“Why are you so pissed at me?” Lucifer demanded, “it’s not like you needed me.”
“Didn’t need you!?” Adam voice going higher with each word. “Of course I fucking needed you! You were half the people I knew and I trusted you! And you abandoned us, you abandoned me!”
“Ohh plot twist!” Angel commented, tossing popcorn in his mouth.
Adam whipped his head towards the gathered crowd, watching them like they were a fucking soap opera, “I’m not a plot twist, I’m a person! This was my fucking life, not entertainment for the fucking peanut gallery!”
Overcome with rage, Adam lashed out, shoving Lucifer back and away from him. “None of you know what it was like out there. Eve and I were alone. You all at least had time to learn and grow and were taken care of. You’re adults! Someone must have loved you at some point. I was a newborn in a grown man’s body when I was expect to, to father humanity, to keep Eve and actual babies alive.”
Adam pulled his robe off and threw it to the ground. “Here! This scar on my arm is from being hunted and attacked by a lion. Eve saved my life!” He tugged his shirt off and showed them the smattering of deep jagged markings. “A leopard. Eve was pregnant at the time and I covered her with my body until it left us.” He touch deep scar, “it took part of me with it.”
Pulling up his pant leg he showed how it was was partly withered away, “some sort of snake or something. I didn’t get to see it as it bit me while I slept.”
His body was littered with scars of all sizes, a whole muscle seemed torn out of his side. “Farming accident.” Adam’s voice was bitter, “at least, I want to call it an accident. Abel,” his voice choked on the name he hadn’t spoken in so long, “he wasn’t the only person Cain lost his temper on.”
Adam’s heart twisted, “The boy had a wrathful nature the likes of which I’ve never seen before. No matter what we did he reacted with violence. Eve and I were barely children ourself and I preferred the fucking leopard to that bastard.” Adam threw his hands over his mouth in horror. “I- I didn’t mean that. He-he was just a difficult kid. I should have been better. It’s my fault. I should have explained better and he would have reacted better. He-“
“It’s not your fault.” Lucifer drew Adam attention. “I never really thought about it like that before. I thought if you two knew the difference between good and evil, if you have free will, then you didn’t need me anymore. I thought you would be happy in the garden. I didn’t think they would make you leave. I didn’t think at all. I never seem to think before I do or say something stupid.”
They didn’t say much after that. Adam sulked off, unsatisfied and upset. He stayed in his room, laying on his bed, replaying the fight over and over in his mind. Lucifer’s words and his own.
He loved Cain. He was his son. But the boy was a fucking monster. A demon. A sin. He went by Satan these days but to Adam he would always be Cain.
Eve and he mourned Abel. Losing him was horrible. But for the first time since Cain was two they could breathe easy. They didn’t know how to deal with the violent outbursts. They thought it was over when Cain was banished but his seed infected generations.
It was entwined in the dna of every human on Earth. Like a genetic condition, it popped up at random in people. In sinners.
Adam was just doing his job of culling Cain’s descendants from reality. He couldn’t do anything until they fell. They could overcome the evil in them and ascend to heaven still if on Earth. So Adam had to wait.
He couldn’t protect Abel, but he could protect those in heaven from Cain.
There was a knock on his door and he knew the sound of hooves on the soft carpet by now. “Come in.”
Sheepishly, Lucifer entered freshly showered and already ready for bed. “I wanted to check on you.”
“You wouldn’t mean it otherwise you would have already apologized.”
Lucifer nodded, “true. So I won’t. After all this time, I no longer regret what I’ve done, just the effect it has had on others. And I don’t know how to apologize for that.”
Adam shifted up and sat back against the headboard. “I don’t know how to accept an apology for that, so it’s for the best that you don’t try.” He motioned for Lucifer to join him on the bed.
“Are you sure? That was a pretty bad fight. If you don’t want to tonight, I understand.”
“Hmm. Yeah, but I need to unwind and come down.” Adam kicked the blankets down a bit and spread his legs for Lucifer.
Locking the door behind him, to ensure they weren’t caught unawares, Lucifer climbed up onto the bed and turned around to allow Adam access to his back. Adam grabbed the hair brush from the bedside table and started to brush Lucifer’s damp hair. Lucifer let Adam style it and restyle it until he was satisfied with playing with the angel’s feathery light hair and Adam brushed it out one last time.
