This World Gave Me You

Hello! I’m Natalie. (Sideblog: Sannieangel)

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Hi will you be continuing the yixing soulmate au? I've been waiting for it 👉🏽👈🏽

hello! I’m so sorry for the long wait! I’ve had big life changes and haven’t had much time to myself as i would like! However, something has re sparked me to wanna write again. So, hopefully i can sit down and write it out! I’m so so sorry you’ve had to wait so long. :( 

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Well I for one would love more of the Yixing soulmate story. We still need answers!

Haha, thank youuuu for your support! I’ll try my best to write more! Tbh you’ll continue to get more questions than answers loool

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Oh wow! I remember this Yixing soulmate story! I was one of the people who’d hoped it would be continued because I had so many questions! I hope you continue it! And thanks for part 2!

Lol sorry for the long wait, my life has been a lil crazy. Thank you for your support! I’ll update if people want more lol

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Yixing Soulmate AU Pt. 2

Part 1 

I watched as his body disappeared into the sea of people. As quickly as he appeared, he disappeared. I exhaled heavily and chewed on the inside of my cheek. Why was the concept of soulmates over romanticized in our world? There was no such thing as being rejected by your soul mate… until now. I looked down at my watch and realized that I needed to get back to the bridal shop. Christine would probably know that being around all this would be too much for me. Actually, it was too much for me. It pained my heart that I wouldn’t be taking part in any of this. I’m always the outsider looking in. I was already twenty-five and had been to so many weddings, but my own. But, as much as my heart ached I didn’t want to ruin this for Christine. No matter how bitter I am, I truly believed she deserved the bliss of finally having her soulmate. I let out another sigh and slowly made my way back to the bridal shop. My feet felt so heavy and dragged with every step. A small smile spread across my lips at the thought of how Christine and I planned our weddings as children. We had always said that we’d both get married together. But, reality hit and only one of us was getting married. I had just met Yixing and he made it clear that what I dreamed about wouldn’t be coming true. The truth was I’d probably never get married. Would I have to settle on someone who wasn’t my soulmate?

