faithfully

am i on your mind?

[understands]

[understands]

[podencos]

Relationships require that each person be present, u know? Nothing special, nothing new. I know this. U know this. We know this. But in response to feeling Always Tethered there has been an almost mass miscommunication. The capitalistic fatigue driven tenuous dis/connection. To respond to ur text is to drain myself of energy. To answer your phone call is to exercise the part of my brain I only just quieted. Can’t we pick this up a week from now? A month from now? Next year? By then my vigor will have returned. Conversations surrounding the “millennial milieu” of technological affects on “society” r banal; I am not looking 2 add to the cacophony by creating an illusion of discourse. I’m just thinking about my life out loud. Lately I’m even more tired of pulling away than I am the inundation of mechanized exhaustion, of responsive disengagement. Not looking to always be available, but am looking for contact. Cannot find closeness when u are always turning away and being turned away from. We must meet in the middle. Bleeding heart emoji from me 2 U

[dont-give-a-fuck-club]

Crying while explaining is a different level of pain.

[cigarettespleasure]

[violentwavesofemotion-deactivat]

Ingrid Jonker, tr. by Elizabeth Jones & Jack Cope, from “When You Laugh,”

[lesbiandomesticity]

you’re sitting across from me in a shitty diner in anywhere, america, and i watch you pour too much creamer in your coffee and i think “i love you.” you look up, catching me staring, and for a moment i think i’m brave enough to say it, but i take too long and the moment passes. i take the balled up straw wraper and flick it at you, pretending that was my plan all along. you laugh. i never want to go another day without hearing that laugh. i think i will have all the time in the world to say it.

[serialstranger]

[lesbiandomesticity]

i come home to you after a long week away. you crawl into my lap, rest your head on my shoulder, and wrap your arms around me tight. the wear and the stress of being away melt off of me, and i am home again. i kiss the crown of your head, breathing in your sweet scent, and close my eyes. this is where i am meant to be.

[podencos]

“Humans are wired to return an embrace, to hold each other; they instinctively look for a body to press against, warmth to garner and distribute. If someone recoils, it has been bred into them through trauma […]” :(

[lesbiandomesticity]

i wake up early, before the sun rises, to hold you in the in-between space of day and night. you almost stir, consciousness grazing the surface, before sighing and settling into the curves of my body. if i could freeze this moment, stretch it out into forever, i would. but then, i realize, i will already have a forever full of little moments like these.

[hatin]

tbh i just want someone i could cuddle with all night long watching old disney movies 

[weltenwellen]

Julian Randall, from “The Cane Field Testifies Regarding the Assassination of the Mirabal Sisters Launch Audio in a New Window“

[vegaschapters]

quotes i’m thinking about a lot lately 

[midsommars-deactivated20201109]

—Greta Gerwig, Little Women (2019) Script

[thelibraperspective]

EleMENts

Fire sign boys:

flirt with you and your entire friend group

class clown

loves to hate on your exes

could not be more dramatic, but somehow over the top reaction to things is charming and endearing

earth sign boys:

break up with you then get mad at you for moving on

does things a particular way and loves to explain to you how things should work

excellent with money/budgeting

“look there’s your boyfriend” (a guy they’re jealous of)

water sign boys:

best cuddlers 

mad cause you didn’t text them when you got home safe

fantasizes with you about your future kids

rather ditch the party to cuddle and watch movies

air sign boys:

ghosts you for two months then texts, “I had a dream about you”

always has a movie they want you to watch

talk to you for hours about conspiracy theories

photoshopped your head on a meme and sent it to you at 3am

[skinhorses]

not to be dramatic but the trauma of being a daughter is real and my relationship with my mother is and will always be one of the most devastating and complex relationships i will ever experience