“Want me to do yours?” Lucifer leaned back so he could look up at Adam.
Adam wasn’t much in the mood but it would help. “Sure.”
Like a magic trick Lucifer seemed to sink into the bed, disappearing, and Adam heard the bath run.
The hotel had been modernized since he destroyed it but it kept one feature Adam liked.
He got up from the bed and stripped down. Entering the bathroom neither of them batted an eye at Adam’s nudity. They had been this strange ritual most every night for months now.
The claw foot tub was an impressive sight and size. Enough to fit him and Lucifer if Lucifer ever joined him.
There wasn’t much water yet but Adam still got in. He liked the feeling of the water rising, the cold of the tub, Lucifer’s fingers massaging his scalp before the tub was full and Lucifer started to wash his hair.
He groaned as Lucifer’s fingers worked their way across his head. Adam took himself in hand, as he did most nights now, and teased himself. He hand no particular intention of getting off. He just enjoyed the feeling.
Lucifer poured water over Adam’s hair and let it splash him. There was a floor drain so neither of them cared about the water leaving the tub.
Shampoo was rubbed in and Adam enjoyed the little scrapes of Lucifer’s claws and sighed as the tension of their fight left him.
More water and silky conditioner was being massaged in next. Adam exposed his neck and let Lucifer have a taste of his wet skin.
They didn’t talk about what they did at night. They never told anyone what this was. They didn’t know what it was.
One night Lucifer came to talk. So they did. Then again another night. And a few more. One night Lucifer was complaining about something, Adam didn’t recall, as he leaned against Adam and Adam played with his hair. Playing turned into brushing and on one brave night as Adam tried to shoo Lucifer out of his room so he could take a bath, Lucifer asked to wash his hair.
For reasons he didn’t understand then, Adam agreed.
Lucifer soaked his pants and Adam offered him a change of clothes. There was a moment as they tried to pretend things were normal that they both stood there naked and had to admit that none of what they were doing was normal.
But the ritual continued. They talked, often about nothing and just filling the silence, Adam brushed and played with Lucifer’s hair, Lucifer washed Adam’s hair, the excuse for them both to be naked before they fell into bed together.
By dawn’s break Lucifer was up. Adam waited, this was another part of the ritual. Lucifer would slip out of bed, he would dress, he would leave, and Adam would pretend it didn’t hurt.
Lucifer instead turned towards Adam. “I’ve been thinking about it all night and I think I figured out how to apologize.”
This broke the ritual, Lucifer never said a word in the mornings, as though he was ashamed of why he came to Adam’s room almost every night.
“I’m sorry for assuming you would be okay. I hurt you and I’m sorry for that.”
“I’m not sure I’m ready to forgive you.” He felt lighter already though.
“That’s okay. I’m not apologizing so you absolve me of the guilt of hurting you. But because I regret having hurt you.”
The sun kept rising but Lucifer made no move to leave. He reached out by moving closer. Despite the sex there was something they had never done.
Lucifer’s mouth was hot, it burned so good, he tasted so sweet, Adam was lost to that mouth.
“I’m sorry for leaving every morning. I was afraid that if I didn’t leave then I would kiss you and everything would end.”
“Then why did you kiss me this morning?” Adam’s heart waited to shatter.
“Because I’m afraid that if I didn’t, everything would end and I would have regretted not doing it the most out of everything.”
Adam pulled Lucifer in for another kiss. “It seems nothing has ended.”
“Then what a fool I have been. Can you forgive a fool for being afraid?” Lucifer laid his head down on the pillow next to Adam’s and took Adam’s hand in his.
“Not yet. But I’m willing to try so long as you stop leaving me.”
Amusement reached from Lucifer lips to his eyes, “don’t tell me you’re proposing, Adam.”
“I’m not. So long as you keep another’s ring on your finger, I shan’t give nor accept one.”
He held his breath as he blindly groped a Lucifer’s fingers.
“I took it off before coming here. Thought it was time to stop being a fool and leaving you.”
“Shall you be a king and stay then?”
“Only if you’ll be my queen.”
“Are you proposing, Lucifer?”
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