My feet finally landed in front of the bridal shop and I inhaled deeply. I had decided not to tell Christine about Yixing. I didn’t want to ruin her day and it didn’t matter anyways. I mentally prepared myself before walking through the front doors. I watched as Christine's small figure bee-lined over to where I was. “Are you doing okay? Were you able to get a breather? I’m so sorry, I promise we’ll be done soon!” I shook my head at her silly words and placed my hands on her shoulders. “I’m okay, Chris. I went out to get a breather and I’m okay now. You have my full attention now, bud.” I smiled at her and nodded. I watched as her eyes examined me and her head tilted a bit. Her eyes lingered on me before she nodded slightly. She pulled away and clasped her hands together. “It’s down to two dresses now! I can’t make this choice without you, buddy.” I nodded and motioned for her to go try them on. She let out a squeal and her green eyes widened. I let out a soft chuckle and her red hair swayed over her shoulder as she ran back to the dressing room. As soon as she was back in the dressing room, my face dropped. I felt so horrible, I should be excited for her. Why did I have to meet him today? He completely stole this beautiful moment from me. She deserved to have her best friend’s full attention, but I felt like I had been robbed of that. My head was swirling with thoughts of him. She modeled each dress for me, but I kept my focus on her facial expressions. Just by her face alone I could tell she loved the first dress more. I knew her too well and even though she couldn’t pick a dress, I knew which one had won over her heart. “Soooo, which one should I get?” I snickered and looked up to see her walking towards me. I shook my head and smiled at her. “You’re pretending you don’t know which one to get, but you love the first dress the most.” Her mouth opened agape and her eyes squinted. “How’d you k-,“ I cut her off answering her with what she already knew. “Chris, we’ve known each other for so long. I can tell what you like and what you don’t like based on your facial expressions.” “Aria, I felt like a princess in that dress!” I smiled and enveloped her small self in my arms. “You are a princess. You’re going to be a real-life princess on your day.” I held her closer as sobs left her tiny body. She pulled away and tears were streaming down her cheeks. “I feel like such a bad best friend. We said we’d do this together, but it’s just me..” She trailed off and sniffled as more tears flowed out of her. I gently held both her hands. “Chris, nooo you’re not a bad best friend. Don’t feel bad, it’s okay. I’m glad I could be here during these special moments. And you’ll be there for my special moments when the time comes.” I gently wiped her tears away and offered her a small smile. She sniffled some more and embraced me in another hug. “Are you sure you’re okay?” I tried to keep myself composed, she knew me too well. “I’m fine, buddy. Don’t worry about me.” I stated rubbing her back gently. She pulled away and her green eyes examined me once again. I knew she knew that I was hiding something from her. But, it was more than she could even imagine. I felt so embarrassed. I couldn’t even gather the courage to muster up those words inside me. I felt humiliated knowing what had taken place. ~~~ Christine dropped me off in front of my house and I waved at her as she drove off. In all honesty, I didn’t want to go home. My whole family would be there planning my cousin’s wedding. I could hear the roaring of their laughter from outside the house. I felt like I had a million cousins that were getting married each weekend. The perks of having an enormous family. I gripped my bag tightly and stared at the front of my house. I really didn’t want to go inside. I’ve had such a rough day because of Yixing and I had to work harder to keep it from Christine. I took in a few deep breaths and commanded my feet to make its way to the front door. It felt like an eternity once I finally reached the door. The roaring of laughter grew louder and rang in my ears. My heart began beating faster knowing I’d have to face them and plaster a mask on my face. I rolled my eyes and threw the front door open, it was better to get it over with. "The baby's home!!!!" The sound of all their voices rang through the walls. I smiled and shut the door behind me. I internally groaned at all the cheeks I had to kiss. I greeted every single aunt, uncle, and cousin. After all the greetings, I wedged myself between my mom and dad. I watched as everyone engaged back into their conversations. “Thalia’s wedding had the best food!” “Noo, Sarah’s wedding had the best cake!” “Ohhhh, but Roberto’s wedding had the prettiest decorations!” I rolled my eyes and tuned all their chatter out. I sank my brain into a spiral of frustrated thoughts. Usually, I loved hearing them argue about who’s wedding was better. But, today I had no patience for it. “Xo, remember our wedding?” My dad’s words pulled me out of my thoughts and I looked up at him. There was a bright smile on his face as he looked over at my mother. His bright smile only heightened his soft features. His almond shaped eyes held such a beautiful honey color in them. His tan skin complimented the color of his eyes so nicely. “Leo, don’t start.” My mother mumbled while shaking her head. My parents were so in love and sometimes their mush was too much for me. My dad got up and sat beside her. He wrapped his arm around my mom. He gently kissed her cheek with a smile on his face. “You looked so beautiful, Xiomara. You’re the most gorgeous bride I’ve ever seen.” I clenched my jaw to contain my bitterness. “Your brown eyes looked so beautiful in the sun. Your olive skin looked so gorgeous in that ivory wedding dress.” If I could clench my jaw any tighter I’d have no teeth left. Most days I enjoyed hearing them complement each other, but it was too much for me. When would I get my chance? I felt like everyone else’s love was on display on purpose. I had often questioned my worth and that probably sounded ridiculous. But, I had cousins getting married almost every other weekend. I was suffocating in a sea of love that wasn’t meant for me. Why did this forsaken world glorify soulmates, and not show the ugliness of it? How some people die before they can even meet their soulmate? Or those who settle on others who isn’t the one meant for them? Or what if your soulmate rejected you? I couldn’t take any of this anymore and swiftly stood up. I felt all eyes on me and darted for the bathroom. I closed the door behind me and the tears came unwelcome. I ran my fingers through my hair and paced in circles. Once the tears had come to a halt I splashed cold-water on my face. My breathing grew rapidly and I pulled up my left sleeve and snarled at the mark on my wrist. This wretched mark that I wanted so badly to disappear. I lathered soap on it and scrubbed on it as hard as I could. Soap wasn’t going to do anything, but I was desperate. I hated this disgusting mark that only meant one thing. The tears came again and there was a light knock on the door. My breathing grew heavy again. I tugged my sleeve down to cover this thing that I was already growing to hate. “Aria? Baby are you okay?” It was my mother and I hated that she’d see me like this. I hated that they’d all know I was having a hard-time with this and they’d all feel pity for me. “Baby, are you okay?” I turned the door knob and the door creaked open. “Aria?” I stepped forward and felt my knees buckle. There was a sharp pain that struck through my gut. I dropped to the floor in grueling pain and sobbed. “Aria!” I felt my mother’s arms wrap around me and the pain continued. “I HATE HIM I HATE HIM,” I shouted repeatedly. I hated him. I hated that he was constantly getting hurt, I hated that I met him. I hated that it was him. What I hated the most was that he wanted nothing to do with me.

