Dear Diary,

[excerptfrommydiary]

The darkness is keeping me akwake. Restless until the dawn of day. Barely breathing, hiding all my ache. Silence is all there is today.

[ceruleanmood]

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I am like a shadow. A ghost floating trough the night. All alone, looking for nothing. Only conscious when there is no one else awake.

[cyberbluex]

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Be calm. Every little thing is a step forward Every word a victory String them together One by one Until they form pages  And set you free

[ninaidea-exe]

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Seit langem habe ich an diesem Abend mal wieder meine alte Maske übergezogen, mit ihr gelächelt und festgestellt, dass sie nicht mehr gut passt.

[heyskys]

paralyzed

[excerptfrommydiary]

It seems like you are trying to stop time. Has noone told you, thats the best way to waste it?

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Reflecting 2018 I realize, that it hasn't brought any change, despite things being different. I have moved out from my parents, I got a new job, I came out to my mom. And yet I feel the same. I am still in the same state of mind. Hopeless, trapped, unable to move.  

[excerptfrommydiary]

Broken bottles shine just like stars Make a wish anyway Just your smile lit a sixty-watt bulb in my house That was darkened for days Been thinking you probably should stay Yeah, I think that you probably should stay

Gregory Alan Isakov 'All Shades of Blue'

[incidentalcomics]

Values

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[excerptfrommydiary]

I want to escape. But it feels like there is no place I could run to. All the running, the trying, the constant self-improvement - maybe that's the real trap. And maybe the only way to win, is to stop. So I try to try a little less. I try to stand still. I try so say 'Its's good enough.' I dont wanna be a rat in this race anymore.

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I miss you. But I know you're glad I left. And I know you're right. It was time.

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I needed change of pace Couldn't take the pace of change

Leave the City - Twenty One Pilots

 There has been a lot of change in my life recently.  Generally that's nothing I am comfortable  with.  And yes, there have been moments of doubt and fear, but overall it has felt good. Like a step forward. But now that everything is done and I have settled in, my old demons are back to haunt me. I didn't really expect them to be gone for good, but it hit me hard this week. The fact that I can't escape myself. Whereever I am going, that's just where I am.

[ceruleanmood]

[excerptfrommydiary]

You know you're fucked, when you don't even want to sing along to your favourite song.