Life Of A Highschooler

Eyes that dash/ minor

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“Are you sick “

“You look washed out”

“Your eyes look strange”

Thank you I came out 🤩

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My sondag skool meneer sê

Kaylie nee dit gaan mos nou NIE werk NIE-

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You are everything I want to be

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I’m slightly proud of this though would someone please critique it for me ?

<3

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WAIT I GOTTA UPDATE THE REAL VERSION THE ONE I ACTUALLY WROTE ITS SO FUNNY PLS

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Im dumb no I really am quite dumb and boring, I’m really not interesting in anyway besides my music taste, I need my dads permission to breathe and I can’t rebel in anyway shape or form or else they’ll cry, I’m dumb, but atleast being quiet and unknown is a good thing?

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I can’t wait for my dads side to no longer be in my life

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I wanna spend the rest of my life with this person , I’k I’m 16 and it’s whoremoans but I love them so much, they’ve been there for me when I came out they’ve been here , they’ve been my light on the darkest days, I want to help them in any and every way I can, they mean the world to me and have helped me grow and learn as a person since I met them, I feel comforted by thier presence and i leef loved, it’s a bit strange not to get asked for head constantly but I like it! I feel free and not trapped , they are absolutely beautiful too, thier fave is so perfectly built and it just so perfectly them, I love thier eyes I could drown in them for months, I like thier hands and how fluidly they move, I love how deeply they care for their friends and the little ways they show it, I love how they treat thier cats and thier cats reactions on them, I love how they’ve to aight me so much about myself, thier honesty and clear way of communicating is something I have so much respect for,

Tldr I love my gf

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Wearing thier hoodie feels like a hug, a comfort I know I don’t deserve, yet it’s the comfort I could drown in, the comfort of drowsy slow mornings, the comfort of a heavy blanket and faded music, the comfort of old sokkies laced with cat hairs, the comfort of the blue wave of their eyes, the same eyes I could drown in for hours and hours on end , the glitters of midmorn winter sunlight on thier perfectly imperfect skin, the sound of her rainy voice graceing my sleepy ears, the bliss of her lips touching mine, her hands never seeming to warm mine, I don’t think I knew what it’s like to be truly in love before this, you’ve asked me this, I don’t think my past experiences really were a type of love, I don’t think I had time to understand and learn the person, I think I was blinded by what I wanted,by what they wanted, I don’t know

I think I like being in love I like actually getting to be with someone who I like, I like not being forced, I like learing the small things about you, the little things that make you you, the way your smile twists and turns in it’s own way, the way you wrap your fingers around mine, how your eye contact shows more than you’d like to admit,the lil triples you make when you’re happy, I don’t even think you know about those my point is i love you and I love being with you and learning about you

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Is my happiness even worth something if it causes my parents so much pain?

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My parents keep bringing up my my ex bf… I am a lesbian with the most wonderful gf I’m closeted ofc but I feel like it’s pretty obvi? My mum keeps mentioning his insta posts about his muscles and fuckimg iritates me so much, I feel like they want me to go back to him , I wanna cry scream and just be with my gf I mis them so much and they make life a little bit easier

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I have this deep guttral pain in my chest, my organs are rotting, and the flies are eating what’s left of me, there’s this deep clear hole through my chest, bearly covers by thin lears of see through skin, I have this deep guterral pain in my body

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The guy who helped me realise that the church and religion kinda sucks

The same guy who ranted for hours about the all the shit that the Christian church did

Now goes to church and is a Christian now

I feel fuckn betrayed

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Ek voel my brain werk oor tyd

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First period I read a letter my friend for her grandmother in the hospital and cried second period I got told how blackout drunk my best friend and laughed at videos of them

WERE A FUCKING CRISTAIN ALL GIRLS SCHOOL

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My mom and I walking down the hall at the same time

Me : boxing position

My mom : also boxing

Me : I’m sorry you gave birth to me

My mom: I’m not

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Y’all know the girl I was talking about? The girl I never even spoke to bc I was so scared? The stupid irrational crush I had on her? The way I’d let her fucking run me into

FUUUUUUUUUUU-

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WHY ARE ALL THE MATRIX SO GOT DANM HOT THIS YEAR????? LIKE HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO FOCUS IF IM GONNA BE SERVING YOU AT THE END OF THE YEAR????ashbdjsnjdjs