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Hello friends! Sorry I have been gone for so long, I was dealing with school. Buttttt, I have part 2 of the Yixing soulmate imagine coming real soon :D

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hi i hope this isn't to much to ask for but i was wondering if i can get a angsty then soft minseok scenario where him and reader have been married for a few weeks but he refuses to consummate the marriage because she was a virgin when they married and he's scared of hurting her. after finally someone talking some sense into him he finally decides to have sex with his bride. if you can do this request then thank you so much!! No smut just the story lol sorry if this gets sent again

i suck at writing smut, so thank you for this lol! Yes I can write this! Thank you for the request :D

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Off  Limits (Jongdae)

“Hey gorgeous,” You peered up to see the man you had been exchanging glances with all night. He was probably the only entertainment you had during this dull party. You both were stuck in some sorry attempt of a house party. The horrible music blaring through your ears, the cheesy disco lights flashing through the darkness, and the cheap alcohol everyone was sipping on pretending it was the best night ever. The only thing you were experiencing was complete boredom.

        Except for the breath-taking man across the room who kept his eyes on you. He was the only thing keeping you at this God forsaken party. He was supposedly off limits, since you were sort of dating his best friend. But, in all honesty you couldn’t care less about his friend. You were only dating him because he was a good kisser. That was the only good quality about him. But, you knew he was probably making out with some other girl in one of the empty rooms.

        You flashed a playful smile and winked at him. “Hey handsome, what took you so long?” You muttered through a snicker. A mischievous smile danced on his lips as he sat beside you. He shrugged slightly and leaned in closer  to you. “So, what’s keeping you here?” He asked while his eyes scanned through this horrid scene before him. You scooted closer in to him and leaned closer to his ear. “You,” you whispered before leaving a kiss on his cheek. You were never this eager, but this party was so damn boring. You needed some sort of excitement.

        He nodded and slid his hand gently into yours, intertwining your fingers together. You leaned into his side and laid your head on his shoulder. You took in a deep breath of air, enjoying his scent. His cologne smelling fresh but also a hint of spice. He rubbed his thumb gently across yours and bobbed his head to the beat of the music. You watched as a pink light flashed on him and your breath hitched at how beautiful Jongdae appeared. The way the light accentuated his perfect jaw line and his ravishing lips.

        You chewed on your bottom lip and moved closer practically sitting in his lap. He chuckled and removed his hand from yours, softly placing his arm around your waist. You nuzzled your head into the small of his neck and took in more of his scent. His cologne having more of an effect on you than the alcohol did. He placed his free hand nonchalantly on your knee and continued to look out into the party scene.

        You peered into the dark living room while Jongdae began rubbing small circles on your knee. This party wasn’t too bad with his company. You caught the sight of his best friend roaming around a bit and you stiffened up. He began calling out your name and you clicked your tongue. He was looking for you with purple lipstick smeared on his chin. Jongdae turned towards you waiting for your cue. Were you heading towards the other man or going to stay beside him? Either way it didn’t matter, because he’d get your number.

        You rolled your eyes and stood up. Jongdae looked up at you as you grabbed his forearm and tugged on him slightly. He stood up slowly and followed your lead through the quiet areas of the house. You let out a sigh of relief as the faint sound of the music grew distant. You walked further into the house and opened the door to a random room, finding two people making noises. Your eyes widened, and you slammed the door shut. Jongdae chuckled and stepped in front of you. He knew which room would be empty, since he was the hosts best friend. You let go of his hand and wrapped your arms around his waist, placing your head on his back. His scent intoxicating you once more. You placed a small kiss on his shoulder as he swung a door open. He pulled your hands away from his waist and grabbed your arm to pull you in front of him. His strong arms wrapped around your waist and tugged your body closer to his. You giggled as a smile lit up his face while he led you into the room, and shutting the door behind him.

