i misplaced my passion

~space abomination~ tw for self harm, suicide, ed talk, whatever. im rowan and i need a place to talk where people can validate me but wont freak out when i talk about serious stuff so thanks for that. if you think you know me irl please let me know. inbox is always open. this is not a main blog so i might follow back but you wont know sorry ily.

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hi im super freaking gay

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i need a break from feeling everything i just need a minute and then i can have empathy again but for just one moment i want to not feel hurt

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searching thinspo like

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my therapist says i have adhd but i can’t do anything about it because im financially dependent on my parents and they won’t believe i have it so that’s you know great or whatever i would just like to be able to focus

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anyway here’s the most condescending article ive read in a long time

https://www.phillymag.com/articles/2018/08/11/mayonnaise-industry-millennials/

apparently millennials hate mayo because we hate america and not because it’s fucking disgusting ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

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hate how cis boys can wear dresses and it’s cool and doesn’t change their gender but when i do im “not actually trans”

why am i expected to always be trying to pass? you know it’s exhausting right? you know that no matter what clothes im wearing and how my hair is cut i can never pass and it hurts so fucking much and sometimes i just can’t be bothered to try

and shit sometimes i like dresses. we invented gender anyway

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me on tinder: please keep ur weird kinks out of my messages for at least a week thanks

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seriously idk why you thought talking about choking me in the second message was a good move buddy

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so are people just incapable of discussing minority rights without throwing a different minority under the bus??

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What happened?

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a feminist lady talking about how women aren’t “weak” and then turning around and calling disabled people “weak”

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me on tinder: please keep ur weird kinks out of my messages for at least a week thanks

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so are people just incapable of discussing minority rights without throwing a different minority under the bus??

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tbh i’d sell my nudes as long as i didn’t have to have my face in the pic im broke and desperate enough

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HEY UM fucked up: medieval times only hires male squires for “historical accuracy”

excuse me WHAT THE FUCK

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yeah i mean i know most people don’t deal with dysphoria like this but hear me out

im not ever gonna go on t because of the effect it could have on my singing voice so im not gonna pass like ever

so if i look like a girl i can just completely dissociate from the way i look just like “that’s not rowan that’s effy my female alter ego/twin/whatever”

i mean yeah probably not healthy but kinda stops me from tearing off my skin most days

anyway im a man kids do not try this at home thanks for coming to my ted talk

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someone on mpa is necrobumping a bunch of threads of jelly beans and i just???

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if they have veritaserum why don’t they just make harry take it and then ask him about the dementors in the fifth book, honestly

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everyone thinks im bipolar so that’s cool or whatever