expensive trills

carma's not a liar

[csak-lelegzem]

“Vajon hiányzik neki hogy beszéljünk?”

—

[acutelesbian]

A lot of people ask me what my biggest fear is, or what scares me most. And I know they expect an answer like heights, or closed spaces, or people dressed like animals, but how do I tell them that when I was 17 I took a class called Relationships For Life and I learned that most people fall out of love for the same reasons they fell in it. That their lover’s once endearing stubbornness has now become refusal to compromise and their one track mind is now immaturity and their bad habits that you once adored is now money down the drain. Their spontaneity becomes reckless and irresponsible and their feet up on your dash is no longer sexy, just another distraction in your busy life. Nothing saddens and scares me like the thought that I can become ugly to someone who once thought all the stars were in my eyes.

[fat-thin-skinny]

this fucks me up every single time

[acutelesbian]

I never expected this to be my most popular poem out of the hundreds I’ve written. I was extremely bitter and sad when I wrote this and I left out the most beautiful part of that class.

After my teacher introduced us to this theory, she asked us, “is love a feeling? Or is it a choice?” We were all a bunch of teenagers. Naturally we said it was a feeling. She said that if we clung to that belief, we’d never have a lasting relationship of any sort.

She made us interview a dozen adults who were or had been married and we asked them about their marriages and why it lasted or why it failed. At the end, I asked every single person if love was an emotion or a choice.

Everybody said that it was a choice. It was a conscious commitment. It was something you choose to make work every day with a person who has chosen the same thing. They all said that at one point in their marriage, the “feeling of love” had vanished or faded and they weren’t happy. They said feelings are always changing and you cannot build something that will last on such a shaky foundation.

The married ones said that when things were bad, they chose to open the communication, chose to identify what broke and how to fix it, and chose to recreate something worth falling in love with.

The divorced ones said they chose to walk away.

Ever since that class, since that project, I never looked at relationships the same way. I understood why arranged marriages were successful. I discovered the difference in feelings and commitments. I’ve never gone for the person who makes my heart flutter or my head spin. I’ve chosen the people who were committed to choosing me, dedicated to finding something to adore even on the ugliest days.

I no longer fear the day someone who swore I was their universe can no longer see the stars in my eyes as long as they still choose to look until they find them again.

[conceitedtrash]

This is so fucking important and I think it’s something I needed right now

[hovita]

“I’ve chosen the people who were committed to choosing me, dedicated to finding something to adore even on the ugliest days.”

[chaosophia218]

[serious]

[amortizing]

“‘I still love the people I’ve loved, even if I cross the street to avoid them.”

— Uma Thurman (via amargedom)

[koltoktollabol]

Papp Ádám - Vallok

[koltoktollabol]

[depresszioszex]

Maradjunk barátok

Ez olyan mintha egy leszokóba lévő alkoholista elé leteszel egy üveg bort de nem ihat belőle.

[elengedsz]

És elszomorít a tudat,hogy nincs jövőnk

[elengedsz]

Bármennyire is szomorú ezt kimondani,te nem szeretsz engem.Nincs mit ezen szépíteni.

[elengedsz]

Elengedlek. A fenébe is, tudod mit? Menj. Rajtam ne múljon. Ha ezt akarod, menj. Nem megyek utánad. De ha elmész, akkor tényleg menj. Ne gyere vissza, még csak ne is nézz hátra. Én jól leszek. De ha nem, téged már az sem érdekelhet többet. Ne aggódj miattam, ne félts, ne mondd meg, hogy mit tegyek és mit ne. Többet már nem fognak számítani az óvó szavaid. Nem fog megdobbanni a szívem, mikor arról oktatsz ki, hogy öltözzek fel, mert megfázok, hogy ne mászkáljak egyedül éjjel a sötét utcákon, hogy vigyázzak magamra. Nem védhetsz meg. Magad elől sem védtél meg. Többet bántottál, mint bárki. Szóval menj, és ne merészeld azt mondani, hogy én rontottam el.

[elengedsz]

“De nem hibáztathatom azért , mert nem érdeklem.”

—

[osszetort-kiskrumpli]

“Olykor bele kell törődnünk abba, hogy akármilyen fájó is, érzéseink nem mindig találnak viszonzásra.”

— (via osszetort-kiskrumpli)

[leszunk-mi-meg-egyutt]

Miért kell valakit elengedned ahhoz, hogy visszataláljon hozzád?

[amargedom]

““Respect other people’s feelings. It might mean nothing to you, but it could mean everything to them.””

— Roy T. Bennett (via goodreadss)

[expensivetrills]

!!!!!!

[kissedbythevoid]

[amargedom]

““I didn’t want to wake up. I was having a much better time asleep. And that’s really sad. It was almost like a reverse nightmare, like when you wake up from a nightmare you’re so relieved. I woke up into a nightmare.””

— Ned Vizzini, It’s Kind of a Funny Story (via goodreadss)