        “You’re gorgeous,” he whispered as he swayed with you in his arms. You let out a brazen chuckle and raised your eyebrow. “How gorgeous?” You whispered back. Jongdae winked and leaned in to your face. He placed gentle kisses along your jaw line leaving you wanting more. Your arms slid around his neck as he continued kissing along your jaw. He let out a breath of air before pressing his lips against yours. You followed his lead and your lips moved in sync with his. You were getting drunk off his taste. His scent had only intoxicated you so much, but his lips had brought you a high you had never felt before. He removed his right arm around your waist and gently caressed your cheek. He lightly stroked your cheek with his thumb, which only made you want even more.

        You froze up as the door swung open and light from the hallway peered in. You heard his best friend calling your name and jongdae pulled your body tighter into his embrace and began kissing along your jawline. He knew his best friend was too drunk to recognize you in the dark. His left arm held your stiff embrace as his right hand moved from your cheek to your hair. He began running his fingers through your hair in attempt to calm you down.

        His best friend let out a deep sigh realizing Jongdae was making out with someone, not realizing it was you. You watched as the light that poured in had disappeared when he slammed the door shut. His footsteps led away from the door and you let out deep breath of air. Your body loosened up and you planted your forehead against Jongdae’s shoulder. He let out a chuckle and continued to run his fingers through your hair. You pulled away from him and chuckled at how exciting this whole situation was. “This has been fun, but how about we enjoy the moonlight?”

        You turned and looked out the window to see how bright the full moon was. His hand slid into yours and he pulled you out of the dull party. You let out a sigh of relief once you felt the chill of the cold night. You turned to Jongdae as you were filled with his scent all around you. He had placed his blazer around your shoulders and his hand had slipped in yours again. You smiled to yourself knowing this would be more than what you slightly had with his best friend.

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Hello, I just read the yixing’s soulmate au! Its so incredible! Do you planned to make a part2? Is yixing really have a girlfriend?

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i see that most of you want a part 2! So, i’m gonna work hard to figure something out! Please be patient with me because I’m in school and am currently having a big episode of writers block! But, i will work hard! So sorry for leaving you all hanging! 

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AAAA I REALLY WANT A PART TWO FOR THE YIXING SOULMATE AU AS WELL!

ahhh im sorry for seeing this so latee!! i will have try to come up with something and re-analyze what i should with part 2! i will try my best for all of you!

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Hello, I just read the yixing’s soulmate au! Its so incredible! Do you planned to make a part2? Is yixing really have a girlfriend?

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I wish that Yixing soulmate au had a part 2. Like why he gets hurt all of the time? Why he’s so anxious around ppl? Was he lying about the girlfriend to keep his soulmate away and safe? So many unanswered questions...

im sorry, i’m just seeing this! fiesdkdah I feel so bad, i had so many ideas for this au, but i wasnt sure if anyone cared about it lol. If you still want a second part, let me know! If you do want a second part, i will brainstorm harder to make this better than i wanted it to be. Again, i’m so sorry! :( 

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Ball Of Fury

trigger warning: mention of being an orphan and abandonment 

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         You had been surrounded by bleak walls that you did your best to try and decorate. These walls had burned into your memory by being surrounded by them for so long. What probably didn’t seem normal to others, seemed normal to you. The same routine every day, you had given up on ever hearing good news. You had been in this system for so long that you had grown used to it. As a kid you were angry and frustrated, but now as a teenager all you felt was numbness. If it weren’t for Chanyeol you’d feel a lot more lonely. You had never had siblings and he was the closest thing you had to one. Both of you were placed into this share house at twelve and grew up in it together. Both of you were now seventeen, a year away from a window out. Or at least that’s how others saw it. All the younger kids would whine about how lucky you and Chanyeol were to be so close to freedom. Well, they saw it as freedom since they were only kids. Of course, they didn’t know any better. But, deep down both you and Chanyeol were scared.

