Evolution of Anger

This has become a place where I can post my angsty teen shit without bothering people I know on Facebook. Lyrics, images, thoughts, feelings. This blog gets to see it all, like it or not, this is for me.

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so fuck all this discomfort, I wanna see in color

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‘cause i feel fucked, but in a good way

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she fuckin’ hates me

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and i know that the closer you bring me fear tries to keep me alone

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sixteen just held such better days

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i wanna swim away but don’t know how

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i only love it when you touch me, not feel me, when i’m fucked up, that’s the real me

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now i’m having trouble differentiating between what i want and what i need to make me happy

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Is it considered suicidal if you don't want to kill yourself but you basically just don't want to participate in society anymore? You don't want to be dead, but you don't really want to be alive either.

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He called me beautiful. And I wondered if I was beautiful.

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i remember when i lost my mind, there was something so pleasant about that place

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when you drift off to wake up, do you always hit the brakes?

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l-o-v-e’s just another word i never learned to pronounce

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i was told when i get older all my fears would shrink but now i’m insecure and i care what people think

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i never thought i would become the problem child

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Some talk about a fire that burns inside them. But I don’t feel fire inside me. I feel black holes sucking out my breath. I feel shooting stars propelling me forward. I feel nebulae of colour and sparkle within me.

There are galaxies inside me, ever expanding and outreaching. And I live to extend their borders to every inch that this world has to offer. 

[evoofanger]

dear old friend, i’m feeling hopeless again