i lose 1 william calories a day by overthinking and being paranoid and daydreaming about an ideal life to prevent any chance of existing in reality for more than 2 seconds
i bring a sort of everyone is awful and annoying and hates me and everything is a personal attack on me to the sleep deprivation that the me don't really like
me writing: oh my GOD i NEED to research this HISTORICAL PERIOD from over 1000 YEARS AGO so i can WRITE THE MINOR HISTORICAL PART OF MY STORY 100% HISTORICALLY ACCURATE down to EVERY SINGLE MINOR DETAIL or else EVERYONE will KILL ME