                A knock on the door brought you back to reality while you were staring blankly at your homework. You looked up to see a small smile pursed on Chanyeol’s lips. A smile mirrored on your face as he strode in. “Need some help?” You looked back at your homework and realized why you had zoned out. You were working on science homework, your least favorite subject. You turned back to Chanyeol and nodded. He sat by the pillow on your bed that was close enough to your desk. His hand pointed to the first question on your worksheet and you felt your brain wandering off already. A gentle hand placed on your shoulder shook you a bit and you looked up at Chanyeol. A snicker escaped his lips and you stared into his big eyes. Before you could stop yourself from saying it, these words slipped out. “Your birthday is next month.”

        The smile on Chanyeol’s lips disappeared into straight lines. You both stared blankly in each other’s eyes. It was something neither of you wanted to talk about, yet it was coming so close. You at least had a few months left, but he only had days left. A sigh escaped your lips and Chanyeol shook his head. “I’m here to help you with science.” He muttered sternly. You shook your head and sat closer to him. “What are we gonna do?” You mumbled with tears pricking your eyes. He stood up slightly and ran his fingers through his hair. “We’ll figure it out!” He shouted frustrated. You bit your lip in attempt to hold back your tears. He was ready to storm off but calmed himself the minute he saw your state. He sat back down on the bed and placed his hands on your shoulders. “We’ll figure it out okay. We have each other, and we can stay until graduation. At least we have each other, right?” A smile curled on his lips as he stared back at you. You blinked quickly to keep your tears from falling and nodded. Chanyeol winked and gave you a quick hug. After letting go he grabbed your paper and circled all the answers and handed it back to you.

        “I gotta go before Minnie catches us, it’s curfew.” You nodded, and he patted your back gently. You watched as his frame disappeared through your door and vanished into the hallway. You let out another sigh and closed the door to your room. You turned off the lights and slipped into your bed. Another sleepless night while spiraling off into your thoughts. For the past two months this was your routine. Your fears were consuming you and disturbing your sleep. Chanyeol always made fun of you and said you looked like a panda because of the bags under your eyes. Of course, he always looked out for you when you napped during homeroom. But, in all honesty no matter how hard you tried your thoughts haunted you and you couldn’t fall asleep. What would life be like once you were on your own? Would you and Chanyeol really get an apartment together? Or would he just abandon you the minute his birthday came? You swatted that thought out of your head knowing he’d scold you if he knew you were thinking about that. He had always promised he’d never leave your side, as you never left his. You remember seeing a frazzled Chanyeol following Minnie around as he gave him a tour of the place. Minnie had introduced you two and right away you had asked him to come with you to make hot chocolate. Ever since then you two had been inseparable.

        Although, you were now numb to your situation you knew Chanyeol was quite angry about it. Of course, he hid his anger but because you both were close you knew.  He had spent a few years with his mom, this was different for him. Whereas you never knew what it was like having parents or siblings. There were times you were frustrated by it, but you didn’t know what having a family felt like. You were so grateful for Chanyeol because he was the small slice of home you could experience. He gave you a taste of what perhaps it might be like.

        Thoughts spiraling in your head had you watch as the sun rose. You turned over and glared at the clock, the red numbers glared back at you. Soon Minnie would come over and wake you to get ready for school. You stared at the clock knowing the morning would be rough without any sleep. However, you watched as the red numbers symbolled that an hour had past and was now seven. You sat up wondering why Minnie hadn’t come barging in to wake you.

        It wasn’t until you heard screaming from the other side of the hallway. Out of curiosity you got up and slipped your shoes on. The screaming grew louder as you grew closer to the door. When you reached for the knob your door swung open and revealed a tiny child with frantic eyes. “It’s Chanyeol, he’s upset!” You nodded towards the child and sprinted down the hallway. Once you finally reached Chanyeol, you gasped at the state he was in. His wide eyes were now small and tears streamed down his face. His face was swollen and the top of his ears tinged with red. You watched as the veins in his neck strained as he continued shouting. You watched as he crumpled up a paper in his hands and slammed it against the wall. “Chan- Chanyeol!” Minnie yelled several times at him and tried his best to calm him down. You watched as Minnie’s head turned and he motioned for you to come and help him out.

