everyvhie

erode my edges and turn into love

[everyvhie]

piercing, new hair color, try contact lens, tattoo (??)

[everyvhie]

sometimes i just need to read my tumblr private post to be sane again.

[everyvhie]

i am so much more than what I believe now.

[everyvhie]

i want to be seen

i want to tell them

but i have trouble spitting my words out.

[allsadnshit]

Sometimes I randomly remember how the most important people of my life from like 6-7 years ago are not in my life at all anymore and that's sort of terrifying and also crazy to realize how you actually can survive loss beyond your comprehension and find happiness stronger and more suited for you if you keep going

[faustique]

someone told me that when they feel nervous about doing something & their heart starts beating really fast, that they call it their "inner applause" because their body is cheering them on, and i think that's the sweetest narrative adjustment ever.

[spotlessmy-deactivated20210523]

this was a great read. “Laziness Does Not Exist” by Devon Price

[everyvhie]

couch thoughts 🛋️

One big learning i learned last year was you don’t have to find a reason for everything. I hate nursing school — that is the turning point of how i see myself. You see i was confused about me, nursing was my answered prayer so naturally i should be glad but now that i am in here i realized how i badly hate it. Now hate is a big word, its a negative connotation, and my system accepted it negatively. I got confused, i am lost and importantly i self-loath for hating my degree. I thought to heal from it is to find reasons where this hate is coming from but i soon realized that it shouldn’t be a must to name the reasons. Sometimes you just have to simply acknowledge it first— that i hate nursing, or I don’t like this person — you shouldn’t pressure yourself to know everything even the most naturally occurring situations. You’ll learn the reasons on a random time and a random moment, all you can do is to have patience and it’ll come to you.

[girls4losers]

i gotta remember this

[everyvhie]

[everyvhie]

couch thoughts 🛋️

when you become an adult you’ll have a chance to ask your parents questions that confuses you when you were a kid and you’ll see a different perspective, one you thought was impossible. You’ll realize that what you know was not the entirety but an interpretation of what you understand during those younger years. it’s very important to ask those questions.

[everyvhie]

Goodbye 2025. Please be kind 2026!

Year 2025 finally comes to an end. Although i am writing this on exactly January 1, 2026 when it should have been during December but only today i feel like writing. Recalling a year worth of memories and lessons before the year ends always makes me tiny bit uncomfortable. Maybe because i am used to not remembering situations, either funny or sad ones, and my body automatically burries it in the dark corner of my mind. But today i gather my courage to remember everything even the painful one and to enumerate the lessons that shaped me who i am today.

Scrolling to my gallery i realized that 2025 was a fruitful and a heartbreaking year. While half of the year i was depressed which mostly suppressed all my memories. I now remember how much i enjoyed this year. I interacted to my high-school friends, went on a beach with my college friends, official sleepover in esca, planned a wedding for my sister, bar hopping with my family, hiked a mountain, and surviving the early mornings of nursing school. I did well and i did good. Despite me not remembering it, the photos are proof that i did most of the things that scared me when i was younger. But that year also painfully carved me with lessons that i now carry. I learned to be more in-tuned with myself. I have this character where i bottle up my thoughts and emotions which hinders my own thinking. I find it comforting to shutdown myself for other people or in short a people pleaser. But now i want to carry this learning to 2026. I want to listen more to my self and that if i want to do something then i have to do it — it might be walking alone, go to gym, try new clothes — I don’t care anymore. And when it comes to friendships, i learned to just be present and that no matter what they are going through it’s not my responsibility to fix it. Sometimes I can’t give what they want or that i have different perspective but one thing for sure is that i try to be with them although i have no words to say i will be there: silently praying and hopeful for them. And if i am no longer sitting at their table, then don’t force to sit with them. There is a reason why you are removed and just ask the question but have peace that they are standing for what they believe and that is something out of your control. And i want good health for 2026! I am tired of going to hospital as a patient and taking the 7 days antibiotics. I want to be better and the first step would be taking care of my health.

I am grateful for 2025 for letting me go through all the happiness, painful lessons, and the depression. it made me who i am today. And i only hope that 2026 will be kinder and that i am in control of myself when life gets rough. Thank you 2025, hello 2026!

[everyvhie]

[everyvhie]

i always believe our life is an unfinished mosaic

[dragonsblowingoutbirthdaycandles]

1. Vladimir Nabokov - Letters to Véra / 2. original poster - Love Letters to the Moon

[fashionablyuninvitedx]

sorry for being weird and evasive. i was raised to believe that having wants and needs was a moral failing

[nothingbutloveforyou]

i'd like to meet someone kind. someone who cares and will be there to listen. someone who notices when things are off, because they know you well enough. someone who acts from the goodness of their hearts and not just to gain something from it. someone who will go out of their way to do something nice for you, because you deserve it. someone who you can count and rely on because you would do the same for them in a heartbeat. someone kind

[papayajuan2019]

youre gonna grow up and realize just how much more lightheartedness you need in life