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lilian / 22 about me!

[bbluelamb]

telling myself that all i need are my friends but my friends don't even miss me enough to plan hang outs. i get that we're all adults now with jobs and lives of our own but it makes me sad that i feel like i'm grasping for any sort of connection anymore???

no one ever wants to hang out with me besides my bf and my singular internet friend and i am grateful for them but as someone who grew up a loner, it really really hits me harder to feel this distance from people i used to be SO close to. i just want community and connection again

[bbluelamb]

do any of my mutuals on here use twitter or bluesky ......... i miss my tumblr moots 😔

[bbluelamb]

i SHOULD call my boyfriend bc i'm feeling suicidal but i feel like such a burden .... he didn't ask to date a depressed ass person like me

[bbluelamb]

i feel like i don't deserve friendships because i'm either always depressed or too tired to hang out with anyone or to put in any effort for anything and maybe thats why i'm not very close with anyone anymore. they don't deserve half assed friendship just because i seem to always have something going on in my life. i've been a loner for the most important years of my life and that loneliness unfortunately just sticks to me forever. maybe i deserve to feel this way

[bbluelamb]

i don't wanna live like this anymore 😔😔 i don't even have the will to live and to make changes in my life. i just wanna die.

i'm tired of having parents in my life do nothing but make my life worst.

[bbluelamb]

i genuinely want to die and i feel like i should reach out for help but ppl are just gonna ask me why like!!!!! idk!!!! i just do!! or tell me to keep going or be strong like!!!! no! i don't wanna do that. i'm tired

[bbluelamb]

i don't remember why i made my tumblr hot dog themed

[bbluelamb]

feeling like i'm not important in anyone's lives bc no one other than my bf talks to me or reaches out to me or wants to hang out with me. if i stopped sending snaps or reaching out or asking to hang out i would simply cease to exist. i am nothing

[snaxle-deactivated20260531]

I DONT WANNA PAY BILLS I WANNA USE MY MONEY FOR FOOD AND LIL GIFTS FOR MYSELF AND MY LOVED ONES

[snaxle-deactivated20260531]

this post was a big hit in the adults who have bills to pay fandom

[bbluelamb]

sewer slidal ideation has become purposely not peeing in hopes i get kidney failure and praying that my fever is the beginning to my death :///

[bbluelamb]

is it time for me to use tumblr as a venting space again since my bf doesn't know my tumblr name? yes maybe so

[mrn0093]

[bbluelamb]

i literally hate how tumblr feels and looks now ........ bring me back to the old days .... i am a twitter scroller now help

[brokenplaything-deactivated2017]

[tyaz]

Tasting yourself ain't kinky that's just something you do. the chef must taste the dish before he can serve it confidently

[bbluelamb]

i'm a twitch streamer now

[sundazesoul]

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