        You strided towards the frantic Chanyeol and stood before him. He sniffled, and his chest rose and fell rapidly. You watched him as he let out one last scream and dropped to his knees. Minnie tapped your shoulder and placed the ball of paper in your hands. He half smiled and nodded at you one last time. You watched as Minnie sighed and walked towards the crowd of kids that had formed at the end of the hallway. You peered down at the ball in your hands and sat in front of Chanyeol. Sniffles were all that you could hear coming out of him. Chanyeol raised his head and snatched the ball out of your hands. You watched as he sneered and crushed the ball further with his hands. A hysterical laugh escaped his lips and he peered at you. His eyes grew dark and glossed over. “I hate that woman,” he sneered. More laughter escaped his lips and you stared blankly at him. You had never seen him this upset and knew that it was best for him to get whatever bothered him off his chest. He gulped air and crushed the ball more. “She thinks that after abandoning me, I’d want to be with her?” You watched as he began breathing heavy and you placed your hand on his knee in hopes that it would calm down. However, his anger had riled him up. “Apparently she got her life together!” He shouted while laughing. His laughter rang through the halls and he held up his hand with the balled-up paper. “SHE SAID MY BIRTHDAY PRESENT IS TO MOVE IN WITH HER!” You watched as Chanyeol’s face began turning red. “I hate her! I hate her!” He hissed with his jaw clenched. You reached out to grab the ball from his hands and he violently pushed you from reaching it. He stood up and tugged at his own hair. Letting out a sob his arm slung back to throw the ball of paper.

  You watched as his hand threw the ball of paper and his eyes grew darker. You shielded your eyes as a flame of fire strung out of his finger tips and spiraled towards the ball of paper. You moved your arm and saw that the ball of paper was now a pile of ashes. Your jaw fell open and your eyes darted towards Chanyeol. His eyes were wide with bewilderment. The hallway had filled with scent of smoke. He froze up and his eyes met with yours. Both of you stared at each other now knowing what to do. A few seconds later Minnie returned and was angry. “PARK CHANYEOL!” You and Chanyeol both turned to look at Minnie. “I get that you’re angry, but did you have to set it on fire?! You’re not even allowed to have a lighter!!” You and Chanyeol were both puzzled and remained frozen. “Now I have to clean up this damned mess! Both of you go get ready for school already!” He motioned his hands for both of you to leave. Chanyeol held out his arm to help you up. You grabbed onto his arm and stood back up. “Hurry up! Go get ready or you’re gonna be late!” You and Chanyeol gave one last look at each other and headed towards your rooms.

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I’m sorry I haven’t done any writing lately, school has been taking up my time. :( 

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Charming Instruction

Part of The Untamed - EXO Wolf Universe

Genre: Supernatural, Wolf Au

Pairing: Junmyeon x Reader

Summary: You were just an average, everyday college student desperately trying to graduate. Only one more year stood between you and that celebratory walk. However, due to an oversight by your adviser, it seemed that the one class you never wanted to take was required to take that walk. It wasn’t the subject matter that made you uncomfortable. It was the teacher. Your heart sped up every time you saw him and you didn’t want that distraction in your life, attractive or not. With meeting him now an inevitability, you swore that you would keep your hormones in check. But after your first day of class, a series of hi jinks and weird situations lead you to discovering the secret of your professor and why he seemed to bombard your every thought.

