. But still at the end of the day, I remind myself to always be grateful for what I have and deserve everything I have now. That's the most important part. Every life is unique and I am luckier than almost half the population in terms of living. Just have to stay grounded and wake yourself up from reality. All my wants are just materialism, and not things I need.

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Thoughts for today:

Had fun building PCs, tinkering and creating system units today. These are one of the few things I feel passionate doing that never feels like work. I hope to someday have a business-shop-garage-workshop space that I can also earn in. I enjoy inserting pieces together and solving puzzles and problems that come with each piece. Feels alot like adult lego.

Hope that my Pc Building enthusiasm doesn't go away. Hope to build PCs again every now and then. For me, for Grace, or for our future kids or anyone else who needs help. Wishing that my future will be more kinder and better PC-wise. Hope thay I may still be able to play. Hoping that I can still upgrade someday. Looking at what I had before and what I have now I am forever grateful at the journey I am undertaking.

Thank you again to my heaven sent wife for supporting me. I will someday repay you and hope that someday be the one buying and building your own PC for you.

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New post in a while. For the next posts. I will be sharing some of my recent thoughts, new dreams, random possible wishes and things I need to improve on and be better in. Let the words I put on this blog serve as a reminder that I need to strive to make all of my aspirations a reality. Constantly reminding myself that there's no such thing as a life that's gonna be better than mine. And that I am not alone in this fight with life. Got a strong, loving wife that supports me and 2 families that will back me up. I am blessed and I should be thankful.

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Late Birthday Post. Happy Birthday to the one who will always have my heart. You will always be my better half. You are the only one that can soften and melt my soul and make me float like a feather. Thank you for having me and loving me everyday. Hope this gives you a smile once you wake and read it. Hug me tight okay?  I love you so much G. 

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Hehe had a little free time from work. 💕 https://www.instagram.com/p/CDJN-Ftg4QeBsYQMSpwBfr4loAc9X1qitU1ac80/?igshid=3knfroqrajbd

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Long distance relationships are effin hard. But we'll make it work. We always do. I love and miss you so much ♥️

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Grace Miranda

Happy Teacher’s Day Baby! I love you so much! I am proud of what you do and I highly look up to you for being responsible for different lives and nurturing them. All teachers like you should be appreciated and remembered.

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DoTA is a MOBA game (Multiplayer Online Battle Arena) wherein 5 players go head to head with other 5 players to destroy each other’s respective Ancients, respectively Radiant and Dire. The objectives of the game are simple from the beginning and in the end. But, the middle part is what makes the game so interesting, complex and highly addictive.

Each team can choose from a variety of heroes that all have different skills, specialties, roles and timings. Each one unique, different, and strong in their own way. Each one has its own weakness that they try to conceal or by letting your other teammates help you from exploiting them. Each hero can build different items that makes them stronger, flexible and viable to defeating and killing the enemy team.

I started playing DoTA on 2008. I got hooked and the rest was history. I like how rich and deep the game is, and how every match I play is not the same as what I have played before. Each game is different, like a roller coaster ride you find your ups and downs in every game. Competitive DoTA ever since Dota 1 it has been one of the most competitive LAN games. I have read a few threads about competitive gaming but I have not been big follower of the professional scene. I stopped playing DoTA 1 after high school. It wasn’t the same as before and no progress and development has been given to it ever since by the developers of the game. The announcement and release of Dota 2 hyped up so many avid Dota fans including me and it was said to organize a $1 Million Prize for the winner which was the biggest prize pool in any competitive game ever since.

I began to follow the professional scene of DoTA 2 ever since I started playing. I watched every game, every team, every happening, news and updates. The game just keeps escalating to new heights no DoTA fan would have imagined it would be. DoTA in other countries has been one of the top games and sought after events for endorsement and advertisements including China and Russia. DoTA there was like a national sport. Every player had celebrity statuses. In my country? Eh, not so much. the Philippines has not embraced esports yet so much. Of course, Filipinos tend to find work instead of finding a career in gaming wherein there is no certainties. But I do believe DoTA will one day be a household name in many big events, and Basketball and DoTA here in the Philippines will be at the same level of hype and support.

Me with TobiWan one of the most respected casters in the game! This was the first DoTA 2 Major Event in the country which I will not be able to pass by. Me and my boys watched all the games and we were satisfied and overjoyed to see our idols play and compete in this rare occasion. There will be another event here in Manila this coming June. Not sure though if I can make it. But I’ll try to score some tickets if get the money. Can’t resist to see some aawesome games live!  DoTA 2 will be with me for a long time, I hope the next generation gets to experience the same happiness and joy I feel when playing and competing with Dota 2.

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First Entry: Introduce Yourself

Like new students entering a new school and coming to classes for the first time we all have to introduce ourselves. So here goes:

I am Brendan Santos. Architect/ Dota Enthusiast.

I was born in Dubai, U.A.E. but I’m a full blooded Filipino. I just graduated. Majoring in Architecture at Adamson University and currently in the edge of diving to the Adult Ocean....World. Bad analogy. *apologies*

I created this Tumblr account ( with some influences and commends from my girlfriend)  of course to express myself and feature some things that are on my mind that I just need to let out may it be creative outputs, thoughts, ideas, mixed emotions and other bullshit we all encounter in life everyday. 

Most of my posts will contain Dota 2 and small chunks of my life from time to time. I’ll explain Dota 2 and why my love for the game has to be the centerfold for my blog. 

Most of the chunks of my life that I will be posting will be with my girlfriend whom I cherish and love so much, and we have lots of plans of adventures and dreams that I hope we can both capture each moment and achieve together.