Part: 1

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Masterlist

Sleepy Assistance (Chanyeol

A Day With The Little Lamb (Yixing)

Scared Of Loneliness (Sehun)

Love Heals The Soul (Junmyeon)

Yixing Soulmate Au

The Cheesy Charmer (Minseok)

Nervous About Debut (Minseok)

Jongin in University

Homecoming (Jongdae)

Getting Caught Making Out (Junmyeon)

Healing In The Midst Of War (Yixing)

Exo’s Reaction To Their Gf Being A Writer

All About You (Kyungsoo)

Baekhyun And His Reserved Girlfriend

Mafia!boss Kyungsoo part 1

Mafia!boss Kyungsoo part 2

Mafia!boss Kyungsoo part 3

Mafia!boss Kyungsoo part 4

A Better Day With Him (Jongin)

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A Better Day With Him (Jongin)

With the way your week had gone, you felt as if the world was out to get you and had some master plan to tear you down. You had been so stressed that you felt as if you didn’t even have time to stop and breathe. With so many thoughts running through your mind and so many small things needed to be done you barely had any time to eat. Of course, you did your best to eat when you could- if you remembered. Your shoulders ached and felt as if the weight of the world sat on top of them.

As your footsteps brought you to your apartment front door, you took in a deep breath. In all honesty all you wanted to do was hide under your covers. You turned the key in the lock and pushed the front door open with all of your might. Stepping through the door frame, you tore off your backpack from your shoulders and in all your anger flung it across the room.

“WOAH,“ the voice coming from your right side startled you. You watched as a body jumped from their spot on the couch. Your eyes met with your boyfriend and you felt your chest tighten. Your breath hitched in your throat and felt your body go weak. You had no energy left in you to pretend that everything was okay and that you were fine. You weren’t even sure if you wanted to talk about what had been going on in your life.

        You felt horrible for not letting him in on how you were doing. You just couldn’t even fathom the feelings you were feeling. How could you explain to him what you were feeling, if you didn’t even know what you were feeling? You felt embarrassed that you were at such a low. Of course, there was no need to feel embarrassed but, you still felt silly. Fortunately, he had been so busy that he only had time to text you lately. You’d mainly ask how he was doing rather than the other way around. However, seeing you in this state made him feel guilty for not taking the time to text you about how you were doing.

“Honey, are you okay?” You felt your stomach twist in knots and felt tears threatening to spill over. His voice was so gentle and soothing. The way he emphasized your pet name made you feel horrible for not letting him know that you were having a tough time. You stood there frozen as your boyfriend stepped closer to you but kept his distance not knowing if you needed him too close to you. “Honey?” His words brought you out of your intrusive thoughts. Your eyes met with his and your body began shaking. Your eyes landed on the floor as you fiddled with your fingers. Tears welled up in your eyes and you gasped for air as they spilled over and streamed down your cheeks.

Your boyfriend inched closer to you and opened his arms waiting for you to embrace him. He watched as you chewed on your lip and your tears stained your cheeks. His heart tore at the sight of you fighting your tears. He watched as you gasped again for air and crumbled to your feet. Allowing himself to break the space that you needed, he grew closer to you and enveloped your body in his arms. You buried your face into his chest and stained his blue button up with your tears. He hummed gently as he held you in his arms. His fingers delicately ran through your hair to help calm you down.

Being in his arms is what you so desperately needed after having such a difficult time. “Jongin,“ You choked out barely even able to breath. His kind eyes peered down and met with yours. “mm?” He mumbled. You shook your head and buried your head into the crook of his neck. He slightly tightened his embrace and rocked you gently.

“It’s okay to cry,” he whispered.  You sniffled at his words and nodded lightly. The both of you stayed there for some time before you broke the silence. “What are you doing here?” He chuckled at your words. “I just felt like I needed to see you.” You nodded again before he looked down at you again. “Should I order some take out?” His words were so soft and sounded like a whisper. You nodded slightly, realizing you hadn’t really eaten anything all day. “Why don’t you change into some comfy clothes while I order food?” He stood up and swiftly placed you on your feet.

You sheepishly smiled at him and gave a half smile. “The usual please,” you mumbled. A sweet smile arose on his lips. “Of course, honey.” He motioned for you to go change your clothes and you nodded. Your feet dragged your body through the hallway and into your room. Your body felt heavy and all the exhaustion tugged at you. But, you were so happy that Jongin was here to be beside you.

Once you had changed into comfortable clothes and tied up your hair, you made your way back into the living room. Jongin was sat on the couch and his head popped up to look at you. You smiled slightly at him and he winked. “The food is on its way and I ordered some desert too.” You grinned at his words and sat beside him. He scooted closer to you and wrapped his arms around you again. “Your bear is always here for you,” he cooed. You snickered at his words. Your pet name was honey, since he always cuddled you as if he were a bear.

Once the food arrived, he watched as you scarfed the food down. He shook his head and pouted his lip. “You haven’t been eating.” His voice was low, and you frowned knowing how concerned he’d be. “I haven’t had time,” you trailed off. He added more food to your plate and sighed. He watched as your head bowed and he crawled over to your side and kissed your cheek. “I’m not trying to scold you. I’m just sad that it’s been so tough for you that you haven’t had time to eat.” You nodded and watched as his eyes lingered on you, his face was filled with worry and sadness.

Finishing up the last of the food, he turned towards you. “Please let me know when you’re having a hard time. I feel so bad that I didn’t check in on you properly.” You nodded and sighed. “I’m sorry, I feel bad that I didn’t tell you. But.. to be honest I wasn’t sure what these feelings were. How can I explain to you if I don’t even know what’s going on?” He nodded at your words. “It’s okay to not understand your feelings, but please let me know when you start feeling odd. I love that you’re always supporting me and comforting me. But, I’d like to do the same for you. It’s not fair if you’re dealing with these feelings alone but, helping me with my feelings.” You watched as he trailed off and his face turned towards you again. “Did you not tell me because you thought I was already too busy?”

You watched as Jongin’s face flushed with guilt and you shook your head instantly. “No, I just wasn’t sure what was going on. I didn’t tell you because I couldn’t even understand myself.” Jongin nodded and let out a sigh of relief. He was worried that you didn’t want to tell him because he was already busy, but that wasn’t true. He’d always make time for you no matter how busy he was.

A kind smile spread across his lips as he turned towards you. “How about we put on a movie and put on face masks?” You giggled knowing that two minutes into the movie Jongin would fall asleep. Whenever he was at your apartment and you two tried watching movies he’d always fall asleep. He let you pick out the movie and he picked out the face masks. Your feet lead you to the pile of movies you had, and you picked out a studio Ghibli movie since they always helped you relax. You watched as he returned with two face masks that had animal faces on them.

He held the face masks up and laughed. You laughed with him as you saw the animal faces on the masks. There was a bear face mask and a bee mask. After putting the movie on the two of you sat on the couches covered in blankets. The sweet comfortable silence filled the air. His arms were gently wrapped around your frame. Your head lay on his chest and you felt his chest rise and fall as he took in and exhaled every breath. His fingers gently ran through your hair. The movie was only background noise to you enjoying being in Jongin’s arms. You heard his snickers and laughs as the funny scenes passed.

You looked up to admire his face and how engrossed he was in the movie. Once he felt your eyes on him, his eyes peered down to meet yours. His lips puckered up and he blew a kiss and giggled. A chuckle erupted out of you and a smile grew on his lips. “I’ve missed your laugh.” Your eyes lingered on his as he pulled your body closer to his. His head moved closer to your face and he placed his forehead on yours. You watched as his kind eyes stared back at you. “I want to be there during your hardest days.” He whispered and placed a kiss on your head, and shifted so that your head was on his chest again. You took in a deep breath of air and felt the warmth tugging at you and making your eyes heavy. It wasn’t long before the warmth and the exhaustion pulled you into sleep. You hadn’t slept so well in a while and thanks to Jongin, you felt safe enough and let go of your worries after gripping onto them so tightly. This time you were the first one to fall asleep rather than Jongin.

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@cozyangeldaze

In the same way that Kyungsoo is passionate about acting and singing, you’re passionate about drawing. He’d often spend so much time with him going over his lines and expressions. You had always spent your time drawing out your favorite scenes from his movies and dramas. You had never really told Kyungsoo about how you drew a lot of his scenes. It’s not that you were hiding it from him, you just always forgot to tell him about it. So one day while looking for his book he accidentally knocked over your sketchbook. It fell open to reveal a scene that you drew from Hyung. He was so in awe at how amazing the drawing looked. When he went back to tell you he found his book, he fawned over how amazing your drawings were. He was so touched that you spent your free time drawing your favorite scenes from all the works he had poured all his time and dedication in to.